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the it girl’s spring cleaning

phone reset

delete old contacts and messages

go through social media following

delete unused apps

go through photos

set a new wallpaper

add widgets for reminders, weather, battery, etc.

delete old songs and add new ones

environmental reset

clean your bedroom (vacuum, dust, put clothes away, etc.)

sort through and donate old clothes

organize your makeup, skincare, etc.

wash or change your bedsheets

rearrange your bedroom

open your windows and curtains to let fresh air in

get outdoors

clean your home with fresh scented products (lemon, lavender, etc.)

physical reset

try a new workout routine

get some new outfits

do a face mask

exfoliate and shave

oil your hair or do a hair mask

try a new hair color, cut, or style

do your nails or get your nails done

get some fresh makeup and try a new makeup routine

do a lip mask and scrub

mental reset

start journaling or try some new prompts

do a refreshing meditation

try a new yoga practice or workout

read instead of scrolling

put a time limit on your phone usage

reset your sleep schedule

[kiyoominee]

Vow circa 2021

Den,

I have always loved writing letters for you, because we both know that I am not good in showing it through my actions nor in my unintentional sarcastic rebuttals in our daily conversation. Though you have always loved and appreciated everyone that way, by their authenticity, and you have loved me the same, because that’s how genuine you are.

Remember when I was badly hurt by a situation that involved a heart break? I prayed. Of course, you know, we were friends. I told God the next time I encounter love, I’d have no regrets, that I would pour my all, because the next time I love, it’ll be someone who He would love for me to recognize. That is how you entered the narrative, our narrative. You were someone who I prayed for, and you are still the person who I keep on praying for.

It was ironic for people to see us together, because the first time you heard about me from someone, you told him that I was ugly. It became more entertaining when we realized that I was the girl your siblings hated, for I was too strict in our Drum and Lyre practice. Our relationship was betted by our friends, classmates, teachers, and even us, that this will only last for three months. How funny to think that I am still writing for you even if many years have passed.

Maybe it’s because we had it easy? Maybe because we just let things be? But no.

We didn’t have it easy, and we certainly did not let just thing be. We were young, growing and figuring out our lives. It wasn’t a rollercoaster ride, because we were impulsively playing seesaw, we never knew when to rise and fall, not until we learned to stop, got off and walked. It’s the best thing that ever happened to me, because I was used to walking home alone, but you taught me the importance of walking together. Same pace at the same time, so love, I have told you this in our second anniversary and will tell you again. Thank you for walking me home, when walking with you feels like home.

You know it’s kind of scary to feel this way for someone, to feel how sure I am in seeing a future with you. Though it doesn’t matter anymore because I know that you feel the same way. I know because I remember back then, when you were waking me home, you told me you wanted to court me, and I told you that you should do it in our house, in front of my parents. It was scary and risky, but look where our courage and honesty got us now? I heard Mama tell you that if ever something happens to her and Papa (I hope not), she’d be at ease because I am with you. Your love was so genuine that it wasn’t only limited to me, it was felt by my family as well.

You told me that you’re lucky because you have me, I begged to differ. It’s the other way around, I am blessed that you’re in my life. I used to think that I gave more, that I showed more, and sacrificed more than you did. I realized now that I didn’t, it’s only because you loved me deeply first. You were the one who taught me that you can give one person the different kinds of love in this world. I love you when I am happy. I love you when I am in pain. I love you when I am scared. I love you when I am angry. I love you when all else fails. And I love you because you taught me that I am not hateful, with that I learned to love myself.

No pretty promises, Den. I’ll be there to love and embrace you regardless of the situation that we face. We’ll figure it out together. Oh, I almost forgot, thank you for understanding that our relationship is better off exclusive to our family and some friends when we decided to sort things out. I always see love as something inclusive, present in every act of goodness, but I wanted ours to be ours alone. If I loved you in the midst of chaos, I love you even more now that we have our peace and quiet.

Today, I am telling you that I am grateful you stayed and when you wake up the next day, I’d still be grateful, for your love, appreciation, respect, and most importantly your patience. Even if there comes a day when you realize that I am not worthy of it all, I’d still be grateful. You have loved me enough for it to last a lifetime.