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Gail Honeyman, Eleanor Oliphant Is Completely Fine / Susan Sontag, As Consciousness Is Harnessed to Flesh / Olivia Laing, The Lonely City: Adventures in the Art of Being Alone / Tahereh Mafi, Shatter Me / Kitty Stryker, “Radical Self-Reliance” Is Killing People.  / Yiyun Li, Dear Friend, From my Life I Write to You in Your Life

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there is no road

buddie, 9-1-1, 99k words. ao3.

Eddie listens to the voicemail later. Buck sounds like he’s at a grocery store, absentmindedly talking into the phone. “Oh, I guess you’re with your sisters. Sorry to miss you. I just wanted to tell you about this call we had last night, but I gotta hear your reactions, so, later. Okay, uh, I guess I’ll just call back. Or text.” It ends abruptly, without a goodbye. Eddie replays it a second time, closes his eyes as he sits in the truck. For a moment, he can pretend Buck is sitting in the passenger seat next to him. For a moment, Eddie is back in Los Angeles and his best friend is dragging him through the grocery store. The voicemail ends, Eddie opens his eyes, and the fantasy breaks. Eddie is still in El Paso, parked in front of the house he’s renting, and there’s no one in the passenger seat with him.

Eddie moves to Texas. Buck moves into his house. There's a love story somewhere in here.

tags: pov alternating, family dynamics, mutual pining, canon-typical violence/injuries, mental health issues, jealousy, feelings realization, injury recovery, slow burn

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Ada Limón, from “The Good Fight”, Bright Dead Things

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michelle's buddie fic recs: week 7!

in which i handed in a thesis proposal, caught a cold, and read some lovely fics... it's been a wild week lol

this is a mix of fics with all ratings, so some include NSFW content. please take a look at both the ratings and the fic tags before reading! some might also contain spoilers for season 8.

if you come across something you like in this list, remember to show some love to the author by leaving kudos and a comment!

baby that's why i fell into you | playinginthunderstorms/@playinginthunderstorms | 1.7k | GA

Eddie has amnesia, Buck struggles. genuinely one of the best love confessions i've read in ages <3 this had me smiling so much!!

call me what you will | ameliahart | 5.9k | E

A  continuation of 8x06 where Buck pouts, Eddie feels joy, and they fuck about it. genuinely i will eat up any and all post-8x06 fics and this is no exception... love the eddie characterisation here!!

faded from the winter | Daisies_and_Briars/@cal-daisies-and-briars | 9.9k | T

Eddie struggles to bounce back after the shooting. Buck starts leaving him with his service dog, Cranberry. cranberry fic!! i love this series so so much <3 especially love the eddiemaddie friendship in this one!

golden morning sunbeams | Buddiesmutslut/@buddiesmutslut | 10.3k | GA

As Eddie is debating his move to Texas, a few texts from his son in the middle of the day set him on a course to getting everything he's been wanting. such a fascinating look at the whole chris in texas/helena and ramon doing whatever the fuck it is that they're doing plot! so good!! and buck here is just <3

hopeless, breathless, burning slow | mostardent/@laracrofted | 14.9k | M

After the coma, Buck struggles to feel real and unofficially moves in with Eddie. there's some gorgeous gorgeous imagery in this one <3 one of the best post-coma fics ever!!

let me give you my life | paleredheadinascifi | 6.4k | T

another take on what happened after the couch scene. Eddie *wants*. They're both brave about it. they're so brave about it <3 wonderful fic!!

slaughterhouse | kithmet/@kithmet | 21.3k | E

Eddie announces he’s leaving. Buck, naturally, begins a slow descent to madness. such a stunning fic it genuinely left me speechless... the most beautiful codependent freak4freak buddie <3 an immediate bookmark for sure!!

take two falls out of three | doitgently/@doitbuckley | 16.3k | M

Eddie tries to go to Texas. What do you get when you cross a man and an eighteen-wheeler truck? such a fantastic look at chris and eddie's relationship <3 beautiful writing!!

the moon like a spotlight | dykeries/@buddiesbian | 4.7k | E

Three months after Eddie moves to El Paso, Buck comes to visit. this is sappy and soft and also funny (the starnaming!!) and just so very perfect <3

the rainbows we chase | timeshareindestin/@timeshareindestin | 5.8k | M

buck accidentally makes an appointment for their first kiss. the proposals!! i love the proposals!! love is stored in the calendar indeed <3 so so good!

too far from the sun | idiotsinkdaisies/@idiotsinkdaisies | 9k | M

Where Eddie Diaz spends time in El Paso, and handles it fine. Buck is back in Los Angeles, and Eddie does not feel the hundreds of miles between them like a physical ache. (He might be lying to himself.) blanket rec for an author whose work i've been LOVING this week!! this one has the most stunning writting and eddie characterisation and i love it so much <3

u/fuckley's reddit post history. | dylaesthetics | 7.9k | M

the emotional rollercoaster of Buck’s Reddit posts throughout the history of knowing Eddie. this is such a brilliantly formatted fic!! i read this on a cold dark bus back home and it was exactly what i needed <3

what if all i need is you | serenelystrange/@serenelystrange | 3k | GA

“Eddie doesn’t even like men,” Buck says with a frown. “I asked.” “Of course you did,” Chim says, dropping his head into his hand with a murmured whisper of *Jesus Christ*. another blanket rec for an author who's been posting some truly brilliant works <3 this one is soft and fun and has such lovely firefam interactions!!

with a little water and a little bit of sunlight | teaspoonmoon/@young-waverer | 4.7k | T

The one where it's not Homes.com but it's also not porn on the iPad. such a lovely alternate ipad-scene <3 so sweet!! i love the dialogue here especially!

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Jennette McCurdy, I'm Glad My Mom Died

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I know I sound insane right now but this is my blog where I act insane

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omg i finally read slaughterhouse and it was SO GOOD that was stunning thank you for sharing

omg!!!! thank you this is SO nice especially since i love your fics so much. i still have to read the recent two i am mentally #Preparing because i know i will be going through it but i’m excited 🫶🏽

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if i am speaking my honest to god truth on this earth i think buddie is TPE but vers about it. like i think on the daily, eddie is usually like nipping at buck's ear to correct him on stuff and rewarding him when he's being awesome and because it's coming from such a peer-to-peer place, buck is happy to be corrected and guided especially because eddie almost always makes him laugh when he does it instead of making him feel like a Bad Dog and also eddie thinks a lot of buck's stuff is funny and charming so he's not being evil about buck occasionally acting out for attention. but! eventually eddie starts feeling like he Needs to be in control instead of enjoys being in control so Making Good Decisions For Buck makes him retreat into himself to be sonhusbanddad again -- obviously buck immediately notices that happen because he's so attuned to eddie and his moods and suddenly the dynamic changes where eddie is trying not to give anything away and buck is hunting him down and questioning all of his expressions and driving him to the point of vulnerability and then he's picking out eddie's clothes and his food and taking over christopher's childcare and making appointments for eddie and all eddie has to do is ask buck what's next and buck tells him and eddie likes that because he trusts buck and he knows buck would never guide him into something bad like the army did when eddie got this way. and eddie is filled with a sense of gratitude and comfort and slowly he rebuilds his confidence in himself and buck as a unit and partnership and then one day he's like oh buck blue shirt not red with those shoes and buck looks down and he's like ! great call eddie :) and it starts again.

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fallacy of the local body

buddie, 9-1-1, explicit. ao3. post-s7, bodyswap

Eddie doesn’t rush towards the mirror. He’s—apprehensive. This could be a very weird, very vivid dream. That’s the easiest answer, except he pinches himself and it does nothing but make his wrist smart. Not a dream he can wake himself up from like that, Eddie decides. After standing in the middle of the closet, Eddie cautiously makes his way towards the bathroom and the mirror. It’s Buck. Of course, the person in the mirror is Buck.

Christopher is gone for the summer and Eddie is—aimless. Drifting. Everything is different, and he can't fix any of it, much less himself. He wishes he were different. Someone that doesn't have as much baggage, or misery, or so much empty time on his hands.

Naturally, he wakes up one morning as Buck.

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big little brother

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put your dog on a leash

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And that was it? That was it.

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we will never be alone again

buddie | chapter 1 of 4 | 11.7k | teen and up (so far)

"Maybe we just calm down and talk like adults,” Buck says, once the car is situated back within its lane. “Adults?” Eddie asks, inches away from trying to grab the steering wheel again. “You kidnapped me!” “Kidnapped is such a harsh word, don’t think of it as getting kidnapped,” Buck says quickly, “think of it as an all-expenses paid vacation to Pennsylvania. Doesn’t that sound fun?” * In which Eddie was already having a rough month before he got kidnapped, and Buck is a man at the end of his rope.

It's a Holiday in Handcuffs/Átame AU! I've also been informed that this is the plot of Buffalo 66 too. Insane how many romcoms there are about kidnapping. I guess there's something to it!

featuring: second meetings, true love, buck being absolutely insane, eddie doing his honest to god best at a low point, fake relationships, a cross-country road trip for the holidays and two guys who are supposed to be one person

special thanks to @pikapitou for betaing the first chapter for me!!! hope you all enjoy!

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writing demons have been strong and horrific lately i keep mentally changing the “plot” to this “porn without plot” fic up in my brain. really i just want to write buddie being freakish with each other when it comes down to it

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I’m not engaging with hate or baseless accusations so sending me anons is pointless and I’m too relaxed about this now to care about what anyone thinks of me, I feel like I handled myself as maturely as I possibly could considering the circumstances. Thank you!

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crash test anthem

gear shift harmony part 2/2

part 1/2

by @clytemnestraaa

Bobby is still giving him that look, halfway between gentleness and concern, Bobby says, “It’s hard to have people you care about far away.” And Buck says, “Why are you all talking about him like he’s gone? He’s not gone.” “I mean,” Chim says. “Buck, he bought a house.” “Yeah, but the old one hasn’t sold yet,” Buck says, and he hears how ridiculous that sounds. - Buck is not having a great time in Los Angeles.

Relationships: Evan "Buck" Buckley/Eddie Diaz (9-1-1 TV)

Tags: Evan "Buck" Buckley Has Abandonment Issues, Healing, Personal Growth, Character Study, Self-Harm, Angst with a Happy Ending, buck's turn in the torment nexus

17.3k words, rated E

a million billion thank yous to the amazing beta battalion @pikapitou and @absolutelybifurious and @buckdiazlafd and @pairofraggedclaws love y'all

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thoughts on

please for the love of god turn them back off