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Maybe Motivational?

If you’re the more practical type like me, I find that finances are a really good fasting motivator.

I eat whatever canned soup is on sale and monster ultra zero, and I literally do not need to waste more money than that on something that will end up in the toilet anyways. I literally never spend more than 4 bucks a day, and I don’t have to cook or nervously measure things out. If I want to splurge, maybe I’ll be some lettuce or a pack of kosher light franks, which can last a super long time.

Imagine how much money normies waste on food. Chain restaurants be charging 16 to 22 dollars a plate, and we aren’t even talking about the exorbitant cost of booze or a fancy restaurant! In saving myself those extra 12 to 18 dollars a day that would literally otherwise end up in the toilet, I could buy myself vacations, concert truckers, clothes, gym membership, hobby purchases, etc.

Remember! The cost of food goes beyond just calories!

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Mood

why did I ever delete my tumblr page and choose recovery... im such a whale and I used to be so famous here too ;(

missing my fame era

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I feel like my ex would be with me if it weren’t for my weight

I just want to be fragile and pretty. I want to be loved.

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Yesssss

So I was at the doctor's office and I thought I weight 60kg (132lbs) at 5'9 but turns out I'm actually 50kg (110lbs)!!!

So reblog for suprise weight loss or something

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i want to be skinny enough for the victoria secret christmas pyjamas

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This resonates with me, even though I don’t want to recover lol

Being fat, actually fat, with an eating disorder is fucking hell.

People assume you have BED, and if you actually do have BED people are so gross about it. If you have a restricting disorder people get concerned when you start eating more. People get concerned if you start to like yourself. People love to see you fucking miserable, and will completely ignore your misery in the same breath. It makes them feel good. They benefit at your expense through weight stigma.

So many physicians prescribe disordered eating to us. ED specialists in many places won’t even consider how EDs affect us. Our own community uses our bodies as inspiration to hurt themselves. Because nothing could be worse than looking like us, right? How are you supposed to love yourself when so many people actively don’t want you to?

To the fat person reading who needs to hear this, I give a shit if you recover. I give a shit that you are hurting. So many people don’t notice, so many don’t give a fuck, but I do. You deserve better. I want you to eat even if it means you gain weight. I want you to be happy in your body as it is. I want you to feel loved, I want you to feel seen.

If you are fat with BED, I see you. There is so much stigma and it is not your fault. Your weight isn’t “your fault”, you are sick. It’s not a moral failing. You deserve compassion, and the extent to which people project their own issues onto you is awful. You deserve to be comfortable in your skin, and your body is wonderful.

If you are fat with purging tendencies, or with restricting ones I see you too. We get praised for hurting ourselves, or no one notices. I see you. I’m sorry.

I wish so badly the world were more compassionate to you, but if no one else gives a shit, I do. Fight for recovery for me, even though I know that journey can be so, so lonely when you aren’t thin.

To those of you who have recovered, to those of you that may. You are worth it. You may be fat for the rest of your life, and that’s okay. It’s wonderful, your body is wonderful, and I see you and I’m proud of you. Sadly I know many of us recover alone, but I hope you know you aren’t. I’m rooting for you.

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I mean sure

need friends

i need friends to lose weight with no softies plzs

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Day 2: 295 calories

Lettuce with salt/ pepper/ garlic powder (5)

1/2 can of Monster ultra zero (5)

Kosher light frankfurter with hot sauce (45)

Progresso light chicken soup (240)

I feel hungry today, but it’s whatever #weightlossdiary

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Day 1: 335 calories

Pret small tomato/ feta soup (170)

Progresso light Minestrone (160)

1/2 can of Monster Ultra Zero (5)

Going to Pret screwed me over today, that soup wasn’t even filling and the calories weren’t worthwhile… Thank fuck for Progresso #weightlossdiary

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Weight Loss Diary Intro

HW: 253 (hell)

CW: Probably 200 (I don’t get regular access to a scale bc fuck my life lol)

UGW: 95

Yes, my CW is morbidly obese, and yes, my UGW is underweight… I’m a faker ya’ll 🙃 Went mia to bed, finally landing on ana #weightlossdiary