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I wish I could provide more for my future daughter :(

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Rasanya menangis pun sudah tidak kuat. Serba salah. Mengemukakan pendapat dianggap terlalu egois, katanya semuanya semau saya padahal yang saya lakukan hanya melempar opsi. Begitulah kalau si keras dilahirkan oleh si keras pula. Apa boleh buat selain saling mendiamkan untuk sementara sampai ada salah satu dari kami yang menurunkan ego.

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21st of june 2023 was the first time we met.

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Hari ini 12 juni 2023 di sore hari tiba-tiba ibu masuk ke kamar dan bilang, “Dila siap-siap ada temannya ibu yang mau lihat”. I was like, what!! Kondisiku saat itu baru bangun, kemudian hanya makai celana pendek wakk. Akhirnya buru-buru bangun, ngambil wudhu, terus kabur ke atas rumah untuk ngadu ke nenek. Akhirnya temannya ibu pulang tanpa sempat lihat saya sama sekali. I don’t know where this would lead, let’s just pray for the best.

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I didn’t realize that this little heart of mine still aching every time the memories of you are passing by my head.

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I guess you will always be one of my favorites situationship. It was brief but I felt loved.

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Everything seemed fine in the beginning but i don’t know what went wrong and suddenly you couldn’t be reached. I guess it’s because we took things too rush. It’s aching but it will pass, this too shall pass.

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Being ghosted is awful🥲

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When it comes to relationship matter, I’m suck!

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I said i missed him while he was away. Then he texted me that he’s still outside and couldn’t talk but still accompany me through texts. Then hours later when he got home, he video called me despite being so tired and sleepy. I asked him to sleep but he said he wanted to see me for half hour. I couldn’t be any happier.

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Being in a relationship means that you have to get used to sit in between comfort and chaos. Satu waktu dikasih rasa nyaman karena tahu ada orang yang mencarimu hanya untuk sekadar berbagi cerita, tapi di satu titik diberi resah karena yang biasanya mencari tiba-tiba sibuk atau lebih tepatnya kamu bukan tempatnya pulang lagi untuk bercerita.

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Capek juga mencari-cari seseorang yang semestinya tak harus dicari karena dia ada, hanya tak mengindahkanmu saja.

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Fondasi utama dari sebuah hubungan adalah komunikasi tapi bagaimana komunikasi mau jalan kalau gengsi masih mengudara tinggi!

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I kinda expect the situation to be going south like this. Nothing has ever been easy for me in regards to relationship. I am way too embarrassed to start the convo, yet feeling upset when you didn’t text haha. Too egoistic i guess.

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Only with him i could talk this long, every day for the past week.

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Cari-cari penyakit sendiri haha!

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I prolly put too many expectations on us!