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the plan? play with my toy

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i invite you over to my house and while we're greeting each other at the door i turn around and yell "down boy! DOWN! NO!" and you just see a caterpillar moving very slowly across the floor toward you

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*goes to egg your house but I find out you're vegan so I ¼ cup of unsweetened applesauce your house instead*

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i have two fujoshis advising me at all times

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Doechii Best Rap Album acceptance speech at the 67th Annual GRAMMY Awards | February 2, 2025

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might cancel this whole healing thing and start listening to the voices

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"it was in 2020" oh so like a year or so ago. a couple years. im sorry 5? did you just say five? five years ago ?

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THE FENG SHUI OF THIS WEBSITE IS FUCKED

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Anti-ICE protesters are blocking both sides of the 101 Freeway in Los Angeles (02 February 2025)

The protests are still going on.

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you are 16. you are talking with a gay man in his 50s or 60s, a friend, huge and gentle with a scarf and short fluffy curls of gray hair, who has directed you in two plays staged in your mid-size artsy town. (he has not yet asked you to be in his production of The Laramie Project which will change your life. this conversation will also change your life.)

he is talking about theatre. he is talking about theatre when he was younger. he says, "of course, it was AIDS then." in the pause, you ask him. clumsy and quiet and 16 and "straight," you ask him. what was it like.

he takes a moment in which his face is not like a person's face. "there was a time," he says, "i'm not sure how long, years. when i went to a funeral every weekend." he tells you about two funerals in a day, and choosing between friends when you couldn't make it to both. he does not look at you, he looks at them. his wet grey gaze is so clear that you start to see ghosts. it will be years before you understand why it feels like your grief too. why the ghosts call you family.

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emotional neglect didnt even affect me that much. it was the being born inherently without value that did most of the work

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ToCAC's application form is OPEN!

ToCAC is intended to be an 18+ space. PLEASE do not submit an application if you are not 18+

What is ToCAC? ToCAC stands for Trans of Color Art Collective. ToCAC is a community of Trans artists of color to collaborate, hang out, get feedback and be in a community of other trans artists of color. Who can apply to ToCAC?

Any 18+ self-identifying trans* person of color with an interest in art in any medium!

What do you mean by Trans* ? Anyone who self identifies under the trans umbrella including but not limited to:

Two-Spirit

Transgender

Transexual

Non-binary

Agender

Xenogender

Genderqueer

etc...

I will not gatekeep on the basis of identity. This community accepts every trans person with open arms. We are a space that is affirming to pre-op, no-op, no-hrt trans people!

Why was ToCAC created?

As a black trans artist student myself I found it hard to find a local community of other trans artist of color who were interested in working in similar spaces. I found that my experiences as not only a trans person, but also a trans person of color differ heavily from my white trans counterparts in the art world, and I assume I am not alone. I created ToCAC hoping to create a strong community of other trans artists of color who share the same outlook on creating work within that context. Okay... enough reading! you can apply here. The form will close August 25th (of 2024). If you apply expect an email with an invite at least a week after the closing deadline as I review applications! But if you don't get in, don't worry, I plan on periodically expanding the community!

If you have any questions please send them to the ask box :D

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I'm not a trans role model or a queer mom or whatever. I'm a dirtbag burnout commie hedonist who's gonna tell you to stop trying to please people when you're still fuckin miserable and then strongly suggest you go drop acid or suck some dick in a bathroom until you stop caring about laws and social norms. Trans liberation begins with self liberation, stop hoping for an easy guide to being trans and instead tread the path of mutilation until you've carved out everything false within yourself

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Remember when you'd turn on the radio and almost always Poker Face was playing

Back when God was still listening

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how high is your pain tolerance? (flirting)

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