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𝔹𝕣𝕖𝕒𝕜𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕌𝕡 𝕒𝕟𝕕 𝔾𝕖𝕥𝕥𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝔹𝕒𝕔𝕜 𝕋𝕠𝕘𝕖𝕥𝕙𝕖𝕣 (𝕄𝕒𝕜𝕟𝕒𝕖 𝕝𝕚𝕟𝕖)

♩ gn!reader except for felix's one which is fem!reader, angst with the slightest of fluff, romance, emotional, loads of miscommunication, crying, pregnancy in felix's scenario, mentioned alcohol consumption in seungmin's scenario

♩♩ word count: 5.5k (I am truly sorry)

♩♩♩ A/N: literally a month later, I'm here with maknae line aklsdjhad

wip list here hyung line here

special thanks to this beautiful anon ask for making these hcs possible 💞💞

Jisung

Reason for the breakup: your parents don't support your relationship

Your parents were always the type to keep a tight rein on you, controlling every choice you made in your life since you were a child.

You thought you would be able to escape their control and restraint when you reached adulthood.

But when you introduced your new boyfriend to them with delight, their expressions changed.

Especially when they hear about his career.

"Are you crazy? He's a trainee! Not to mention how unstable his job is and whether he'll end up debuting or not, he doesn't even have time for you! How can we be comfortable with that?"

You didn't know what kind of answer you were expecting, but you froze when you heard your mother blurt out those words.

It was true that he didn't have time for you, but whenever he was free, you were always the first person he thought of.

And, you were willing to believe that everything would turn out fine.

"If I love him enough, if I'm willing to wait, one day…"

"You love him enough, but how are you going to prove that he loves you back enough? How do you guarantee that he won't fall in love with someone else? How do you know he's not taking advantage of your feelings? How do you know that you are not the only one giving in this relationship? Y/N, you are our child, of course we want you to be happy…… But someone like this really isn't going to work."

Maybe it was because you've been controlled by your parents all your life, you simply didn't know how to talk back to them.

Even with plenty of reasons, you didn't dare to say another word.

Or maybe… You knew deep down that they were right.

Separation time: five years

You informed Jisung about your breakup with just one phone call.

You hung up on him before he had a chance to respond.

After that, no matter how many phone calls and messages he made, you didn't respond to him once.

Even when he was on his knees at your door begging you to open up and talk to him, you held back the pain in your heart and didn't make any response.

He tried for three whole days and was finally threatened by the company before he left from your doorstep.

And right after that, you disappeared from his life.

By the time he had the chance to return to your door, there was no one left inside.

You had moved away and left him no more messages.

Jisung was convinced from the beginning that you must have done it for a reason and only did it because you had no choice but to.

So while he kept training, he made attempts to get in touch with various friends and relatives of yours to try to get news of you and why you would suddenly break up with him.

Eventually, your best friend just couldn't take it anymore and revealed to him the truth behind what happened.

He was speechless when he learned the truth.

He believed in his love for you, he knew he wouldn't fall in love with someone else, and there was no way he would do something like take advantage of you.

But it was true that he did not have enough time to spend with you, nor was he in any position to tell you that "everything would turn out to be fine".

He had to become good enough to be able to.

Only then could he be with you openly and honestly.

So, even after learning the truth, he did not immediately contact you, but increased training intensity, and continued to move forward on the path towards "debut".

How you got back together: He went to your parents

The last time you heard about "Han Jisung" was when a friend told you that he had debuted.

Too much time has passed since then, and everything about him turned into " memories of youth".

You thought your life had nothing to do with him anymore.

But the summer of the fifth year after you broke up with him, your father, whom you had not contacted for a long time, suddenly called you.

"The kid… Han Jisung came to see me, and we talked."

The tone of your father's voice over the phone was like nothing you've ever heard before.

"He told us a lot about himself, including his journey over the past few years since his debut… And, about what happened between you two."

You felt dizzy. You hadn't heard the name "Han Jisung" for ages. Now you were suddenly hearing it from your father, and it felt like you were dreaming.

Just hearing his name, all your old memories came flooding back to you.

Including your love for him, which you have carefully cherished for five years， hidden in the deepest part of your heart.

"Y/N, he's a good kid. What happened before… We made a mistake. Jumping to conclusions before we even met him, thinking that it was impossible for you two to have happiness together……"

Your heart was beating faster and faster, everything was so unreal.

"Five years have passed and yet his heart still remains with you. Your mother and I were surprised and gratified……"

Just then, your doorbell rang suddenly.

"So, when he asked about your current address… We just told him."

You blinked as you held your breath.

"He said… What he wanted more than anything right now was to see you again."

You unlocked the door and pushed it open.

The moment you saw him, tears came falling down without you realizing it.

He seemed to have lost a lot of weight.

"Long time no see, Y/N…"

Felix

Reason for breaking up: you got pregnant

When you got back from the hospital, you locked yourself in the bathroom, trembling with the medical report in your hand.

It wasn't supposed to be this way.

You were still so young, and what's more, he was an idol.

Something like a child would only cause him a huge amount of trouble.

You knew how much Felix loved children. If he knew you were expecting, he would leave everything behind to take care of you.

That wouldn't be fair to him, it wouldn't be fair to his members.

So, for the sake of his career and future, you decided to find a reason to break up with him and raise the child on your own.

When Felix came back, you were sitting on the couch.

As usual, he came over and asked why you were up so late.

You looked at him with as much indifference as you could muster.

"Felix, I think we should break up."

The unsuspecting words froze Felix in his place.

"What…? Break up? Y/N, is… Is this some kind of a prank?"

You shook your head, "I've been thinking about it for a long time, and I don't think the two of us are right for each other."

He obviously still didn't believe you and tried to reach for your hand, only to have you avoid him.

He tried to meet your eyes, but your eyes dodged away involuntarily.

"Why so suddenly…? Did I do something wrong? I can change… We can communicate, we don't have to do this……"

Watching him struggle to suppress his emotions, you almost couldn't resist the urge to embrace him.

"There's nothing more to say, I just…… I just don't love you as much as I thought I did. I'm not willing to waste my youth on you anymore."

You uttered your pre-prepared lines.

You knew him well enough to know that if you said it was his problem, he would tell you he would fix it and would work hard to become better for you.

But if you said it was because of your own problems, such as telling him "I don't love you anymore," he had to let go.

As expected, after saying this, Felix's pupils contracted and lost their glow.

"……I see."

Separation time: three years, ten months and two weeks

After breaking up with Felix, you left Seoul with your baby and moved to another city in Korea.

There was no hustle and bustle of Seoul, but there was no Felix either.

As the months went by, your belly got bigger and bigger, and it became difficult to move around.

Your best friend, along with her brother, who both lived in the city, helped take care of you for the safety of you and the baby.

When you were alone at home, you always switched on the TV to see if there was any news about Felix.

He didn't seem any different without you, at least that's what it looked like on TV.

Every time you saw him, you would poke your belly and say to your baby inside, "Look, that's daddy."

In time, your baby sometimes responded by generally kicking your stomach.

When the nurse held him to you after he was born, you saw his eyes.

They were the exact same eyes as Felix's.

You thought you wouldn't miss him anymore, but when you saw those eyes, you couldn't help but burst into tears.

You've seen pictures of Felix as a child, and the more your son grew, the more he resembled him. You even began to wonder where your genes had gone.

Their personalities were amazingly consistent, too.

Your son was always so sweet, hardly ever cried, always had a smile on his face, and called you "mommy" ever so sweetly.

As long as you held him in your arms, he wouldn't complain about a thing.

But just when you thought he was enough like Felix, the summer he turned two, tiny freckles began to grow on his face.

"Even freckles? ……wow, you really are his son huh."

Your son was lying in your arms looking at you with big watery eyes, unable to understand what you were saying.

Yet as your child grew older, he began to ask you questions.

The most common question you get asked being "Why don't I have a dad?"

Whenever you were asked this question, you would show a sad expression.

Over time, he seemed to realize that you get sad when you ask this question, so he stopped asking it eventually.

But he always had an envious look on his face when he saw other kids with their fathers.

So to make your son feel better, you and your son decided to go to Seoul together in the summer he turned three.

Seoul was big, you wouldn't possibly run into Felix, right?

How you got back together: He ran into you and your kid

"Mommy… Mommy……"

Your son, who got separated from you in the park, was crying while walking around helplessly in this place he didn't know.

Just a moment ago, when you went to buy him cotton candy, he was distracted by a kitten. And when he came back to his senses, he no longer knew where he was.

He grew tired of walking, so he crouched in place sobbing in fear.

"Hyung, I'm gonna hang up now, there's a kid over there crying."

He heard a low voice say from not far away.

He looked up and saw a face very similar to his own.

"Hey kiddo, did you get separated from mommy and daddy?"

The person who looked like himself squatted in front of him and asked in a gentle tone.

He had a very fragrant scent on him.

Your son nodded, "I got separated from mommy……"

The man thought for a moment, then spoke again, "Can you tell me your mommy's name?"

Your son hesitates for a moment; you told him not to talk to random strangers.

But the person in front of him gave him a very familiar feeling.

Even if he had never met him before, he somehow trusted him.

"Y/N…my mommy's name, it's Y/N Y/L/N."

The eyes of the person in front of him widened as he looked at him in disbelief.

"You said, Y/N-" "Y/S/N! Y/S/N!"

Just as Felix was about to ask again, an all-too-familiar voice came from the distance.

The voice he had been thinking about day and night.

It was your voice.

"Mommy!"

Your son immediately stood up and rushed in your direction, leaving Felix alone, still in disbelief.

He too slowly stood up and watched as you and the little boy he had just met hugged each other tightly.

Meanwhile, you cried while checking your son's body to see if he was hurt.

After looking around to make sure he was okay, you cupped his face.

"I'm sorry, mommy shouldn't have let go of your hand. Were you scared just now?"

Your son nodded and then shook his head.

"At first it was scary! But then a hyung with a very low voice came to help me! There he is!"

You immediately thought of Felix when you heard "low voice".

But on second thought, how could it be him? How in the world could there be such a coincidence?

But when you looked in the direction your son pointed, you froze.

"Felix……"

He rushed over and hugged you.

"Don't ever leave me again."

……

"You only left me in the first place because you were pregnant?"

After your son fell asleep in Felix's arms, you found a cafe and sat down face to face.

You told him about all the things you had been doing for the past three years, including how much your son resembled him.

But after you finished, he still asked this very question.

"I… I'm sorry, I shouldn't have lied to you then……"

You were both adults, you should have taken responsibility for the results caused by not taking proper precautions.

You shouldn't have run away from it either, as you realized now.

You had expected Felix to lecture you, but he just reached out and caressed your cheek, his thumb gently stroking it.

"Three years, three years, ten months and two weeks, and not a day went by that I didn't think about you. I've thought about going to you, but I was afraid I'd disturb you, I didn't know…"

Your hand gently attaches to his.

His breath hitched, tears almost falling from his eyes.

You took a deep breath and closed your eyes for a moment of silence before replying, "Me too, I've been thinking about you too. It was me who didn't consider your feelings, I lied to you, you didn't do anything wrong……"

"No matter what, I should have been there for you……"

He withdrew his hand and replaced it with a gentle caress of his son's back.

"For the first three years of his life, I wasn't able to be there… And didn't get to be in yours. But for the rest, I'll be there for all of it."

You opened your eyes and smiled, looking into his eyes that were exactly as sincere as they were three years ago.

"It's not an easy thing to take care of a kid."

He smiled back, the hand holding your son tightening slightly.

"You can take your time teaching me, we have a lifetime ahead of us."

Seungmin

Reason for breaking up: He felt that you had too little time together

You always thought that Seungmin wasn't the kind of person who cared much about the amount of time you spent together.

He wasn't a very clingy boyfriend, at least not the kind who wanted to be with you 24/7.

You weren't the kind of person who needed physical contact very much either.

You knew he showed his love in more ways than just kisses and hugs.

You always thought he didn't need you hugging him every day, or asking for kisses, or having to see each other every day.

So when he asked you for a breakup, you didn't even think in that direction.

You acted rather calmly.

You were sad, but you knew very well that going on like this would only be a waste of each other's time.

He indeed hasn't had much free time to spend with you lately, so the reason "too little time together" made sense.

Maybe he could find someone more suitable for him, and you too.

You were sensible, and although you were sad that you couldn't continue to be a couple with him, you weren't going to cry.

And you believed he would not want to see you like that.

That would only make it harder to part, and would only make both sides feel troubled.

But something about his expression didn't seem right.

"So… this is it? We're, over?"

You looked at him and blinked.

"Didn't you want a breakup?"

You weren't sure if it was your imagination, but you felt like you saw a hint of hurt in his eyes.

But wasn't he the one who initiated the breakup?

You wanted to reach out to comfort him, but he turned away before you could and left your apartment.

His backside looked a little lonely.

Separation time: one month

During this month, your life didn't seem to change much.

Other than not having to send a good morning text in the morning, not having to send a picture of yourself at lunch, and not having to send a good night text at night…

Well… If you compared it to when he was at home…

You didn't have to prepare two portions of breakfast, nor did you have to prepare the honey water he used to moisten his throat.

You didn't have to ask him if he was coming home for dinner at night, nor did you have anyone to take a walk with in the evening.

There was no one around when you went to bed.

That being said, although you didn't act like you cherished his presence, he was indeed a part of your life.

Without him, the world was functioning normally, but it just felt like something was missing.

When you were tossing and turning in bed in the early hours of the morning, there was no one to sing a lullaby for you anymore.

You guess you do miss him a little.

It seemed that a lot has indeed changed in your life in the past month.

Pulling out your phone, you opened your photo album and started flipping through the few pictures of the two of you together.

When was the last time you smiled after he left?

And why were you smiling when you looked at his photos just now?

You had thought that you might not have loved him much.

Only now did you realize how you couldn't live without him.

But what's the point of realizing it now?

You have already broken up.

You didn't even try to get him to stay.

……

You remembered the words he said before he left.

"So… this is it? We're, over?"

It seemed like, you suddenly understood how he felt at that time.

Was it really the end?

Like a tiny pebble sinking to the bottom of the river, ripples spreading out like huge waves on the surface of the water, spreading out in all directions.

When you came back to your senses, you realized that you had been silently shedding tears for more than ten minutes.

How you got back together: He came to you drunk

When hearing someone wandering at your doorstep at 12 o'clock in the middle of the night, a normal person would be scared, right?

You grabbed your phone and prepared to call the police, but just as you were about to press the dial button, a familiar voice came from the door.

"Why won't you open……"

"Even the key is bullying me……"

Seungmin muttered in a low voice from the doorway.

Hearing that it was Seungmin, you showed a slightly puzzled expression.

Through the peephole, you saw the look of him scratching his head with confusion.

He was trying to insert the key of their dormitory into the lock of your house.

Then you saw his flushed cheeks and you understood what was going on.

He was drunk.

Putting down the phone in your hand, you took the initiative to unlock the door and pulled it open.

Seungmin lost his balance and fell into your arms. You hurriedly held him back.

"Why are you drunk?"

When he heard it was your voice, he seemed to have sobered up quite a bit.

"Why are you in…" He looked around and realized that this was not his dormitory, but your front door, "……"

He then fell silent as well.

"I'm sorry, I shouldn't be here…"

After saying that, he turned around and attempted to leave, but you took his hand.

"Can we talk?"

You felt him stiffen for a moment.

After stepping inside, you poured him a glass of water and sat down on the couch across from him.

His hand was trembling slightly as he picked up the glass.

"What are you nervous about? It's not like I'm going to eat you."

The way he ducked his head and dared not look at you made you feel a little amused.

But you didn't let him in to make fun of him.

"Forget it, let's get down to business. Although I'm not sure how much you'll remember when you wake up…"

"I'm not drunk."

He looked up now, and his eyes did look a lot less foggy.

"……Okay."

You took a deep breath and stood up and walked in his direction, placing your hand on top of his after sitting next to him.

"Seungmin-ah, how have you been this past month?"

He immediately shook his head, and his nose turned red immediately.

It was as if he was going to start crying if you asked another question.

Your hand on his switched to stroking the back of his head, smoothing his hair that was sticking up.

"I didn't have a good time either, not at all. Do you know why?"

He shook his head again meekly, looking at you like a lost puppy.

Although he claimed to be sober, he wasn't acting like the Seungmin you knew.

You smiled and continued stroking his hair.

"Because I found out that I love you so much more than I thought I did. But by the time I found out, you were already gone."

He shook his head once again and turned to look at you, tears about to come to his eyes.

"No."

He sniffles.

"Not gone. I didn't leave. You're the one who left……. You left. You didn't want me, you… You didn't even ask me, you didn't even want to change…… You didn't say anything. You never said "I love you", you never offered to kiss me, you never asked me to hug you, you never said you missed me, you never said you missed me when I wasn't home for days. I didn't leave. I didn't……"

"I'm sorry……"

You reached out your arms to hug him, letting him grab the fabric on your back, head resting on your shoulder as he cried.

"I thought you didn't need that kind of thing…"

Even with his head resting on your shoulder, he continued to shake his head over and over.

"I need it, I want it. I thought you didn't care about me. That's why I… I was pretending I didn't need it all the time too. Because, I didn't want you to think I was clingy. I'm clingy and I want to be with you all the time, all the time. I want to hear you say you love me. Do you love me?"

Your arms tightened a little.

"I love you, Seungmin."

"I love you…"

"I love you."

……

"Can you tell me why you were drunk?"

"Not drunk!"

"Yes yes, you're not drunk, not drunk… Then, can you tell me why you drank?"

Seungmin's ears reddened, somewhat shamefully.

"Don't laugh at me."

You cupped his face and squeezed it.

"How could I laugh at you?"

He spoke with some embarrassment after a few seconds of silence.

"Because… I sang the song."

"You sang a song? Which song did you sing?"

"I sang our lullaby."

It was as if the softest part of your heart was touched.

"…… Well, can you sing it again? Tonight, now, to me?"

"Only if you kiss me."

Jeongin

Reason for breakup: You don't know each other well enough

Everyone, including you, didn't think highly of your relationship with Jeongin.

The age difference between you and him was so big that you were worried that you would have nothing in common other than your sexual attraction.

The games he played, the food he liked, the movies he watched, the various interests you sometimes didn't know very well.

While you were willing to try, you thought there would be someone more suitable for him than you.

Especially when you saw the smile on his face this evening when he was playing with people of similar age, you suddenly felt like you were very far away from him.

Perhaps no matter how hard you try, the fact of the age difference wouldn't change.

When he came back, he found that you were not waiting for him in the living room.

When he entered the bedroom with some confusion, he saw you sitting on the bed staring straight ahead.

He called out your name, but got no response.

When he came to your side, he saw the tear stains on your cheeks.

"Did something happen? Would you mind telling me?"

You failed to look him directly in the eye.

"Jeongin-ah, let's break up."

You told him you thought the two of you had too little in common.

You said you thought he deserved someone far, far better than you.

You said you also thought there would be someone better for yourself than him.

You pushed him away.

"But don't you love me?"

"I do love you, I still do… But we're not right for each other."

Loving him was a simple thing, and there was bound to be someone who could do it better than you.

He looked at you and was silent for a long time.

In the end, he didn't say anything before he left.

Separation time: three weeks and four days

When he returned to the dormitory, Jeongin flung himself on the couch and wept.

The three hyungs in the dorm ran out of the room in a hurry to ask him what was wrong.

Only a few hours ago he was smiling and mumbling "finally I can go see Y/N".

How could he be like this now?

"Y/N noona/hyung doesn't want me anymore."

Even after asking, the hyungs only got this answer.

No one else knew you well, they only heard things about you from Jeongin.

So they knew better than anyone else how much he loved you and how much you meant to him.

So when they saw their dear dongsaeng like this, they were puzzled.

But Minho, the oldest, just shook his head and told the other two, "This is between them, it's better for us to stay out of it".

He thought the issue would be resolved smoothly in a few days.

But then three weeks passed.

For three weeks, Jeongin had been in low spirits, and whenever he saw anything that reminded him of you, he would start sobbing silently, causing the other seven members to be distraught.

The Maknae has always been the invisible pillar of the group, putting smiles on their faces.

When he suddenly lost his usual smile, the whole team panicked.

Even Minho, who had previously suggested not getting involved with what was going on with the two of you, had a change of heart.

When Chan asked about you, he finally couldn't help but confide.

"Noona/Hyung said we don't have much in common, but that's all an excuse, isn't it?"

"That's all just an excuse for not wanting me anymore, right?"

"I just want to stay by their side… Why can't I just do that? ……"

"I saw their tears, I know they didn't want to say that either…"

"But why, why am I just not mature enough?"

"I'm not mature enough, I don't know them well enough, I don't have experience, I couldn't do anything but cry when it came to this kind of thing."

"Noona/Hyung must think I'm clueless about everything, and don't know how to say comforting words at all."

"I didn't even know why they were crying, I didn't even know how to react when I was asked to break up."

"I just ran away without saying a single word to deter."

"Three weeks, three weeks and Noona/Hyung didn't come to me, they must have been disappointed with me……"

After relaying the Maknae's words to the other members, they unanimously decided to go to you and ask for clarification.

Because it was completely obvious from his words that you still loved him.

How you got back together: The other seven members all came to you

You were truly shocked when seven grown men suddenly appeared in front of your house.

Although you are…or were Jeongin's s/o, you haven't really met his seven hyungs.

You knew just from the way Jeongin mentioned them that they all loved him.

Chan, who was standing in front, had a gentle smile on his face.

He asked you to sit down and talk to him about why you broke up with Jeongin.

You didn't want to reveal too much to these people, but when they mentioned Jeongin's recent status to you, you couldn't help but feel upset.

You wanted him to be happy, so when you heard that he wasn't even eating or sleeping lately, you realized that everything you thought you were doing for him was actually hurting him.

"We're not here to force you back together, but I can see that you're having a hard time without him, right?"

"We just want you to listen to him and what he's thinking."

"Relationships are a two-person thing, aren't they?"

"And… Have you ever actually tried to get to know him?"

Chan's words seem to have woken you up.

You always said "you thought", "you knew", but you didn't even really try.

You hadn't even tried to enter his world, you had already concluded that you couldn't enter it.

You decide to go to Jeongin and have a proper conversation.

When the dormitory door opened, you realized that what Chan said was true.

He had lost a lot of weight, his dark circles were severe, and his eyes lost its glow you fell in love with.

When he saw you, he hurriedly tried to shut the door, but you blocked him from doing so with your arm.

"I don't want you to see me like this…"

He covered his face and whispered with his head down.

You held back your tears and, without further inflection, hugged him.

He was holding back too, refusing to cry out.

You let go of the embrace to remove his hands to see his expression, but he turned away from you.

The action was like a small knife piercing into your heart.

He still wasn't willing to show you all of him.

But it was all your fault, wasn't it?

"We just don't know each other very well, don't you think?"

At those words, his sobs paused for a moment.

"Because we're both afraid to make an attempt, afraid that the end result won't be good."

Because of fear, we never even tried.

"But I am not afraid anymore, Innie. there is nothing that scares me more than life without you."

The feeling of these three weeks wasn't something you wanted to experience again, nor did you want him to experience them ever again.

You moved up to hug him from behind, resting your chin on his shoulder and wrapping your arms around his slender waist.

"I was always afraid that you would be taken away by someone who knew you better than I did, someone who was better than me. I was always worried that you would find me boring, that I wasn't actually as good as you thought I was."

"Because of that fear, I was always pushing you away, pushing you far away, not wanting you to get to know me, and not taking the initiative to get to know you."

His tears dripped down onto the back of your hand.

You tightened your arms around him.

"But never again, I will never push you away again. Because I love you, I'm going to be the person who knows you best, who knows every side of you. Is that okay?"

He nodded immediately.

"And you too… I want the same, I want to be the one who knows you best too."

"And from now, no one is going to keep any secrets from each other ever again."

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