killjoyjester

[killjoyjester]

I miss you, do you just lack any feeling for me, using me like that?

[killjoyjester]

Make me beg for you to never leave me. There is nothing I need more than you, my breathing source, and I will so just about anything to maintain it. As I grip to your leg, screaming and sobbing dramatically, my face paint dripping down my face and inhaling to the point my throat aches, while you try and walk out the door, as an act of fear or trying to prove to me you can live without me.

I would do everything to keep you with me, even if it made me physically sick and struggling to feel sane. I need you more than anyone. Even if I have to tie you down and keep you in my home, struggling, you will be mine and I will be yours forever.

[killjoyjester]

Screaming crying throwing up, NEVER forgiving them for that

I was in tears.

[killjoyjester]

WHY DID THEY DO THAT?!?! WHAT POSSESSED THEM TO END THE EPISODE LIKE THAT?!??!?!??!!

It was HEINOUS!

[killjoyjester]

Doing my face paint/eyeliner is the best part of my day.

[killjoyjester]

I love watching people be in love so much; acknowledging it will be me in that position one day!

I hope all in a relationship and all not have a joyful day! ♥︎

[killjoyjester]

That primal urge to indulge in someone’s flesh.

♡your skin looks good (cannibalistically) ♡

[killjoyjester]

My body drops as you sit down on your chair, almost out of obsessive instict. I am more than obsessed with you, primal yet delicate infatuation may be the correct phrasing for what I feel for you, my heart beats dramatically, as I let my head slowly drop into your lap. While I do not speak, I am more than grateful to even be blessed by sitting by you, let alone touching you. A deity like you deserves the best; nothing less, perfection. Nothing shall be as perfect as you within my lifetime; or anyone elses for that matter.

Inspiration below.

[killjoyjester]

Welcome to the manor. I am your jester and guide throughout this experience, Raphiel. Consider this my introduction to myself and what the mansion shall hold.

⚠︎First to premise, I am a minor; more specifically fifteen, so therefore do not reblog my posts onto Not Safe For Work (NSFW.) blogs, thank you. ⚠︎

My pronouns are he/she/it, I request you do not refer to me with they/them. Now you know my pronouns, it shall be simple. For my gender and sexuality, I am intersex+genderfluid, and I identify as pansexual.

This shall be used to speak of my obsessive fantasies, which for now are not aimed in particular, and just my general thoughts. On occasion, I shall use this platform to vent, however that shall be on a seperate tag if that makes you uncomfortable.

Anonymous asks, direct messages and pining are mildly encouraged, admittedly I am rather lonely. Do not reblog any vents I post.

My tags:

♤The Ace of spades. - General.

♡The Jack of hearts. - Obsession.

♧The Queen of Cloves. - Mail.

♢The King of Diamonds. - Venting.

Have a wonderful day, dear viewer.