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Spirituality and Psychosis

Hello! I am a person who experiences hallucinations, but I also have a healthy spiritual life. This may raise the question: how do I differentiate actual signs and communication from the gods and other spiritual beings from hallucinations and delusions?

Here are a few rules I have established that may be useful for other people who struggle with this sort of thing:

~ gods do not take physical forms. they will not appear in your room or in your mirror. they also will not squeeze your hand or call your name

~ gods communicate using their specific symbols and signs (example: i notice the sun in my eyes a lot more often when apollo has something to say)

~ other than that, you should only communicate with your gods through some form of divination that you trust, whether that be tarot, dreams, throwing stones, runes, or anything else you like. be careful with scrying if you have visual hallucinations.

~ on the note of prayer, if your thoughts are sometimes so loud that you can't think properly, you may want to get a prayer journal. either a physical notebook, scraps of paper, your notes app, a google doc, or even a discord server with nobody in it. i especially like that method because it is private, you can access it anywhere on any device, you can make a channel for each deity, and you can look back on your past prayers.

~ your gods will not hurt you. they do not want to hurt or punish you. they will not leave bruises on your body or try to make you feel afraid or paranoid. if you are seeing things in the corners of your vision or feeling watched, it is not them. i recommend talking to a doctor/psychologist first, then maybe using some protection magic as an extra measure if it will make you feel more comfortable.

Thank you for reading! I hope this helped somebody!

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Dua Thoth 📖🖋️

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Prayers to Lord Sutekh

Lord Setesh, Lord Seth, Lord Sutekh. Father of the son/daughter of the sands. You bring an abundance of lessons to the world, Each painful to both the heart and the mind. It strikes within us, upon the true evil that we had hidden inside, The evil that we oh so ignorantly glance away. Lord of the Northern Sky, Whho strikes the abomination named A/p/e/p, The iron spear in Your grasp slices through the evil it brings Now, Your lesson is doing the same for us - to strike the evil within us. You, oh mysterious-faced god, the lord that we pray to and love, The Lord who stood in front of the mandjet, who bends the s/na/ke with His bare hands, We pray and listen to Your thunder, to Your rage, with glee, for we know that Your lessons bring us joy. For it is a reminder that we must continue to grow A reminder that we must keep going to uphold ma'at, To uphold the order of the world, For it is one of many ways to show our gratefulness and loved, For the Netjeru and for Your, Lord of the Outcast Oh, Lord Suty, He of Nubt, who lead the deaceased with Lord Heru, Bless us with Your strength, Your rage, to fight back the evil within us, And the evil that hids in the world also, waiting for to be strike by Your spear once more. Dua Sutekh, Lord of Storms, He of Ombos

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🌩️Subtle Sutekh Worship🏜️

Greatly inspired by @khaire-traveler's wonderful subtle worship series, which can be found here.

Learn self-defence, weapons included or not

Allow yourself to express your anger and frustration; sit with and feel your feelings

Collect rain water (you're welcome to use it for watering plants or the like)

Learn about and uphold Ma'at

Make a playlist or listen to songs that remind you of him or you think he'd like

Make a collage/moodboard/pinterest board/similar collection of photos and images you associate with him, especially if some of the images are your own

Wear a piece of jewelry or other clothing item that reminds you of him

Light a candle or incense that reminds you of him (safely)

Carry a picture of him in your wallet, pocket, phone case, etc. or as a phone or computer wallpaper

Have desert, hippo, pig, donkey, crocodile, or sha animal imagery

Destroy depictions of A/p/e/p this can be as simple as drawing it on a piece of paper and tearing it up

Making a list of your personal strengths and things you're proud of

Practice standing up for yourself; speak your mind and assert your personal boundaries

Exercise a little, even if it's just stretching

Playing combat-based video games

Do something hard or challenging, especially if you've been putting it off, or it needs to get done

Fall asleep/meditate to the sound of rain/thunderstorms

Take a walk outside with a cloudy sky or during a rainstorm (safely)

Get involved with your government (vote, go to local meetings, protest, write/call a leader, etc.)

Take charge/leadership roles in parts of your life

Supporting local activists or online activism for causes you believe in; support human rights or humanitarian organizations

Collecting different souvenirs or other objects from different places

Practice speaking up when you disagree with someone

Become comfortable with change; take new risks, try new things, accept difficult changes

Stand up for yourself and people you care about

Try something you've been putting off; take a risk; if you're scared, do it scared

Find ways to express yourself, even if it's small

Practice embracing the chaos of life

Learn about healthy conflict resolution skills; try to implement these in your next conflict

Learn about desert habitats (especially the Sahara) and donate to organizations that help them

Donate to organizations that help immigrants

Learn a new language, particularly those of countries near yours

Work on becoming more comfortable with the idea of conflict; it is only natural that we sometimes disagree with people

Educate yourself on your rights (legally); keep up to date on new bills and laws

I may add more to this list in the future. Suggestions are always appreciated.

Link to the Kemetic Subtle Worship Masterpost