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I always wondered at what moment did Itachi really die. Was it when he collapsed and fell to the ground or when his forehead collided against the rock/wall? I realized now it's most definitely this moment - when he poked Sasuke's forehead. His fingers lifelessly scrape against Sasuke's face before he collapses.

His death has always fascinated me so much as it has saddened me. He was a mystery to everyone around him, an enigma, to himself as well. He lied so much his whole life. He'd said to Kisame on their first meeting 'we don't know what kind of people we are until the moment of our death'. And his whole life was defined by lies and deception until this very moment. He smiled. The poke on the forehead followed. As the did the final words heralding his demise.

He really just wanted to be Sasuke's brother in his dying moments. Nothing else. Not Itachi of the Akatsuki. Not Itachi Uchiha. Not Itachi of Konoha. Only Sasuke's brother. Something he never got to be and something he didn't feel he deserved.

Hoping he did find some peace before his death.

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Joy Sullivan, from Instructions for Traveling West: Poems; “Instructions for Traveling West”

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Andrea Gibson, Lord of the Butterflies

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When Jem Carstairs said “Death shall never rule me” and “I do not want to live half a life” and “There is more to living than not dying.” When he said “I meant to show you that I would not break, that love was not so fragile” and “This, then, was my only recourse. To live, to stand and fight” and “I would rather die and be reborn and see the sun again, than live to the end of the world without daylight.”

Thinking about Jem’s fierce will. How maybe it goes unnoticed because of how kind he is, but how he has one of the strongest wills of any tsc character, how he is described as being unwaveringly determined and stubborn when he wants to be. Steel under silk. Thinking about his fierce desire to live beyond not dying, and how he was always, always a fighter.

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Just Pain 💔

Anne Sexton // Lyric Hunter // Jean-Paul Sartre // Albert Camus // Mò Xiāng Tóng Xiù // (...) // Richey Edwards // Franz Kafka // Franz Wright // @/inkskinned // Anais Nin // Sophocles // Richard Siken // @/pjackk // @/ICHORTALE

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“You cannot make everyone think and feel as deeply as you do. This is your tragedy … because you understand them, and they do not understand you.”

— Daniel Saint

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ugh why must I be always so repulsed by my own vulnerability but I find it very moving and impressive if other people are vulnerable with me????

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the worst is wanting to create and create and create but being trapped in a body that is so so so so tired

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I think the reason why Naruto fans get so passionate and upset about the series is because of how real it can be. Naruto isn’t about paragon heroes outdoing dastardly villains. It’s about human beings fighting tooth and nail to survive in a world surrounded by death. It’s about broken systems made and perpetuated by broken people.

The Hyuga clan isn’t just antagonistic or pretentious, they practice slavery.

The Uchiha clan weren’t just killed by some raging psychopath, they were systematically massacred.

Itachi isn’t just cruel to Sasuke because he’s a bad brother, he’s cruel because he’d been told time and time again that you can only survive by being cruel and he wants nothing more than for Sasuke to survive.

Nagato isn’t trying to take over the world just for the sake of power, he’s trying to take over the world because it beat him down to the point of believing that the only chance at peace there is is the world being forced into compliance through fear.

Iruka isn’t hard on Naruto just because he’s a strict teacher, he’s hard on Naruto because he knows from experience how unforgiving the world is towards orphans.

Kakashi isn’t just some silly and slightly lazy teacher, he’s a contract killer still grieving his loved ones and struggling to do better without knowing how he’s supposed to.

Sakura isn’t just a fangirl, she’s a normal girl in a very dangerous and abnormal world constantly being made to choose between what she’s supposed to do and what she feels.

Sasuke isn’t just some edgelord, he’s a survivor who lost everything then gets repeatedly told that he has to choose between keeping what he’s gained and doing better than his brother.

Naruto isn’t just trying to be the best Hokage there ever was, he’s trying to prove his worth to a society that abandoned him just for existing and, in a way, confirm his worth to himself.

The Naruto story is about humans trying to force themselves into the role of weapons because that’s what they were told they had to be. It’s a story where everyone is a perpetrator but no one is trying to do wrong. It’s a story where everyone is a victim but no one is a perfect victim.

The world and the characters aren’t simple and trying to simplify them only takes away from them. So of course we get passionate about showing off all the reasons why they shouldn’t be simplified and all of the ways they’re complicated. Of course we get upset when we see others simplifying them or selling certain aspects of their characters short. Of course we get upset when the series itself simplifies them. Of course we get upset when the series chooses to abandon them. Because it not only feels like the characters are giving up, it feels like the series is betraying anyone who chose to get invested in its complexities.

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Israel has really crossed every single redline. The international silence at this point only means one thing: they're busy taking notes as to what's now permissible and what new precedent israel has set for war crimes that can go unpunished.

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This scene was so bittersweet because at no point had anyone ever told Itachi that he can rest finally. No one ever acknowledged him to his face that he’s done more than enough for the village. No one ever made him feel seen, after everything he was forced to do, like Naruto.

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do you ever become obsessed with a character and you just go "of fucking course its that one" at yourself because you are so incredibly predictable

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Eventually your favorite fandom will forever be forgotten... except you the Merlin fandom you'll never die out and its kinda concerning.

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Clarice Lispector, from "Too Much of Life Complete Chronicles," publ. in 2022

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the way growing up reading has shaped my entire personality like I will always pick the blue drink or the blue cupcake for Percy, and I will always pick Daisies for Cordelia or think about Jules when I have pancakes or Matthew Fairchild when I read Oscar Wilde or when I see a violin I will always miss Jem Carstairs and when I smell roses I think of Kell Maresh and!!

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Chapter 231, Hak to Yona: Please let me stay by your side.

Chapter 240, Yona to Hak: Let me stay by your side.

Your honor, THEM <3

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it's the way I’m FUCKIN SCREAMING