kestrelbirchhelianthus

[kestrelbirchhelianthus]

Lostface was never meant to punish Brightpaw.

Bluestar spent her life watching StarClan rip everyone she ever loved away from her. Her mother, lost to a battle brought on by a vision sent by StarClan. Her sister taken by the Thunderpath. Her kit, taken by the snowstorm she birthed them in. Her other two sent away, to be a part of a clan she could never walk. Betrayed, abandoned, victim over and over to violence sent by gods she could not accost. They could never pay in any meaningful way for the pain she suffered, the pain they inflicted on the living.

And when that little apprentice, on the cusp of adulthood and with so much more to live and do, barely survived a fight that only occurred because of dissatisfaction among her clan at her inaction, once more StarClan inflicted inexcusable hurt on her clan. But she would not be helpless.

She gave Brightpaw the name Lostface so Starclan would never be able to deny that their inaction led to the death of such a promising young cat. If she passed, she would be StarClan’s reminder that their paws are soaked in blood.

And if she lived? If she beat the odds and survived injuries so severe that even the medicine cat deemed her a lost cause, it would be a reminder of what she had given up in protection of her clan. A mark of honor, so reminiscent of Whiteeye.

I wonder if that’s who she thought of in that moment. Whiteeye, who she’d thought Pinestar cruel to name as such, but who carried her name with pride.

She spent her life at the mercy of ancestors she could not see, with every grief she’d ever suffered justified as a piece of StarClan’s plans. Damn StarClan, damn the cats who sent her mother to die, who let so much pain and suffering ravage the living with only the promise that if they followed the Code, they’d have a pleasant afterlife. What of the life they lived before? What of the world they walked beneath the stars, the one considered merely a pretense to an existence in StarClan?

And so she gave Brightheart a name to punish the ancestors, an acknowledgement of the injustices they inflicted. And a badge of pride, a reminder that of all the cats who walked ThunderClan’s camp, she was the one who had given the most in service of her clanmates.

And when you look at it that way, suddenly Bluestar’s cruelty makes a little more sense.

[kestrelbirchhelianthus]

Yes, it is that deep. I don’t care that it’s just a joke bro, it’s literally a band with millions of followers who will never know about it, it’s just someone making a funny video. Your drive to post mean, hateful shit about someone who hasn’t done anything wrong for the entire world to see in an attempt for validation and public attention is wildly concerning and should be spoken about with a professional to find out what part of you is so desperate for attention from your peers that you’re saying mean, nasty things with no regard for the people who see it. No care for whether you’re harming someone else because “it’s not that deep.” It is, and always has been, and your instant reaction being an attempt to justify your hate with reasons it’s everyone else who’s wrong, people are just too sensitive and can’t take a joke and you aren’t a bad person actually because everyone else just needs to lighten up is also wildly concerning because it means you KNOW YOU’RE WRONG. You KNOW what you’re saying is mean and unnecessary and the social consequences for that is criticism that you feel you shouldn’t have to face, because consequences are for BAD people and you’re not bad, you’re just honest and making jokes.

None of it is helpful, none of it is okay, and all of it is that deep. Look inward, for fuck’s sake. Maybe whatever you find buried deep down in there that you refuse to acknowledge can answer a few questions on why your friends keep leaving you.