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I fucking hate myself so fucking much

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I’m such a fucking fuck up

I fuck everything up

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I hate myself so fucking much

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I wish I were fucking dead

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I’m going to go fucking insane

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I am so fucking sad but I’m happy I’m making progress and it’s such a mess

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I have fucked things up so much over the last few days. I hate all of this so much. I’m making progress in every other aspect but this one thing and it is killing me... I miss him so much.

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I’ve done a lot of bad things over the course of the past two years. I took a lot people for granted and treated a lot of people terribly. I’ve cut out a lot of people that have done nothing but love me. But most importantly I pushed the one person that has done nothing but give me everything away. I love him with everything in me and I refused to let that feeling into myself for the entirety of our relationship. I barely had ahold of him.. I got him through a miracle and I did not deserve it. But I’m trying to mend this. I’m trying to make this better. I’m trying to be better for myself and everyone else in my life. But I did him wrong the most. I didn’t show him the love that he deserves and that is not okay. But I am trying. I am becoming a better person. I am trying. I just hope it’s not too late because I can do this. I can give him what he deserves. I love him so much and he deserves to feel that love.

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I just want to be on your mind

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I love him so much

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I hate myself so much

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I am so fucking sad

I love him so much

I miss him so much

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Just came back from Svalbard. Amazing place. The photograph is taken at midnight.

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Pink roses (detail) 1895. Paul de Longpre

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My fucking urges are back and I’m just fucking scared