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[kazehaya-hanamiya]

okay this is kind of a weird request? but uh . fics that showcase andrew dealing with the aftermath of his meds? like long lasting side effects or aversion to pills or talking about being on them with neil or something else? i was on some strong psych meds for a long time too and they were. not good. so i was wondering if i could find any fics about that. thank you!

I spent…many hours on this ask. I hope you find what you’re looking for in the fics, headcanons, and meta cobbled together below.

And just a little shine drop, here are tiny sparks of light about Andrew after the meds and all he endured by @one-black-coffeee here and here, and @crows-and-crumbs here and here. Hugs, anon. -A

from previous recs:

‘A Little Unwell’ here

‘to derail the mind of mine’ here

‘The Marks We Make’ here

‘never fallen (from quite this high)’ (now complete) here

‘until i see the light’ here

‘like someone you've chosen’ here

‘Something Better’ here (since updated)

‘Dancing With the Devil’ here (since updated)

‘Such a Simple Thing’ here

‘claw marks’ here

‘Neon Lights’ series here

our bipolar tag

copper sea turtles by Graysworks [Rated E, 9110 Words, Complete, 2021]

Set in canon after Andrew is hospitalized and detours into AU; follows Andrew through rehab and withdrawal, then adjusting to life afterward.

tw: self harm, tw: blood, tw: implied/referenced rape/non-con, tw: implied/referenced suicide, tw: psychosis, tw: vomit, tw: withdrawal symptoms, tw: violence, tw: canonical character death, tw: implied/referenced drug use, tw: involuntary outing

Andrew Needs a Break by Rory_writes [Not Rated (we say T), 1584 Words, Complete, 2021]

Some days, Andrew misses his medication. Sometimes, he just needs a rest and he trusts Neil to hold him together when he takes that break.

tw: depression

Manic!Andrew series by @i-want-delfeur [Tumblr, 2017, 2018]

Part 1 | Part 1-A | Part 2 | Part 3 | Part 4 | with Renee (updated list)

NB: This series shows Andrew struggling with mania and includes discussion with Neil on how it differs from his medication-induced state.

tw: implied/referenced rape, tw: accusations of rape, tw: bullying, tw: dub-con kissing, tw: violence, tw: blood, tw: mania, tw: mental illness, tw: ptsd

Andrew’s sacrifice hc by @girl-of-summer [Tumblr, 2016]

- So we all know how important consent is to Andrew and some of the reasons behind it

- Now imagine what it would feel to have your choice taken away from you and be forced to take drugs that not only do you not want but that would mess with your head

Andrew canonically went through bad withdrawal to play both halves and win games he had no personal investment in? meta by @palmettofoxden [Tumblr, 2017]

…Andrew voluntarily makes himself physically sick and weakened and vulnerable and uncomfortable game after game for a team that assumes putting himself through withdrawal for the games is worth it for Andrew just for the sake of not being high all the time

meds/diagnosis meta and fandom discussion

NB: triggers are not labeled here but be prepared for anything

is the medication Andrew takes based on a real drug? by @korakos, fandom [Tumblr, 2015]

NB: @korakos is Nora Sakavic’s archived tumblr, find her extra content here

the stages of Andrew’s medication/sobriety by @coldsaturn [Tumblr, 2016]

Andrew Joseph Minyard .V. Psychosis, Psychopathy and Sociopathy meta by @i-want-delfeur [Tumblr, 2018]

Drug use in the AFTG universe meta by @i-want-delfeur [Tumblr, 2020]

meta on Andrew by @defractum, fandom [Tumblr, 2016]

addendum

the whole situation with Andrew and his medication is so baffling??? by @ijustwanttoreblogthings, @coldsaturn [Tumblr, 2017]

How do you think Andrew would have been different now if they had taken him off his meds naturally after the three years… by @lailadermott (@bramlouisgreenfeld) [Tumblr, 2016]

on his meds he's more volatile and prone to violence, so why put him on those meds by @12am [Tumblr, 2020]

Andrew’s medication...they make. no. sense. by @ijustwanttoreblogthings [Tumblr, 2018]

The King’s Men, Chapter 3… by @nickireadstfc [Tumblr, 2018]

NB: You can find posts and fandom discussion about Andrew’s possible diagnoses and medications on @nickireadstfc under #mental-health-discourse

Andrew medication/diagnoses discussion by @sinistercacophony [Tumblr, 2020]

- what mental illnesses/neurodivergencies do you hc him with? here

- people say he has ocd tendencies…? here

- would Neil be an advocate for Andrew going back on some form of medication? here

- eidetic memory affects his recovery process? here

- Andrew IS some type of psychopath here

- it's like i'm condoning some of his less savory actions [with input from @bloody-wonder] here

- if not anti-psychotics, what meds? What diagnosis? [op @amaliaisabel] here, plus response to @writingpuddle here

Art

I’m not okay art by @creekgods

There’s a lot going on in Andrew’s head art by @bambazzle

No one said what they were doing to save Andrew from himself edit by @robincross

remember how andrew minyard's high school counselor said his (f*cked up) medication saved his life? art by @ikusabas

He held his life in less regard than anything else edit by @m1nyards

[kazehaya-hanamiya]

pt. four(and final) of things i gathered from reading nora's extra content :

parts one, two, three

[tws: guns, shooting]

- if kevin were ever to make out with any of the foxes, it would be allison because a) she's gorgeous and b) there would be no strings attached

- "(I was super proud of myself for making Kevin like pineapples because I am not a fan of them and I was like YES NORA THINK OUTSIDE THE COMFORT ZONE)" - nora about kevin liking pineapples

- kevin's best memory that isn't exy related is finding kayleigh's letter and discovering who his father is

- seth could sing! he was a tenor

- seth doesn't hit woman unless it's on the court

- aaron has the second-best grades on the team after kevin

- nicky never reconciles with his family after drake

- and rightfully so luther can die

- neil was matt's best man at his wedding :')

- thea and kevin got married and had a child who got along well with 'grandpa wymack'

- as cute as that is, ew bc imo kev and thea are not it

- but anyway

- jean and renee attempted long distance dating but it didn't work out

- definitely because jean and jeremy are meant to be(this is my opinion tho so)

- renee is the only one of the foxes to marry without the other foxes in attendance, but only because she met someone who worked with her and they couldn't take enough time off of their job to have a wedding and the place that they were didn't take well to visitors

- jean was originally going to commit suicide to alert and bring attention to the abuse faced in the nest but it was changed in the last draft

- neil only ever places one bet the entirety of his time at palmetto state

- aaron proposes to katelyn before starting his fifth year, and they marry soon after graduation

- after graduation allison becomes a fashion designer

- allison had two kids, one son and one trans daughter ! she was fiercely supportive and god i love her

- allison's son develops a crush on kevin's kid💀

- matt proposed to dan on the morning of his graduation ceremony

- later on in the pros, andrew would punch their coach after they let an injured neil onto the court for a sub

- between andrew and neil, andrew is better with babies

- the only reason why robin cross, the freshman goalie that is recruited andrew's senior year, was approached was because andrew specifically asked for her

- if you want to know more about robin(her story is actually pretty messed up), here's the link

- when robin is incepted into the cousin's family, she moves into their dorm

- but because there are only four beds, andrew gives her his and shares with neil

- andrew gives robin his and renee's knives when he graduates

- originally, kevin and riko were dating but they broke up because riko cheated on him with jean, though riko and jean went by different names

- in that draft jean actually broke kevin's hand instead

- riko had capital i Issues

- like we already knew that but still

- "Did you know that from day 1 of All for the Game, when it was a shoddy little comic taking place in a Japanese high school, up until the second-to-last draft, they were lovers? The main drama in the first comic was that Riko had cheated on Kevin with Jean, and Kevin stormed off in a heartbroken fit, and Riko was trying to win him back before Kevin & Neil fell in love together." - nora about kevin and riko

- riko broke kevin's hand by stomping on it

- there was a draft where riko shot both neil and kevin, though neil was the only one to survive

- after jean moves to the trojans, kevin tells jeremy that jean can't go anywhere alone due to being so used too the raven's way of living and functioning

- i take this as confirmation that jeremy and jean get really close and they bond and fall in love and-

- when kayleigh and wymack were a thing, they were in an open relationship because kayleigh didn't have time for monogamy

- it's also helped to disguise kevin's parentage

- "Wymack was definitely sweeter on her than she was on him, and it killed him a little that he couldn’t win her over, but he respected her wishes and never pushed her for more than what she wanted to give him. He did a lot of drinking on the nights she was out with her other lovers, though. His head understood why it was better this way–she had dreams, and he had dreams, and they would spend most of their lives apart because of the paths they needed to walk even if they were each other’s one & only��but it took his heart a couple years to catch on." - nora about wymack and kayleigh's relationship

- half of the canon drafts of tfc ended with kevin dying

- nora says that kevin's straight but no he isn't

- nora's aro-ace !!

- say kandreil(kev, neil, and andrew) had still been a thing. if kevin had died, andrew and neil would have had a massive falling out and the resulting events would result in neil leaving abruptly, taking his money and contacts with him and leaving without warning

- the loss of both neil and kevin so close together sent andrew further into a spiral of self-destruction. he was on the edge when neil finally returned, but it took a long, long time for their relationship to be eveb halfway mended

- nora sakavic is actually a pseudonym !

- tfc was born from the most epic of thoughts: 'i want to write a comic about gay athletes'

- abby and wymack never get married but they do move in together during neil's fifth year

- they grow old and are eventually buried together

[kazehaya-hanamiya]

I need to go through every little detail of Wymacks POV in the extra story of The Foxhole Court because that man is the most caring and loving human being the foxes could have encountered.

In the next quote Wymack is really trying to be neutral be he only can see the life he could have had with Kayleigh:

Now Kevin was a devastated wreck on David's couch. David had to be neutral and unyielding, but Kevin would always be different.

This man thinks Kayleigh left him for another man and that Kevin is not his son. Kevin is a condtant reminder of Kayleigh loss but he wants to keep him close because of this. And then he throws this to a drunk panicked Kevin:

"You're not just a Fox," David said, before he could think to stop himself. "You're Kayleigh's son"

How doesn't Kevin tell him right there that he is his father? Nobody knows my man was too occupied spiralling about the Moriyamas and Riko.

But the thing that brokes Wymack's heart is seeing a pure reflection of Kayleigh's be so washed out. He wants Kevin to be the best version of himself, he wants for Kevin to be as passionate as his mother. Wymack is the only person who can tell Kevin about how Kayleigh was while she was alive, adding memories to a child who lost a mother at 9.

Jesus, Kevin looked so much like her, except Kayleigh had never looked so defeated and afraid. She'd been fierce and vibrant and fearless.

Wymack knew Kayleigh didn't want ties or commitments with him so he run away before putting her in a situation where she had to choose.

He'd promised to keep it casual, but it hadn't stopped him from falling for her. When he started thinking about rings he put himself on a plane home.

Should have, could have, what-if.

We don't know wether if Kayleigh trurly would have had a relationship with Wymack if he stayed what we know is that she is probably one of Wymack's biggest regrets/question. Maybe if he stayed they'd have raised Kevin, maybe not. We don't know even if she would have told him Kevin was his in that scenario. We know nothing about her besides what Wymack says.

"Coaches have no honor, your word is enough. Just yours."

Then Kevin drop this and Wymack is startled because it implies so much. Kevin was not just abused by Riko but also by his coach so trusting a similar figure should be hard. Kevin doesn't trust Wymack because he's his father either. He trusts him because he sees how much he cares for the foxes, he sees how much he tries to protect him without knowing who he trurly is that is why Kevin is capable of handing Wymack his life.

David wasn't a praying man, and he'd never quite decided whether he believed in an afterlife, but for a second he glanced up at the sky in search of Kayleigh's disapproving glower.

"I'm sorry,"

Even though Wymack is doing his best he still feels like he is not what Kayleigh would have wanted he feels he has no redemption regarding her. He is taking care of Kevin yes, but he feels like Kevin shouldn't be in that position to start with. If he cared enough before she died maybe her son wouldn't have ended up tortured. Maybe if he weren't angry/disappointed when Kayleigh was pregnant he could have been around and prevent everything from happening. These are some of the what-ifs that keep David awake and that would never have an answer. He could never regret enough the time he lost with her.

[kazehaya-hanamiya]

«Then don’t trust Neil, trust me.»

Neil Josten and Andrew Minyard. All for the Game, Nora Sakavic

Do not repost please, reblogs appreciated

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Joan of Exy ✌️

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“Say ‘yes, Jeremy’.”

He had the distinct impression Jean wanted to roll his eyes. “Yes, Jeremy.”

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Feliz mes del orgullo ✨ 🏳️‍🌈

¡KitTy!

Cassie: ¡Feliz mes del orgullo, bebés! 🏳️‍🌈🌈 Tenemos un arte para celebrarlo, es una arte de Kit y Ty en una escena de The Last Kong of Faerie.

[kazehaya-hanamiya]

Feliz mes del orgullo ✨ 🏳️‍🌈

¡KitTy!

Cassie: ¡Feliz mes del orgullo, bebés! 🏳️‍🌈🌈 Tenemos un arte para celebrarlo, es una arte de Kit y Ty en una escena de The Last Kong of Faerie.

[kazehaya-hanamiya]

I like when he’s a little creature. A little baby. A little guy if you will.

[kazehaya-hanamiya]

Happy birthday, Clary Fairchild/Fray! I remember when you were a spark in my eye. Today you’re 26 fictional years old and 12 years from the day your name was first scribbled on paper. We’ll see you again in Queen of Air and Darkness but in the meantime, here’s an exclusive look at Cassandra Jean’s portrait of Clary in the 10th Anniversary edition of City of Bones. According to her Clave files ,the Inquisitor’s recommended action regarding Clary is to: WATCH CAREFULLY. That’s right - cause she’s a badass.

8/23/1991

[kazehaya-hanamiya]

The young musician’s violin floated in the water as the mermaid reached down to save him from the shipwreck… Tessa and Jem’s fairytale/Shadowhunters @cassiejp mashup. #shadowhunters #tsc #cassandrajean #jessa Stay tuned for more news about this project!

Happy Valentine’s Day!

[kazehaya-hanamiya]

Gorgeous Anna Lightwood breaking all the girls’ hearts as Puss in Boots – part of the Fairytale Shadowhunters series I’ve been doing with Cassandra Jean! #fairytales #tsc

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The children might have lost their way, but whoever they matched wits with, they were able to save each other. HANSEL AND GRETEL #shadowhunters #fairytales #mashup #cassandrajean

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Close-ups from the Shadowhunter Fairytales! 

Little Red Riding Hood

Beauty and the Beast

Momotarō

Puss in Boots

The Wild Swans

Snow White

Frog Prince

Sorcerer’s Apprentice

Rapunzel

Little Mermaid

Sherlock

The Lion and the Mouse

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Bruce: Can you come out?

Tim: Okay, gimme a minute.

Tim: Bruce, I’m bi.

Bruce: I know that, son. I meant come out to the Batmobile.

Tim: Batmobile, I’m bi.

[kazehaya-hanamiya]

biblically accurate Kevin Day tattoo apparently

[kazehaya-hanamiya]

request from @devine-fem prompted by her post!