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I Am Hopeless

Lately i feel like i really haven’t been happy at all. I just let everything make me sad, i don’t fight it. Should I? Should i fight my sadness? Where would it get me? maybe that is my problem. I am afraid to be happy. I am afraid to move on. I am afraid to forget. I am afraid to let go. I have one person in my life who makes me smile when i don’t want to. Who makes me laugh when I want to cry. Who makes me love when my heart is broken. He is my happiness. But he doesn’t realize it. He doesn’t realize that i need him more than anyone. He doesn’t realize how depressed I am without him. He doesn’t realize how alone i am without him by my side. Maybe it’s good that he doesn’t know. If he did he would probably feel like he would have to do all of these things just to continue to make me happy, but that isn’t what i want at all. I want to be able to make him just as happy and loved as he makes me. I want to be able to make him smile when he doesn’t want to or laugh when he has had the worst day of his life. I want to give back to him what he has given me. But it would be impossible since he has another lady to make him feel that way. I know, I know. Most people would be saying “Why don’t you just move on then? There are more fish in the sea.” Yes, you may be right, but no one will ever make me feel the way he has made me feel. I could never compare him to anyone else, because he isn’t like anyone else. He has changed my life tremendously and no matter what happens i don’t ever want to let him go. It’s like when people say that gay shit about how the guy has the key to the girls heart. Yeah, I know, it’s a really gay thing to say but he is the only one who can take down my wall brick by brick just to check my heart to see if it’s still beating. He is one of the main reasons i wake up in the morning as depressing as that sounds I just have nothing to wake up for. My life is meaningless at this point. I have successfully met rock bottom and he is the only one who lifts me up from this point. I am hopeless.

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Top 5 meme ➯ Top 5 Parks and Rec Scenes └ “This Snake Juice is basically rat poison.” [1/5] (asked by jell-o-shot​)

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allthebestofmemes is your #1 source of funny

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Jeff & Annie Appreciation Week

↳ Day 1: The moment you started shipping them.

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then it must be more than love because my heart is more than broken.

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“Well I have dreams a lot where there’s things that are growing out of my skin, and it’s not painful it’s just a nuisance and I wish it wasn’t there, And then I peel it out of my skin and kind of get rid of it. And it’s a recurring dream I have, so anytime I see anything that even mimics that kind of stuff it’s like my nightmare. Its my recurring nightmare.” -Dane DeHaan for Flaunt Magazine

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i can’t wait to have kids and a family...

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cat yawns, tho.

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