kate1550

[kate1550]

questioning/suspected bpd is getting so attached to someone to the point that when they get mad or even change their tone with you, you break down so bad over it,,, im so sorry im trying my best

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[kate1550]

bpd culture is i want to know anything and everything about you. i want to know every detail about your life until its as if i've lived it myself. nothing is too weird or embarrassing to me; please just tell me everything. i want to know

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[kate1550]

Dear diary...

I try to be enough.

I really do.

But I also know I will never be.

There's no point in me trying. Cause in the end I'm a failure, and that's all I will ever be.

[kate1550]

Manga : Servamp

[kate1550]

“I don’t want to be this broken anymore, but pain feels like home.”

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[kate1550]

Feeling like you're too much is honestly one of the worst feelings to possibly exist. It just feels like you need to stop being yourself and existing all together. It's like you crawl out of your own skin and laugh in disgust at what remains, it's pathetic. And so saddening.

[kate1550]

“I don’t know how to do this anymore. I don’t know how to get better. My head is a dark place and it only gets worse, day by day. and I have no idea how to stop the darkness from coming in. I have no idea how to save myself anymore.”

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[kate1550]

odio cuando me siento bien y de la nada me agarra una tristeza horrible, odio sentirme insignificante

[kate1550]

It's so exhausting...

To never feel like you belong...

To always feel lonely in a room full of people...

To never feel like... You could ever be part of them.

To feel like your only company is your own mind.

The same mind that torments you every day.

It's exhausting. I'm tired.

I really am...

[kate1550]

[kate1550]

I can relate to this

[kate1550]

I can't imagine ever feeling okay about myself.

[kate1550]

bpd culture is never trusting someone fully to not leave you behind

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[kate1550]

feels fine for ten minutes: wow i can't believe i was faking my depression that entire time

feels bad for ten seconds: i have never felt joy in my entire life and existence is prison

[kate1550]

BPD culture is thinking everyone would be happier if you weren't a part of their lives anymore

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[kate1550]

[kate1550]

Once i'm detached, that's it. You will never get the same version of me, ever.