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CHAPTER 3 OF MY BSD FIC‼️ FINALLY‼️‼️

I hope you guys enjoy reading this if you do,,,,,,I’d love to hear your thoughts:)))

Kanako’s eyes drifted open as she lay in her bed, the light peeking through the curtains ever so slightly. She stretched, her loose pajamas riding upward to expose her scarred stomach to the warm rays of sunlight. Her blanket had fallen mostly off the bed due to her twisting and turning.

She yawned and rubbed her eyes, simply laying there for a while before opening her eyes and glancing at her bedside table. It had been freshly cleaned, and a cup of tea was sitting on it. She sat up, grabbing the cup and taking a sip,

“…Hibiscus hot tea, my favorite…” She smiled to herself as she took another sip, “Room service must’ve stopped by, but they don’t know my preferred type of tea…so who else could’ve…?”

She then just shrugged and passed it off as a normal occurrence. Kanako felt her phone vibrate, and she glanced down at it. It was a text from Chuuya, asking if she was awake. Kanako raised an eyebrow as she lifted her phone and called him, placing it in her lap and putting it on speakerphone.

Chuuya picked up and began speaking, “Kana, facetime?” He asked.

“Huh? Oh, I just woke up, I won’t look very good…”

“You don’t have to have your camera on, but I gotta show you something!” He said. Kanako noted that he sounded weirdly excited, more so than she usually hears him. Kanako called him on FaceTime, but she decided to just leave the camera on.

Chuuya picked up and adjusted his camera, “Okay, so tonight I got some free time so I visited this cat cafe, look at this orange boy!” He pointed the screen at an orange cat that was swatting at Chuuya’s hair as he giggled.

Kanako’s eyes widened as she had to stop herself from squealing, “Oh he’s so cute-!!” She covered her mouth.

“Yup! Saw this little guy and thought of you, since he likes playing with my hair.” He grinned. Kanako started to tear up slightly at just how cute that was,

“Aww, I’m so glad you thought of me…” She laughed a bit and smiled while wiping her tears up.

Chuuya saw her wiping her tears, and he turned the camera to face him again, “Hey, you okay? Seems pretty unlike you to cry about something like this…” He asked with concern in his voice.

“H-Huh? Yeah, I’m fine, just…missing you a lot, is all. It’s really tough, considering I’ve never been so long without you since we met…” She sighed, “I’ve been so stressed, and all of my negative impulses are going crazy for some reason, but I just don’t know why…” She averted her gaze from the camera.

“…You wanna turn your camera off? If you don’t want me seeing you like this it’s fine.” He offered. Kanako nodded and turned off her camera before placing her phone back in her lap and taking another sip of her tea,

“I’m sorry if I’m a mess, I just…ugh, I don’t know what’s going on. Every time I have to take care of Koko she begs me to go see you but she doesn’t understand that I can’t.” She frowned. Chuuya leaned his head against his balled up fist,

“Yeah, that sounds tough…but I’ll be home soon, alright? Then, you and I can watch Koko together, we can get something to eat, hell, I heard there’s a place like this not far from the Port Mafia, I can take you.” He said with a smile.

Kanako nodded and took a deep breath, “That…that sounds good, I’d like that.”

“Good.” Chuuya pointed the camera back at the cat, “See look, this is Kana! Kana is my bodyguard back where I live, but she’s honestly more of a friend to me.” He chuckled as he remembered her camera was off, “Oh wait, you can’t see her, oops!”

“Friend? Yeah right. That guy wants you.”

Kanako glared to herself as that voice popped back up in her head. She didn’t bother giving it any attention though.

“Um, Chuuya?” Kanako spoke up.

Chuuya turned the camera back towards him, “Yeah?”

“Is there a chance you could come home sooner?” She asked.

“…Well if there’s an emergency, yeah. Why, you wanna see me?” He grinned. Kanako rolled her eyes,

“Well, yeah…obviously.” She sighed, “And I was also just wondering.”

“Hm. Alright then. Well…I’ll let you go now, is that alright?” He asked. Kanako just sighed,

“Yeah, that’s fine. I need to start my day anyway…” She frowned a bit.

“Alright then. Hey, take care of those guys you boss around as well, okay? I’m so used to always having you by my side that I forget that you’re a legitimate commander.” He chuckled.

“Oh yeah. That makes sense…and I will, thank you.” She rubbed her eyes a bit before grabbing her tea and taking another sip, “Bye.”

“Bye!” Chuuya hung up, and Kanako stared back down at her cup, the question of who got it for her came back up in her mind. She narrowed her gaze as she stared down at it, when suddenly someone knocked on her door.

“Hm?” Kanako adjusted her top so it was covering everything, then she pulled her knees up and sipped her drink, “Come in.” She called. The door clicked open, and a tall, dark haired man with golden eyes answer,

“Knock knock~” He said with a smile.

“Oh, Taiyou?” She tilted her head, then held up her cup, “Do you know who made this for me? I woke up and it was on my bedside table…” She took another sip, “It’s just how I like it.”

Taiyou chuckled, “Oh, that? Kai made it for you, and I brought it. He was running late for something but wanted you to get this.” He explained. Kanako felt her cheeks flush a bit,

“He didn’t need to risk being late…”

“But he did, for you. You’ve got yourself a very dedicated following. Running late isn’t a problem for them if it means keeping you happy, Kanako.” Taiyou said with a slight smile, “They would all perish for you. I’m sure the risk of a rescheduled appointment is nothing.”

As he told her that, Kanako felt her heart skip a beat. Has she really gotten this far? From just being the girl who was born into this bloodbath of an organization with no choice, to being a respected leader with one hundred people who would willingly throw their lives away for her?

“But I…”

“You may not be very high ranking, and yes, those men of yours may just be a collection of hard luck cases that you gave mercy to, but in their eyes you are much more than both of those things, Kanako.” Taiyou folded his arms, his eyes staring down at her, “You gave them new lives. Every last one of those men threw away their old, miserable lives, to live happier with you as their leader. That’s why none of them ever kept their birth names, it’s because they are new people now. And that’s quite honorable, isn’t it?”

She blinked several times, her mind processing what Taiyou had said. She was more than their leader, she was a new hope, a new chance at life.

But what stuck out the most to her, was that now, more than ever, she was letting them down. She was never around, she had no orders to give them, and it was obvious that they weren’t what was most important to her, because her slow downfall as a leader started because of someone else.

It started because six months ago, Chuuya left for America.

“…Taiyou, I need to get dressed, can you leave?” She asked. The man nodded and turned to walk out, but Kanako stopped him, “Oh, wait, why were you here in the first place?” She asked.

“Hm? Oh, I just wanted to let you know that Mai is coming back from her mission in a few days time.” He informed her.

“Ohh, I see. Well…thanks for telling me.” She waved goodbye, and Taiyou nodded before leaving, closing the door behind him. The moment he did, she jumped out of bed and swung her closet open. She grabbed her uniform and quickly took off her pajamas.

As Kanako slid into her underwear and shorts, she buttoned her shirt and looked over at a mirror in the room, a newly replaced one. She fixed the last button and stared at herself, taking note of all of her features that had yet to be covered, mostly on her legs. Scars ran up and down her thighs, and a large one was plastered across her cheek. She knew there were dozens more than that beneath her clothes, but now wasn’t the time to pick apart her imperfections.

She finished getting dressed and slipped on her shoes, then ran out of her room after grabbing her phone from her bed. She jumped into the elevator down the hall and had it go down to the lowest floor, where she left the elevator the moment the doors opened. She looked around, seeing how empty it was once again.

Kanako held up her hand and put two of her fingers in her mouth before blowing, letting out a whistle that echoed through the whole floor. Several doors opened up, and men came out of all of them.

“Hey, it’s the boss lady!” One of the younger guys waved, “Nice seeing you!”

Kanako nodded towards him, “Terra, are you staying behaved?” She asked.

“Am I staying behaved? Hah! I’ve been having to keep all the others in check!” He laughed. Terra was a younger boy with tan skin and brown hair, as well as brown eyes. He pulled out his loose ponytail and redid it while glancing at the other guys who came out of their rooms. A scruffy older guy that looked similar to Terra came out,

“Don’t believe a word this kid says, he’s been nothing but trouble.” He said as he straightened his beard. Kanako chuckled at the man throwing Terra under the bus,

“Oh, is that so, Terra?” Kanako raised an eyebrow.

“Dad!!”

The older man came over and scruffed Terra’s hair playfully, “He may be a troublemaker, but he’s our troublemaker. Isn’t that right?” The boy seemed to be embarrassed about how his father treated him, as he was just folding his arms and looking away.

“Always bullying your son, aren’t you, Curculio?” Kanako rolled her eyes affectionately. Curculio returned his hand to his side and nodded,

“He’s fun to pick on. He always gets so aggravated!” He grinned.

Terra groaned again, “Where’d Kai go? He’s so much cooler than you.” He looked around. Mao came from around the corner, “Oh, ew.”

“Damn, you could at least act excited to see me.” The guy grinned as he grabbed the cigarette that was falling from his lips, “What was that whistle for, eh, Kana? You finally taking charge again? You know I love to see it.” He said with a creepy smile. Kanako simply shook her head,

“Not yet, the mafia is busy lately, and right now we only have one pressing concern…and that’s getting a hold of the Weretiger.” She answered, “I just wanted to let you all know that we’re approaching something big. I’m not sure what, but…I know it’ll happen. And as your commander, I will be with you all every step of the way.”

The crowd of people cheered, and Terra’s face broke out into a grin, “Aw YEAH!! Kana’s squad is back in business, baby!” He shot a fist into the hair. Curculio rubbed his son’s head and smiled as well,

“We’re glad to have you back, boss.”

Kanako nodded, “And I’m glad to be back. I realize now that even after everything you all have done for me…I’ve been letting you down.” She sighed, “It’s time for me to step up as your leader. Just because my boss is gone doesn’t mean yours should be too.”

Mao smirked, “Couldn’t have said it better myself.”

Someone came out of the crowd and grabbed Kanako’s shoulder, he had black hair tied back into a messy bun, as well as a proud smile on his face, “Whatever you need, we’ve all got you. You know it.”

Kanako smiled and reached over to put her hand on top of his, “Thank you, Argiris.”

Argiris placed a hand over his heart and nodded, “It’s my honor, commander.”

Later that morning

Loud horns and the sounds of cars zooming down the streets could be heard even from the inside of the cafe where Mira was resting. She sat with a cup of coffee to her nose as she breathed in the sent,

“Ah…delicious~” She giggled a bit before taking a sip. She tilted her head to look out the window, her faint reflection staring back at her. Mira fluffed her blonde hair and batted her eyelashes, gazing into her own magenta eyes, “When will she be here? It’s almost time to meet.” She wondered to herself.

As if on queue, the door to the coffee shop opened and the bell rang, signaling Mira to look in the direction of the sound. The woman before her waved, “Ah, Hayashibura. I got lost, I apologize…” She spoke professionally.

Mira grinned a bit, “Come on, Kana. Don’t be so professional, I invited you here as a friend~” She gestured for her to sit. Kanako’s cheeks flushed a bit as she looked around,

“O-Oh, okay, sorry…” She walked towards the table with her eyes glued to the ground. Mira rolled her eyes,

“The moment you’re not working you’re a shy mess. Grow a backbone, Kana! You can’t get by bossing everyone around, honey.” She leaned back with her arm flung out.

“I don’t always boss people around, Mira…” She said quietly.

“Right, because when you aren’t you’re submitting to your boss like a lap dog. Take charge!”

“I’m not submitting like a lap dog!” Kanako blushed more, “Chuuya’s my boss, and it’s just right to follow his orders!” She objected while clenching her fist against the table.

“Kana.” Mira narrowed her eyes, “You can hardly function when he’s not around. The issue is that you’re just too codependent! I bet the second he comes back you’re gonna jump all over him.”

“Mira, did you just call me here to criticize me…?“ She seemed to be getting a bit upset. Mira sighed and shook her head,

“Obviously not. I am a bit annoyed that you had Koko dumped on me for the night.” She threw her hand out.

Kanako tilted her head, “Eh? I had Koko dumped on you…?” She asked with an apologetic look in her eyes. Mira blinked a few times,

“Oh, so you didn’t tell Risa to find me cause you didn’t wanna take care of her?”

“What? No…I just asked her to find someone else, I didn’t say it had to be you.” She clarified.

“Ohh, right.” Mira sighed and leaned backward, hanging her arm around the back of the chair, “I do have to wonder, for someone who seemed so maternal for such a long time…”

Kanako began to sweat a bit as Mira continued her statement, her fist lifted slightly from the table.

“…Why are you so against the idea of taking care of children if you always wanted to be a mother? And what happened that made you give up-“

“Nothing happened!” Kanako snapped. Mira jumped a bit, “Nothing. Happened. Don’t ask me ever again, nothing happened.” Her voice shook, and whether it was with fear or rage Mira couldn’t tell.

“Woah, sorry, didn’t know that would do that…” Mira recoiled. Kanako let out a deep breath,

“...Sorry, I just don’t like that question.” She sighed softly. Mira just stared at her before changing the subject,

“So, have you heard about the missing people? I heard it was a group of organ smugglers that were responsible, though we’re not sure of the details.” She propped her chin up on her palm and shrugged, “We’ve got too much on our plate to care though, since we’re trying to kidnap that agency member, Dazai.”

“...We’re trying to kidnap Dazai?”

Kanako was confused, as this was the first she heard of it, “Wait, why him? I thought our target was Atsushi.”

Mira nodded, “Our target is Atsushi, but guess which organization got to him first.” She said with a glare, “Atsushi was our bounty, and Dazai was our member. They can’t keep their grubby hands off anyone. Not to mention that letter we got…Dazai needs to be kept under our watch.”

“Letter…?”

Mira looked around before leaning close to Kanako and whispering, “‘Should Dazai fall, all of the mafia’s secrets will be revealed, and brought to light.’” She said in a grim tone.

“What?” Kanako gasped softly, “But how are we supposed to even get information out of him…?”

“Only person I can think of who’s capable is Chuuya, but he’s in America and won’t be back for another month or so.” She leaned back and took a sip of her coffee.

Kanako stared at her before looking down at the table,

“Chuuya needs to get information out of Dazai, but won’t be back for a while…but he said he’d come back if there was an emergency, which…organ smugglers, wait…”

Kanako’s eyes widened, “Mira. I need you to kidnap me.”

Mira blinked a few times, her expression breaking into a confused glare, “Huh?? I had a feeling you were into some weird stuff but-“

“What? No! Not like that!!” Kanako blushed, “I phrased it wrong…what I meant was, I have a plan, and it involves you kidnapping me.”

“That doesn’t sound any better!!”

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katbloo · 12 days ago

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I’m gonna post the other chapters now :3

UHH CHAPTER 2 OF MY BSD FIC

ENJOY

The night after her hospital visit, Kanako sat at the counter of a bar she frequented. It had a warm and cozy atmosphere, and it was never too crowded, so Kanako could easily hear all of the conversations going on.

As she sipped her drink, she glanced to the side at a small group of men, who were all talking about something that she found rather interesting,

“Did you hear? Apparently, a bunch of people in Yokohama have been going missing lately.”

“Seriously? Like a serial abduction case?”

“Yeah…it’s pretty recent so we don’t know much about it.”

Kanako pulled out her phone and stared at the time as she sipped her drink, “Nine pm.” She noted as she pretended to not eavesdrop on the group of people.

“That’s pretty scary, I hope I don’t get abducted! I’ve got too much left to do with my life…”

“Yeah, no kidding. Have you been to that new restaurant? I’m dying to try it, and I do not wanna get murdered before I can do that.”

Once the conversation shifted, Kanako quit listening to them, as she became uninterested. The bartender made his round back to her and he held his hand out for her empty glass. Kanako slid it towards him,

“A refill, please.” She requested. The bartender nodded and went to make her drink. Kanako picked up her phone and sighed, no new notifications, no new jobs. Without Chuuya being there to entertain her with his usual nonsense, her life felt stale and uninteresting. The only thing she found herself doing was work, and when she was out of work to do, there was nothing.

Kanako began to think about the past few days, and how stressful they had been for the Port Mafia. They had been given an offer from a foreign organization that was just too valuable to pass up, and because of that, they were on constant lookout in search of a white tiger.

“People will do anything for money, won’t they? We’re wasting our time on this dumb tiger.”

Kanako looked up at the bartender as he slid the drink towards her. She nodded in thanks and lifted the glass to her lips, she took a sip and set it down, “It’s delicious, thank you.”

“Of course, ma’am.” He nodded and went back to his job. Kanako let out a groan as she leaned her head on the counter,

“I’m bored to death, and everyone else is busy.” She huffed as she pulled out her phone to check her contacts. Every one of them was offline, all except for one, “Wait, Chuuya’s in a different time zone…” She decided to shoot him a text message.

“Is it morning for you?”

Kanako turned off her phone and set it down to wait for a reply. She finished her drink and turned her attention back to the people who were talking about the abductions, but their conversation had shifted to sports, which Kanako couldn’t care less about.

A few minutes later, Kanako received a text back,

“Yeah it’s morning. Can you call?”

Kanako gasped a bit as he asked this, it wasn’t often that they could hear each other’s voices since he left six months ago, so she was quick to type a reply and leave the bar after paying, “I can.”

Kanako grabbed her bag from the counter and sprinted outside, she stood out on the streets looking up at the moon as she waited for him to call her. The moment her phone began to buzz, she answered it,

“Chuuya?”

“Been a while, Kana! I was starting to miss your voice.” He teased. Kanako chuckled a bit as she walked down the street,

“Ehehe…same…well, how are things going in…America?” She asked. Chuuya let out a long sigh before speaking,

“It’s…going. This place is crazy. I’ve been told that we had free speech, but I might’ve said ‘shit’ in front of a five year old and gotten scolded for it-“ He explained.

“…Huh??”

“She said that ‘a kid like me should know better than to swear around children’ and then complained to the staff at the restaurant.”

“P-Pfff- and what did they do?”

“Basically told her to leave them alone.”

“Hah-! That’s amazing, and what did you do?”

“…I just stood there. I didn’t feel like making a fool of myself.” He sighed as he began to type away on a keyboard of some sort.

“What are you doing now?” Kanako asked as she made her way to the Port Mafia.

“I’m just typing my report. I was sent here to put out fires but I got swept up in some other business, so what was gonna be almost a vacation just turned out to be a huge business trip…” He groaned a bit, “I just wanna go back to the mafia where everyone is. I miss sleeping in my own bed, everything here feels lonely.”

Kanako frowned a bit as he spoke, and she tried to think of what she could say to make him feel better, “Well, when you come back…I want to spend some time with you.”

“Aww, you do? I’m more than excited for that, Kana.” He said affectionately.

Kanako blushed a tiny bit, and she swallowed, “Yeah, me too.” She looked ahead, “I’m almost back to the Port Mafia…which, by the way, I heard about something strange going on lately.”

“Oh? Something strange?”

Kanako lowered her voice, and she stopped moving, “Mhm…apparently there’s a serial abduction case going on.”

“Serial abduction case?”

“Yes. People in Yokohama have been going missing somewhat frequently in the past couple of weeks. I haven’t heard much about it, but I have my suspicions of what could be going on.”

“I see…well, once again, please be careful.” He requested of her. Kanako nodded,

“Of course, I’ll be careful.” She began to walk again as she made it to a crosswalk that would lead her to her destination.

“Alright then. Well…I’ve got some work to do, so I’ll be busy. I’ll talk to you some other time?” He asked.

Kanako paused a bit, and a slight upset sigh could be heard escaping her lips. Chuuya picked up on this, of course,

“Kana? Do you…not wanna hang up?”

“Hm? N-No it’s fine. You can do your work, that’s more important…”

“…You sure?”

Her heart sped up as he asked again, and she debated whether she should tell the truth or let him go, which she ultimately decided on the latter, “…Yes, I’m sure. Do your work, then you can come home quicker.”

Chuuya chuckled a bit, “Alright then. I’ll see you later, Kana.” He said affectionately.

“Of course…you as well, Ch-Chuuya.” She hesitated a bit when saying his name, “Bye then.”

“Bye, Kana. Lo-…Bye.” Chuuya hung up quickly.

Kanako seemed a bit confused at his quick hang up, as well as the slip up he seemed to have caught before fully finishing his sentence.

When Kanako finally entered the building, she looked around at the warm lighting. It always welcomed her, no matter how far she had to go in order to get there. While she was examining the hall, she could hear the sound of clinking, followed by nonsensical rambling about something or other. She made her way to the hallway that it came from and looked down it,

“Kajii?”

“Hm? Oh, well if it isn’t Kana!” The man snicker as he approached her, carrying a large bag of lemon bombs. Kanako glanced at the bag,

“What are you gonna do with those…?” She questioned him suspiciously.

“Oh these? Just a little…experiment.” He laughed.

Kanako rolled her eyes and chuckled, “Of course, an experiment. Are you plotting something for the Agency?”

“Ooh, you were always one to spot things quite easily,” Kajii grinned, “But of course it is! That Weretiger—Atsushi was his name? He’s quite the interesting subject, you see! I mean, for an ability as simple as transforming into a tiger of all things, the Guild is fetching quite the hefty price for him!”

“Yeah, that is interesting I suppose. I wonder what the full scope of his abilities are…and why it’s so important to the Guild.” She crossed her arms and put her finger to her mouth, “Perhaps it’s the nature of his ability…? I mean, it’s not very often that an ability completely transforms someone's body, much less into an animal…some abilities can alter one’s body but not fully change it…”

“I like how you think, Kana.” The scientist chuckled, “The nature of his ability is indeed rather strange, I can’t think of anything like it. Perhaps that is what led to him having such a high bounty price.” He rubbed his chin with his thumb and finger, “But we won’t find out if we can’t catch and deliver him.”

“That’s true, so I guess we have to do what we can to capture him.” Kanako rubbed the side of her head,

“Correct! So now I must conduct a plan of action to get him to hand himself over!” He said excitedly, “You’re more than welcome to accompany me if you wish, Kana.” He said with a grin on his face.

Kanako took a second to realize she’d been asked to be with him, and when she did her desire to not be alone disappeared. The thought of being with someone now that she’d been asked to seemed unbearable, and she wasn’t sure why.

“…Kana? Why is your face doing that?” He asked as he pointed to her expression.

Kanako realized how scrunched up her face had gotten and she shook her head, “Oh? S-Sorry…I didn’t mean to make that face, I was just thinking.”

“I see, did you hear me though?”

“Y-Yes, and although I appreciate the offer, I’ll have to pass, sorry…” She sighed. Kajii nodded in understanding,

“Alright then. I’ll get to work on my experiment then, just remember that I’m always available~” He laughed a bit before walking off.

Kanako stared at him as he walked down the hall, and she felt a pain in her heart. It had been forever since she’d spent time with anyone since Chuuya left, it was hard to open up knowing that she didn’t have someone to run to if things went wrong.

She turned and walked to the elevator, she selected her floor and waited patiently to arrive. Once the door opened she walked down to her room with her bag still held closely, and she used her key to enter her room.

The moment she entered, she dropped her bag to the floor and immediately began undressing. She took a pack of cigarettes from her bag and entered the bathroom. She tossed her clothes onto the floor and stepped into the hot shower, which began to fill up the tub as she leaned back in it.

Kanako realized that she had forgotten her lighter, and she glared silently, she grabbed a razor and placed a light cut on her arm, then activated her ability to retrieve it from her bag and bring it to her.

Once she had the lighter, she lit the cigarette and leaned back further in the water as it dangled from her lips, the smoke rising gently from the burning tip.

She looked up at the ceiling and took a breath in, then pulled the cigarette from her lips and let it out, “…What more is there to do in a day, I wonder?”

She closed her eyes as she thought about the people that she was surrounded by, her family, her friends, her men.

“…Ah, yes. My men.”

She ran her fingers through her hair, “Work’s been stagnant for us all. We haven’t been to battle in a while, I wonder if my skills as a commander have gotten rusty.” She took another huff from the cigarette and let it out. The water grew closer and closer to the top of the tub, and she sat up to turn off the shower head. She leaned back again and simply soaked in the hot water for a while.

As Kanako slowly submerged herself, she began to hear a voice in the back of her mind, “…Can you really continue to command 100 men? Even 50 seems like too much for you. You’re overstepping, you should just give up.”

Kanako clenched her fist at this voice, and she gritted her teeth, “Shut up…”

“Why do you need an army anyway? You’re better off alone. You don’t need soldiers.”

“They are not soldiers…”

“Then what are they, hm? We both know that you would give them up in a heartbeat if it meant it would save your own skin.”

“What the hell makes you think I would do something like that…? I’m not heartless, I just…”

“You’re not heartless? You killed two people yesterday and you went drinking today because of how your job stresses you out. You didn’t even think about the people you killed, because you never do.”

“Just shut up…” Kanako sank further into the bath water.

“You know I’m right. I’m the real you, the one you want to bury. The one that you’re afraid of becoming, but you will.”

“Ugh, shut UP! You bitch, what do you know?!” She yelled to herself as she grabbed fistfuls of her hair and dropped the cigarette from her mouth. She looked down at the extinguished cigarette in the bathtub and she let out a groan before lifting it from the water and throwing it into the trash can.

“Great, now I’m surrounded with cigarette ash…” Kanako squeezed her hair again and glared at nothing.

“Everything around you should burn, Kanako. It all should turn to ash.”

“Dammit, for the love of god will you just-?!”

She then heard the door to her room open, and she listened closely as someone entered, “Kanako? Are you here?”

“Huh? Oh, um…” Kanako slowly sat up from the water and turned towards the bathroom door, “I’m in the bath, Mom.” She called.

“Of course you are.” Her mother, Risako, came closer to the door, “Your sister is busy and needs you to watch Koko for her! She’s asleep right now, can I just leave her in your bed for a bit?”

Kanako blinked a few times, trying to process what was being said.

Kanako’s niece, who actually shared a name with her, was the daughter of Kanako’s sister, Mai. The girl was hyperactive and nothing like her mother, at least not as of lately.

She thought for a moment, “Um…I’m not sure, can’t you watch her, Mom?”

“Oh, I would, but I have to patrol…”

“What about Taiyou? You know, Koko’s dad?”

“Oh him? Like hell I’d leave my grandchild with a man like him.” Risako walked somewhere else in the room, as Kanako heard her voice get a bit quieter, but it soon came back to its normal volume, “You know how I feel about him.”

“Right, right…” Kanako sighed, “Your thoughts of him are confusing to me.”

Risako groaned, “I’m not stupid, Kanako. You have to trust me when I say that…”

As she continued to speak, Kanako noticed that she was beginning to zone out, and she shook her head, “Wait, what was that?”

“Do I need to come in?” Risako asked.

Kanako hesitated for a moment, then slowly pulled the shower curtain in front of herself, “Yeah, come in.” The door opened and her mother stepped in, a tall and rather fit woman with light purple hair that was both tied in a bun and hung halfway down her back, as well as green—almost pink—eyes.

“I was saying that he can’t be trusted, no matter what.” She finished.

“But you won’t believe her, will you? Even though you know she’s right.”

Kanako grunted slightly at this voice, and she tried to cast it out without making a scene in front of her mother, “Mom, please, can you just stop complaining about Taiyou and find someone else to watch Koko? I’m exhausted and slightly buzzed, I can’t handle her if she acts up…”

“You’re buzzed? How much did you drink at the bar, Kanako?”

“Mom, it’s not that big of a deal…”

“Tell me!”

“Ugh…” Kanako rolled her eyes, “I had like, six drinks, and they were pretty heavy, but I swear I’m not that drunk!”

“Kanako!”

“Mom!” She sighed, “I’m just…tired from all this heat, it’s hard to function…”

“Then what are you doing?! Get out of the tub, you’re gonna pass out from heat exhaustion! Did you even turn the cold knob?” Risako approached the bathtub and grabbed the edge of the curtain,

“Wait, don't do that-!!” Kanako yelped as she accidentally activated her ability and cut her mom’s hand, “Huh? Oh my god, wait, I’m so sorry-!”

“Ow! Be more careful, Kanako!” Risako sighed as she pulled her hand back quickly and examined the cut, “It’s not too deep, don’t be too upset, Kanako…”

“I…I didn’t mean to hurt you, Mom, I just…”

“It’s okay, I shouldn’t have tried to open the curtain, I know how you feel about being seen.” Risako stepped backward, “I will find someone else to watch Koko, just try to take it easy, okay? Your men are worried for you, they haven’t seen their commander without eyebags for almost a few weeks now.” She stepped out of the bathroom.

Kanako sighed at the mention of her men, and she leaned her head on the palm of her hand, “Right, right, I’ll visit them…they all stay in the same place anyway.” She yawned and looked down at the bathroom floor, which was beginning to get wet.

Kanako closed her eyes as she leaned her head on the walls of the tub, her wet hair almost touching the floor.

“So you’re just gonna sleep it off? You’re gonna act as if you didn’t just hurt your mother?”

Kanako didn’t have the energy to respond, she simply stayed in the same position.

“Fine. Ignore me. Ignore who you really are.”

Kanako stood up from the tub, turned off the shower, and unplugged the drain. She stepped out into the room and grabbed her towel, she then glared at the mirror.

“Look at yourself. So hopeless-“

“SHUT UP!!!” Kanako screamed as she slammed her fist into the mirror, shattering it. Blood from her cuts dripped onto the cracked and broken glass, her face wasn’t recognizable in the state that the mirror was in.

When Kanako pulled her fist back, she turned on the sink, rinsed it off, and simply left the bathroom without cleaning the mess.

“…Broke another mirror, hm?”

“Why are you doing this to me…?” Kanako asked herself as she stood in her bedroom, “Why are you so hell-bent on making me suffer?!”

The voice went silent, and Kanako never got a response. She clenched her fist and yelled again, “Oh, so you’re quiet now?! Now you’re keeping your mouth shut? When I want an answer?!?” She let out a shaky breath as she dropped the towel to the ground and went to her closet, where she grabbed an outfit and put it on.

“Dammit, what the hell is wrong with me…?” She asked herself as she put on her underwear, “This voice in my head, it won’t go away…” She put on her button-up shirt and her shorts, “Unless I want it to tell me something…” Kanako put on her vest and swung her jacket over her shoulders, not bothering to put her arms through the sleeves before adjusting her shirt collar and grabbing her hat.

Kanako groaned to herself before grabbing a spare sheet and throwing it over her bathroom mirror, the sight of her reflection in the cracked glass making her head her. As she turned to leave the bathroom, her eyes caught the sight of another mirror, which she covered up with a nearby blanket. She let out a shaky breath and turned around to leave the room, grabbing her phone from the small table next to her door. Kanako locked the door behind her and made her way down the hall with her phone clenched in her hand.

“Covering things up? But you can’t even do that for yourself around all of those men, how dirty.”

Kanako nearly yelled out loud in the hallway as she held her phone to her chest and clenched her teeth, “S-stop it…! Why are you only back when I don’t want you to be-?” She said with a shaky voice. She stood there with her hands close to her body, keeping herself small and defended like a rat.

She took a deep breath and walked towards the elevator, where she selected the button for the lowest floor, where all the people she commanded stayed. The way the building was organized made things much easier. Lower ranking members remained on the bottom floors, the main offices and miscellaneous rooms such as the gym and weapons rooms were on the main floor, higher ranking members such as Kanako were on the fifth floor, and the top floor belonged to executives, as well as Ougai Mori himself. The floors between the main ones were used for more general offices.

The elevator wait took a little while, but she eventually made it to the bottom floor, where the smell of alcohol was rather strong compared to what she was used to. Other than that, the place was well-kept and organized. Each person got a room to themselves and the main room was always clean, despite everyone usually hanging out in it.

When Kanako looked around, the place was surprisingly empty, and she felt a song of fear in the back of her mind,

“Ooh, did they leave you? It’s been so long I wouldn’t be surprised, you’re so unreliable~”

Kanako deeply breathed, “She doesn’t deserve my attention…” She spoke to herself. But Kanako didn’t realize just how much attention she was giving this voice until an arm came around her shoulder from behind, “What?!” She gasped and turned around, grabbing the person’s arm and swinging them over her shoulder. She let out an exerted huff of air as she realized how heavy this person was, and the feeling of their skin beneath her fingers, that familiar texture that was lined with scars. She turned around and looked down at the person who approached her,

“Damn, Kana! Wasn’t expecting that from you!” A large man with dark skin and a wide smile said with a hearty chuckle.

Kanako blinked a few times, “Kai?! I thought I told you not to sneak up on me like that, you scared the shit out of me!” Kanako said with an exasperated sigh, “I thought I was getting kidnapped…”

“Is that a common concern for you…?” Kai sat up and rubbed his back. Kanako simply shrugged and grabbed his hand,

“Maybe, maybe not. I might just be paranoid…hyup-!” She pulled him up and ran her fingers through her hair, keeping her hand there for a bit as she looked up at the man, who was at least six feet tall, an entire foot taller than Kanako herself, “Where’d everyone else go? Don’t tell me that after three years they all bailed…” She frowned as she sat on the bench in the room, Kai sat next to her,

“Oh hell no, Kana! We’re your guys, you can count on us for everything. It’s just that things have been pretty stale lately, we’re waiting for things to spice up, y’know? They’ve all been hanging around in their rooms.”

Kanako let out a sigh of relief, “Oh, phew…that’s good. I was worried.”

Kai patted her back, “Hey, don’t worry too much little lady. You’re a strong commander, everyone here knows they’ve gotta stick with you,” He grinned, “Or else.”

Kanako rolled her eyes and swatted at him, “I’m not trying to scare them into submission, Kai. I also didn’t ask for any of them to dedicate their lives to me, but here we are.”

The man ran a hand over his mostly shaved head as he chuckled, “Yeah, yeah. I mostly did it. But c’mon, can you really blame me?”

She sighed and shrugged, “I’m…not sure.”

Kai looked down at her with a frown, “Kana, what’s wrong? You’ve been acting all gloom and doom lately. You’re killing the vibe here, y’know?” He raised an eyebrow.

Kanako just shook her head, but didn’t say anything.

Kai debated whether or not he’d say something, but as he was about to open his mouth one of the doors down the hall opened. A pale man of medium height stepped out, he had a cigarette hanging from his mouth, and a mess of brown hair sat atop his head.

“Oh hey, it seems like the lady’s back.” He said with a grin. Kai glared at him a bit,

“Listen, Mao. Now ain’t the time for your flirty bullshit, so pack your bags and get a move on.” He said demandingly.

Kanako looked up at Mao, “…Oh, hey there.” Kai gripped Kanako’s shoulder with a warning, but she just ignored it, “What are you doing?” She asked Mao,

“Just checkin’ things out, y’know. You’re looking pretty good, hon. Did you just get out of the shower?”

Kai growled, “Mao.”

“What? I’m just tryna make her feel better, that a problem?”

Kai tightened his grip on Kanako’s shoulder as he felt her shiver with discomfort, “It is a problem when she’s clearly not a fan. Now what did I say? I’m her right hand man, and if you don’t get your ass gone I’ll beat you over the head with the nearest chair I can get my hands on. Understood?”

Mao glared at Kai and spat at his feet, “Fine then. Be that way.” He turned around and held his thumb and pinky up to his ear with a wink, “Call me if you need me, Kana.”

“Hey, you can’t call her that.” Kai snapped.

“K-Kai, it’s fine, just be glad he’s leaving…” She pushed his hand off her shoulder and sighed, “Did he even listen when we brought him in? I’m off limits to everyone in the squad…”

“That dumbass probably thinks he can still get in your pants cause he’s so ‘charismatic’…gimme a break.” Kai folded his arms and rolled his eyes.

“And you won’t let him in? How lame, you could use someone to loosen you up a bit~” The voice spoke with a taunting tone. Kanako clenched her teeth in order to keep herself from yelling out loud, but Kai noticed her tense body,

“Oh shit, right, spit’s on the floor.” He said as he saw the liquid at his feet. “I’ll get that cleaned up, you relax.” He patted her shoulder before getting up and grabbing a mop.

The truth was though, Kanako hadn’t even noticed the spit yet, and now that it had been pointed out her skin began to crawl. “O-Oh, yeah, please clean that up…” She scooted away from the spit.

Kai began to clean up the mess, eventually deciding to just mop the entirety of the already clean floor all over again. Kanako clenched her hands close to her body, her palms began to calm up as her heart raced. Her eyes landed on a plant that had been slightly shifted from where it should be, and the voice in her head grew louder,

“Go ahead. Cry. Lose your mind over something stupid that nobody cares about. You’re alone, aren’t you? You don’t have that boyfriend of yours to run to-“

“Sh-Shut up…!” Kanako clenched her fists and teeth.

Kai glanced back at her, “Kana, you wanna go back up to your room? You’re looking pretty stressed, and it’s getting late. You should head back.” He suggested. Kanako let out a shaky sigh,

“…R-Right, right. I’ll… I’ll go back, sorry if I stressed you out…” She told him as she stood up. Kai glanced back at her,

“Nah, you’re good. Just remember I’m here for you, alright?”

Kanako stood in the doorway for a bit before speaking up, “Of course, thank you…”

Kai nodded, then coughed a bit.

“And Kai? I’m…here for you too. As much as I can be.”

He cleared his throat, then nodded and smiled, “Yeah, of course, Kana.”

Kanako looked back at him, smiled a bit, then turned around and walked into the elevator.

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