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follow my bev @marshbev <3

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de4die < kaspbrakedds ....

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please don’t hold me responsible for my actions i’m a brunette

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ali i’m laying dead in a ditch

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i’m making a loser promo who wants to be in it <3

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eddie bi nonbinary would kill for anyone he loves

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whom.. want to plot..

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stranger  things  season  one  (  2016 -  )  sentence  starters ↪  joyce  byers  edition.  alter  as  you  see  fit

“where the hell are they?”

“i will see you tonight.”

“i told you this a thousand times!”

“i can’t believe you, sometimes.”

“i have been waiting here over an hour.”

“he has nothing to do with this.”

“what about the other time?”

“anybody home?”

“i changed my mind.”

“who the hell is this?”

“bitch!”

“i know i haven’t been there for you.”

“‘i just feel bad. i don’t even barely know what’s going on with you.”

“you can’t do this to yourself.”

“this was not your fault.”

“i feel it in my heart.”

“you have to trust me on this, okay?”

“i can’t eat.”

“i don’t want you to go alone.”

“you’re saying that’s not weird?”

“who would do that?”

“it was not a prank.”

“you think i’m - i’m making this up?”

“oh, come on! you’re wasting your time.”

“i heard something else.”

“just tell me where you are, honey.”

“can you show him what you showed me?”

“something is going on here!”

“maybe if i get more lamps …”

“okay, i’m sorry.”

“uh, you wanna come in?”

“we’re having electrical problems.”

“she shouldn’t be here.”

“i need you to leave.”

“okay, baby, talk to me.”

“what should i do?”

“no, you don’t understand.”

“it was almost human, but it wasn’t.”

“it had these long arms and it didn’t have a face.”

“you’re talking about grief. this is different.”

“i swear to you, i know what i saw.”

“i understand, but god - i need you to believe me. please.”

“just go home, [name].”

“i know it sounds crazy. i sound crazy! you think i don’t know that?”

“i don’t care if anyone believes me!”

“i am not gonna stop looking for him until i find him and bring him home.”

“tell me where you are.”

“i need you to hide.”

“our hands were almost touching.”

“don’t look at me like that.”

“you never cared about him. you never did!”

“i can’t believe i fell for this.”

“oh brother, i have not needed you for a long time!”

“don’t you dare.”

“what the hell is going on, [name]?”

“look, we gotta go through this again.”

“you didn’t say there was a drawing.”

“was it a good drawing?”

“you may have seen him on the news.”

“that could’ve been covered up.”

“what, you’re sorry? that is not good enough, [name]!”

“that’s not even close. that’s not even in the ballpark.”

“this is not yours to fix alone.”

“you act like you’re all alone out there in the world, but you’re not.”

“you’re not alone.”

“you’re a very brave girl. you know that, don’t you?”

“thank you.”

“listen, i am gonna be there with you the whole time.”

“if it ever gets too scary … you just let me know, okay?”

“it’s okay. it’s okay.”

“i got you. don’t be afraid. i’m right here with you.”

“you tell him i’m coming.”

“just hold on a little longer.”

“you did so good.”

“it’s in the woods behind our house.”

“are you kidding me?”

“i’m going!”

“i know who you are. i know what you’ve done.”

“you left him in that place to die!”

“now you’re asking for my help?”

“go to hell.”

“what is this?”

“honey, just breathe.”

“is that my house?”

“this way.”

“he’s not breathing. he’s not breathing!”

“i love you so much. i love you more than anything in the world.”

“please, please come back to me.”

“i need you to wake up now. i need you to breathe.”

“hi, sweetheart.”

“oh, this is just so overcooked.”

“the potatoes are runny.”

“hey, no more snooping.”

“we’ll have to see, won’t we?”

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stranger  things  season  two  (  2016 -  )  sentence  starters ↪  joyce  byers  edition.  alter  as  you  see  fit

“okay, so i’ll pick you up in two hours.”

“if anything happens, if you need to come home, just ask them to use their phone and call home. okay?”

“have fun.”

“oh, shit!”

“you’re gonna get me fired.”

“[name], i have to get back to work!”

“you feeling any better?”

“hey. what did we talk about, huh? you gotta stop with the ‘sorries’.”

“and listen, you know, there’s nothing to be nervous about, you know.”

“hey, i’m gonna be there the whole time. so it’s gonna be okay. okay?”

“what do we do when that happens?”

“i’m sorry, what you’re saying is it’s gonna get worse and worse and we’re just supposed to pretend it’s not happening?”

“‘trust me’? are you kidding me?”

“don’t call him that.”

“come on, honey, up and at ‘em.”

“[name], where’s [name]?”

“what are you doing?”

“let’s get this on.”

“you need some tape. hold on.”

“what’s this?”

“did you have another episode?”

“see? it’s an exact match.”

“but … why would he lie to me?”

“then what the hell is this?”

“we ran. we just ran.”

“god, i want this to be over.”

“you promise?”

“be safe!”

“it’s just every time he’s away from me, it’s like i can’t function.”

“i know it sounds silly.”

“oh, it’s just so hard to explain.”

“it’s just that this … this is not a normal family.”

“jesus. have you seen them?”

“thank you. thank you. you’re a lifesaver.”

“will you make sure he gets in okay?”

“have a nice day.”

“no! no, you didn’t.”

“he likes you, too. i can tell.”

“i’ll kill them. i swear to god, i will - i will kill them.”

“what’s going on? where’s [name]?”

“can you hear me?”

“i need you to try.”

“[name], i need you to tell me the truth.”

“but … but i can’t help you if i don’t know what’s going on. so you have to talk to me, please.”

“no more secrets, okay?”

“did … did you see this thing again on the field?”

“what … what is it?”

“what does it want?”

“well, what does that mean?”

“it’s okay, it’s okay. hey.”

“listen. look - look at me. i will never, ever let anything bad happen to you ever again.”

“whatever’s going on in you, we will fix it. i will fix it. i promise. i’m here.”

“he’s still not there?”

“did he get any of my messages from yesterday?”

“just tell him to call me the second he gets in. please.”

“hey. how are you feeling, sleepyhead? any better?”

“okay, let me see.”

“do you feel cold?”

“you know what? i’m gonna run you a nice warm bath and it’ll warm you up and hopefully get you feeling better.”

“leave it open.”

“where the hell have you been?”

“what if you didn’t have to use words?”

“i mean, it’s sort of forking and branching like lightning.”

“you know what? now is really not a good time.”

“you saw who, baby?”

“you know, i - we’re fine, we don’t need anything.”

“those are great.”

“we … we just need you to help us figure out what - where … where this is.”

“[name], no questions.”

“what’s the problem, exactly?”

“okay. can’t you figure it out?”

“but we did all that work.”

“i need you to stay here.”

“that’s why i need you to stay here! stay here!”

“give me that. give me that shovel.”

“i need you to help me get down there.”

“he’s gotta be this way.”

“oh my god. [name], are you okay? are you okay? are you okay?”

“god! hold on, sweetie! i’m right here, just hold on.”

“that thing … it did something to him.”

“no. no, he has been telling you over and over that something’s wrong, and you said it was all in his head.”

“you said, “be patient”. those were your words.”

“what, stay calm? trust you?”

“they made me sign like, a thousand documents.”

“i mean, I lost track at a certain point.”

“oh, it - it’s not crazy at all.”

“sweetie, how are you feeling? you okay?”

“that’s enough. that’s enough!”

“what the hell is taking so long?”

“let me through. let me through!”

“who? who made you do what?”

“[name], sweets, talk to me. you got to help me understand.”

“okay, [name], [name] listen. do you know who i am?”

“hold him down.”

“i’m sorry. i’m so sorry.”

“come on, [name]. come on.”

“they’re right. we have to kill it. i want to kill it.”

“he knew who i was.”

“he’s still in there.”

“it’s gonna work. it has to.”

“[name], we just wanna talk to you. we’re not gonna hurt you.”

“we wanna help you. but to do that we have to understand how to kill it.”

“[name], baby … if you’re in there, just please … please talk to us.”

“please, honey, please can you do that for me?”

“i love you so much.”

“he’s not doing well.”

“what else did you see?”

“do you think if we got you back there, that you could close it?”

“he likes it cold.”

“it’s what [name] kept saying to me.”

“we keep giving it what it wants.”

“we need to burn it out of him.”

“we’ll do it here.”

“this thing has had [name] long enough.”

“let’s kill the son of a bitch.”

“just wait!”

“can you hear me?”

“yeah, it’s just what’s happening.”

“[name] wanted me to give him some space, so … i’m giving him a few feet.”

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eddie........... he / she / they............. many thoughts

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eddie kaspbrak’s letter to himself from it: chapter 2 (2019) / planet of love, richard siken

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i   want   to   tell   him   that   they   can.   that   spiders   can   be   as   big   as   a   toddler   somewhere,   probably.   but   then   i'd   be   lying,   sort   of   and   i   don't   really   wanna   lie   to   bill.   so   i   swallow   down   the   budding   anxiety   that's   now   forming   in   the   pit   of   my   stomach   like   i've   got   food   poisoning.            ❝         yeah..   you're   right..   um-   no..   i   didn't.         ❞

i   follow   his   step,   head   turning   to   look   behind   us.   my   eyes   squint   to   see   like   i   don't   have   a   flashlight   pointing   in   front   of   me   and   could   easily   direct   it   to   where   i'm   looking.   i   blink   a   few   times   and   do   just   that.   i   catch   the   shadow   of   something   and   it   makes   me   jump   as   it   runs   across   the   wall.   that's   got   to   be   richie,   right      ?      shit.

❝         f-follow   it      ?      bill,   i'm   all   for   helping   investigate,   i   really   am,   but   i   don't   know..   this   is   making   me   feel   all   bad   inside.         ...   ...   ...   i   think   i   saw   something,   again.         ❞         i   point   in   the   direction   that   i   saw   it   go,   down   a   hall   that's   shrouded   from   any   bit   of   light   peeking   in   through   the   gaps   of   the   broken   roof.   i   don't   want   to   go   anywhere   near   that   hallway   but   i   know   for   a   fact   that   i'll   have   to.   bill   isn't   deterred   as   easy   as   i   am.   that's   what   i   like   about   bill   though,   he's   determined   and   i   wish   i   could   be   like   that.

so   i   take   a   deep   breath   from   my   inhaler   and   try   to   steele   my   nerves.   i   can   do   this.   it's   probably   just   something   stupid,   something   i   can   explain.   there's   no   way   it's   anything   as   scary   as   my   mind   keeps   thinking   up.   i'm   just   scared      !      nothing   can   hurt   me   if   bill's   around.   

walking   past   bill,   i   gesture   for   him   to   follow   me.   we're   bound   to   go   here   anyway,   i   might   as   well   try   and   be   in   charge   for   once.         ❝         i   think   it   went   into   one   of   the   rooms   here,   but   i'm   not   sure.   we   shouldn't   split   up   anymore,   though...   i   don't   think   i   can   handle   that.            ❞

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silence   hangs   thick   over   my   nodding   head.   did   i   see   something      ?      i   don’t   know.   i   mean   i   know   but   i   don’t.   it   could’ve   been   anything   really,   clowns   are   popular   all   over   for   some   god   for   saken   reason.   ma   says   clowns   are   creepy   and   i   agree.   says   i   shouldn’t   go   anywhere   near   em’   and   i   agree.   that   clown   i   saw   was   creepy   clear   as   day   and   if   we’re   all   starting   to   see   things   now   this   is   going   to   end   badly.   but   if   bill   says   he   saw   something,   and   i   might’ve   seen   something   right   now   then   it’s   probably   true.

exploring   abandoned   houses   is   not   a   pass   time   that   i   enjoy,   and   i’m   sure   that   stan   or   ben   would   agree.   this   one   isn’t   nearly   as   bad   as   neibolt   but   it’s   still   surely   weird.   i   don’t   understand   why   we’re   here   or   how   we   got   to   this   point,   though   what   i   do   know   is   that   i   said   yes   without   thinking   just   to   hang   out   with   bill.

it’s   a   common   occurence,   one   that   i   don’t   mind   as   much   as   i   let   on.   i   love   hanging   with   all   of   my   friends,   even   if   we’re   walking   right   into   the   scariest   places   known   to   man.   if   i   have   my   friends   i   think   i’m   alright.   i   hold   my   flashlight   up   and   around,   scanning   the   dust   filled   room   that   has   me   reaching   for   my   inhaler   almost   every   five   seconds   and   grimace   as   the   light   shines   on   a   spider   web.   gross.

❝         bill…   i-i’ll   be   honest,   i   don’t   know   what   you   saw,   but   i   saw   something   weird…   it   was   super   scary   so   i   didn’t   say   anything   cause   i   didn’t   wanna   scare   you   but   it   could’ve   just   been   a   huge   spider   or   something      !      like…   cause   y'know..   flashlights   and   shadows   and   we’re   the   only   ones   in   the   room   and   it   wouldn’t   make   sense   if   there   was   anything   else   here,   right      ?      we’re   all   alone   and   none   of   the   others   are   in   this   room   specifically,   i   wouldn’t   put   it   past   richie   to   pull   some   shit   though...            ❞         my   eyebrows   furrow   as   i   speak   at   rapid   fire   pace   like   always.   once   my   mouth   opens   it’s   hard   to   keep   it   closed   and   i   wonder   if   that’s   how   richie   often   feels.   i   wish   there   was   a   button   that   made   me   stop   speaking,   if   only   for   a   few   minutes.

i   move   closer   to   him,   a   bit   off   to   the   side   but   still   by   it.   i   don’t   want   to   get   left   behind,   even   though   i   know   bill   wouldn’t   ever   do   that.   i   just   find   comfort   in   not   standing   on   my   own.   this   room   gives   me   the   heebie-jeebies   and   i   can’t   stop   looking   over   my   shoulder   in   anticipation   for   whatever   lurks   within   the   shadows.   nothing   comes,   but   that   doesn’t   stop   my   heart   from   racing   a   hundred   miles   per   second   and   feeling   as   though   my   chest   will   burst   soon.   

he   has   to   remind   himself   to   breathe   ;   release   the   breath   he   didn’t   even   realise   he   was   holding   .   he   blinks   into   the   darkness   ,   telling   himself   that   he’s   not   alone   -   eddie   is   right   here   .   he   doesn’t   know   whether   to   be   relieved   that   eddie   saw   it   too   -   at   least   he’s   not   going   crazy   ,   but   then   …   what   did   they   see   ?

❝   i   d   -   don’t   think   sp   -   spiders   get   that   b  -   big   ,   e   -   eddie   .   ❞   bill   edges   forward   a   step   ,   grateful   that   the   spear   of   light   coming   from   his   torch   remains   steady   ,   though   he   feels   like   his   hands   should   be   shaking   .   but   he   has   to   be   brave   .   ❝   did   you   see   wh   -   where   it   went   ?   ❞

this   town   …   it’s   getting   weirder   by   the   day   &   it   might   terrify   him   ,   but   bill   can’t   get   it   out   of   his   head   -   he   has   to   get   to   the   bottom   of   it   .   because   although   he’d   love   to   go   with   eddie’s   explanation   of   it   just   being   richie   fucking   with   them   ,   he   knows   deep   down   that   it’s   not   the   case   .

❝   i   think   w   -   we   should   f   -   follow   it   …   ❞

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He remembers that he loved Bill Denbrough; he remembers that well enough. Bill never made fun of his asthma. Bill never called him little sissy queerboy.

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i apologize for the person i am when writing eddie replies

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silence   hangs   thick   over   my   nodding   head.   did   i   see   something      ?      i   don't   know.   i   mean   i   know   but   i   don't.   it   could've   been   anything   really,   clowns   are   popular   all   over   for   some   god   for   saken   reason.   ma   says   clowns   are   creepy   and   i   agree.   says   i   shouldn't   go   anywhere   near   em'   and   i   agree.   that   clown   i   saw   was   creepy   clear   as   day   and   if   we're   all   starting   to   see   things   now   this   is   going   to   end   badly.   but   if   bill   says   he   saw   something,   and   i   might've   seen   something   right   now   then   it's   probably   true.

exploring   abandoned   houses   is   not   a   pass   time   that   i   enjoy,   and   i'm   sure   that   stan   or   ben   would   agree.   this   one   isn't   nearly   as   bad   as   neibolt   but   it's   still   surely   weird.   i   don't   understand   why   we're   here   or   how   we   got   to   this   point,   though   what   i   do   know   is   that   i   said   yes   without   thinking   just   to   hang   out   with   bill.

it's   a   common   occurence,   one   that   i   don't   mind   as   much   as   i   let   on.   i   love   hanging   with   all   of   my   friends,   even   if   we're   walking   right   into   the   scariest   places   known   to   man.   if   i   have   my   friends   i   think   i'm   alright.   i   hold   my   flashlight   up   and   around,   scanning   the   dust   filled   room   that   has   me   reaching   for   my   inhaler   almost   every   five   seconds   and   grimace   as   the   light   shines   on   a   spider   web.   gross.

❝         bill...   i-i'll   be   honest,   i   don't   know   what   you   saw,   but   i   saw   something   weird...   it   was   super   scary   so   i   didn't   say   anything   cause   i   didn't   wanna   scare   you   but   it   could've   just   been   a   huge   spider   or   something      !      like...   cause   y'know..   flashlights   and   shadows   and   we're   the   only   ones   in   the   room   and   it   wouldn't   make   sense   if   there   was   anything   else   here,   right      ?      we're   all   alone   and   none   of   the   others   are   in   this   room   specifically,   i   wouldn't   put   it   past   richie   to   pull   some   shit   though...            ❞         my   eyebrows   furrow   as   i   speak   at   rapid   fire   pace   like   always.   once   my   mouth   opens   it's   hard   to   keep   it   closed   and   i   wonder   if   that's   how   richie   often   feels.   i   wish   there   was   a   button   that   made   me   stop   speaking,   if   only   for   a   few   minutes.

i   move   closer   to   him,   a   bit   off   to   the   side   but   still   by   it.   i   don't   want   to   get   left   behind,   even   though   i   know   bill   wouldn't   ever   do   that.   i   just   find   comfort   in   not   standing   on   my   own.   this   room   gives   me   the   heebie-jeebies   and   i   can't   stop   looking   over   my   shoulder   in   anticipation   for   whatever   lurks   within   the   shadows.   nothing   comes,   but   that   doesn't   stop   my   heart   from   racing   a   hundred   miles   per   second   and   feeling   as   though   my   chest   will   burst   soon.   

❝   d   -   did   you   see   th   -   that   ?   ❞

a   starter   for   @de4die​   !

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should i write in first person or second person........ kind of wanna try first....

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eddie is the mom friend, yes, but he’s also the grandma friend. he has to check on everyone and make sure they’re okay, he instantly knows when somethings wrong / there’s someone upset or hurt. he’s cautious until it comes to his loved ones. if someone messes with them he throws caution to the wind, which is something we see as the series progresses. and yes he’ll complain about it after but he’d never change a thing if it meant keeping his loved ones safe.