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19 June 2022 will go down as one of the most happiest days I've ever had in a real long time so what happened was , a day prior to that 18th June one of my friends Vishal called me up to come and meet as our friends were meeting and just talk and have fun so what happened i asked my mom can I go she's like how you gonna go I'm like the scooter that is there she's like No i don't blame her as she was scared like it's 7 pm how you gonna go she's like ask your dad if he lets you can go what happened after that i called up my dad thrice he didn't pick then i thought fuck it I can't go so i called up Vishal and told i can't come then 5-6 mins later my dad calls back i tell him my friends are meeting etc etc he tells go I'm like i can but i don't think my friends will be there after that as i was desperate to meet my friends I'm like let's see so i call up Vishal he tells they're still there and I'm like I'm coming so i tell my mom , dad allowed and i went to meet them .

So i reach the place and we meet talk and over there makka one of my friend tells he's staying over at ritesh's place then ritesh tells me also to stay then I'm like why not so i call up my parents they allowed , then even aman (my friend) also tells he gonna join so it was all sorted like a boys night and we're gonna have fun we go to ritesh's place and as it was dinner time as usually we'd order or go out to eat I'm opposite of that as i love home made food and he knew that so he told his mom who also knows that so she gave me dal ( the best ) and rice the best and classic meal possible which was just to tasty then the rest of them we went out to Domino's to have pizza after that to spend the rest of the night ( ofc we weren't gonna sleep) we prank called people, played Uno , chatted laughed then we had a plan to go to a hills at morning 4:30-5 so ritesh called up one of our friends Sandeep as he knew to drive a car and he was also game for that so cut to 4:30-4:40 Sandeep is down waiting for us and our boi ritesh and makka were asleep so me and aman wake these two up and hurry so cut to we going to the hills we reach and bro it's Bangalore ofc the weather is awasome but the morning make you feel like you're in some hill station so it's chilly and cloudy but the view man it was just priceless so we waited for the sunrise and trust me it was the best and after that the sky was just beautiful so clear and just blissful and it made me so happy seeing it just something inside my heart i felt so happy then we took some pictures so while we're climbing down the hill we see like few people came with their dogs and man I'm a dog person i instantly melted and sat with the dogs and just couldn't stop petting them one of the dogs kissed me my heart just had a blast of happyness i wanted to cry but the moment was too happy to cry so just spent some time there and one the way back we had our own jamming session in the car we sang senorita from the movie zindagi ma milegi dobara ( a damnn feel good movie and a masterpiece) and then we have breakfast in a local hotel that's where you get the best food trust me we ordered idlis and kal soup ( the best soup ever to exist ) and just a happy day so after that we all go home .

As i was awake the whole night once i reached home i was just out and slept the whole day and it was the best sleep as i was happy and like i was just happy man can't really explain

I tried my best to sum up the experience i had and would tell you guys whoever is reading just find these moments man and store it and be happy and live it while you are there and for sometime just see how happy life can get and cherish it we don't get moments like these so easily so whenever you get these moments live them the feeling is just priceless

Some moments from today morning

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Sometimes i so badly wanna shout fuck offff but all that just happens in my head but i really wanna just shout fuck off and shut the voices and everyone for one moment so that i can breathe and just stay calm and have a moment of peace but it's not that easy because in today's time instead of saying fuck off we are just worried about who gives a fuck about us and what would others think about us ain't it ? Over here I can only speak for myself because i am one of those who really bloody cares about what others think about me and also I'm a people pleaser in simple terms a YES MAN .

Many have told learn to say NO , don't give a fuck about others , keep yourself first etc etc but i don't know how to man i really don't maybe it'll take time for me to figure it out i just hope i do or I'm in deep shit 😂

Right now I am just having so many thoughts but i guess it's enough for today

I am really new to do this blogs to be really honest I'm just treating it as a place for all my outbursts

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I really don't know what to even write just going through a mixed emotions and really don't feel like doing nothing thought of watching a movie or anime but just didn't feel like so now I'm just listening to music and just letting it be but some things just keep bugging me i don't know what these things are but i just wanna figure the fuck out but it ain't that easy is it ?

I just want to follow something that i care about but then again a voice in my mind says 'do you really care about it ? ' ughhhh i don't know man i really don't.

I felt just letting out what i feel will just give me a relief but even after that what if i am not able to figure out what i want to , I'm a big time overthinker so these voices keep coming but sometimes I'm like these voices are right then I'm like i should do what i feel right that's what we are supposed to do right ?

But we humans aren't that simple is it , i know what I'm writing is nothing new everyone faces it in day to day life or sometimes even worse but how do we figure out what we wanna do man like how !

Until next time ......