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If everything is going alright, there must be something fishy in the plan or life.

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#love #Feelings #Sex

I don’t know how much i love you but i don’t feel living my life without you. Love u

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Daily Diary

Day 1

Madhapur, Hyderabad. 17/05/2022 Tuesday

In the morning i started the day with a cup of tea, i should have taken a breakfast after tea, but i knew i will get late for office if anything above tea i do. I was at relatives house and the office will tale 1 hr to reach before that i wanted to visit my brother friend to check 1 BHK flat to rent out for few days atleast.

I saw the 1BHK flat but was not immediately available so i started looking at other rental boards around.

He supported me to adjust in another room for 15 days later he can shift me into his room.

I also looked at another 1 bhk with terrace house at highest floor of the bunglow but it was too hot to survive and stay there with family it wasn’t suitable.

I went to office i planned to go office direct as i was already 1 hr late and i purchased new tshirt and went to office after changing the tshirt.

I would have taken a bath at relative place and saved 1500 buck for tshirt i have spent for a day. I have an option of returning it in 20 days before and i can return back tomorrow but i would not ever do that cz i hate doing cheap things not my character.

I went to office hungry so i fired up my laptop and few seconds i went to cafeteria and had boost. Came back and my architect called me to check my knowledge if i got prepared for tomorrow’s interview with diabold client.

He definetly didn’t ask wht i have studied since last week he wanted me to show his talent so he went deep inside jvm and started with tricky questions and i lost the field almost answered some.

Today he tell me to prepare on fundamentals a week before he asked me to study all latest high end technologies. This how people play around with less experience people.

I tried to get Ameerpet java but i did not get what i wanted to learn so no preparation happened and landed with reference book reading and studied some stuff but i was diverted in office so was waiting one of the hr to wave and talk some. I asked her if she drinks i knew she does and she said the truth she blushed and said lets talk at tea time and went off from pantry, i have crush on her.

I tried meeting her for tea break but she was busy i tried 2-3 time though. We have some vibes matching.

I waited for her and then decided to check my arrangement for flats to rent cz i have to vacate the hotel provided by office today. I went to check the housr which provide all facilities and i booked it partially right now and will check in tomorrow.

i went to gym and did v good exercise initially it was to hard to get the foot up, i was thinking i will walk for few minutes and go back, but one girl came to do workout and all of a sudden i started with active workout. I am so bad at thi so weak on girls. God Save me from girls.

I forgot my gf was about to call me i came out of bathroom and there was 6 miss call already with other friends and wife. My gf about to board the bus toward Hyderabad to me and i have to guide her. She gave me enough bad words and i have to listen up she was drunk and high on marijuana.

She finally board the bus i took a bath in hotel and have to pick her up in the morning by 7 am the joy starts tomorrow.

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I wish to enjoy on my credit, but in actual banks enjoy it.

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I wish i can say everything to my family, i wish i can b truthful to my family but I can’t. I wish they should know and take the decision to know me or leave me as i m. I am just waiting for my throw back. I wish i could handle it with care and peace, i know it will be wonder to me and i will be torn out in future someday i know it will follow me and take revenge before i die. Still i want to enjoy today it may be temporary however a happiness for today.

I am just worried about my family that they would be facing cz of my mischief i wish i cud do something to heal it.

I know i m not god but i wish i could talk to god and say its only me not them. Don’t hurt them its me so only hurt me.