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will they start loving me if i get really sick ?

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Trigger warning:

The morning after I killed myself, I woke up.

I made myself breakfast in bed.

I added salt and pepper to my eggs and used my toast for a cheese and bacon sandwich.

I squeezed a grapefruit into a juice glass.

I scraped the ashes from the frying pan and rinsed the butter off the counter.

I washed the dishes and folded the towels.

The morning after I killed myself, I fell in love.

Not with the boy down the street or the middle school principal.

Not with the everyday jogger or the grocer who always left the avocados out of the bag.

I fell in love with my mother and the way she sat on the floor of my room holding each rock from my collection in her palms until they grew dark with sweat.

I fell in love with my father down at the river as he placed my note into a bottle and sent it into the current.

With my brother who once believed in unicorns but who now sat in his desk at school trying desperately to believe I still existed.

The morning after I killed myself, I walked the dog.

I watched the way her tail twitched when a bird flew by or how her pace quickened at the sight of a cat.

I saw the empty space in her eyes when she reached a stick and turned around to greet me so we could play catch but saw nothing but sky in my place.

I stood by as strangers stroked her muzzle and she wilted beneath their touch like she did once for mine.

The morning after I killed myself, I went back to the neighbors’ yard where I left my footprints in concrete as a two year old and examined how they were already fading.

I picked a few daylilies and pulled a few weeds and watched the elderly woman through her window as she read the paper with the news of my death.

I saw her husband spit tobacco into the kitchen sink and bring her her daily medication.

The morning after I killed myself, I watched the sun come up. Each orange tree opened like a hand and the kid down the street pointed out a single red cloud to his mother.

The morning after I killed myself, I went back to that body in the morgue and tried to talk some sense into her.

I told her about the avocados and the stepping stones, the river and her parents.

I told her about the sunsets and the dog and the beach.

The morning after I killed myself, I tried to unkill myself, but couldn’t finish what I started.

-Meggie Royer

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Raw Nerves, Blunt Edges

Why do we say "unalived" when it’s suicide, Or twist "rape" into "grape," like we’re scared of the truth? Are we that afraid to confront the horror, That we smother it in euphemisms, Wrapping it in soft lies to avoid the bite?

Frat boy Chad didn’t "grape" Amber, He fucking raped her, Because his sick, twisted ego told him That if he got her drunk enough, Her no would dissolve into silence. He’d walk away, shrugging off the guilt, Blaming her for the drink she didn’t even want, Like it was her fault his hands were on her.

Maddison didn’t just "unalive" herself, She fucking killed herself, Not for your attention, But because when she screamed for help, You called it whining, Dismissed her pain as pathetic. Now she’s a cold body, hanging in the dark, And you’re left wondering why she didn’t scream louder.

We’re so fucking out of touch, Dumbing down the truth to avoid the sting, But maybe we need to feel that sharp edge, Because these horrors are constant, And the truth, no matter how raw, Should be screamed, not whispered, Should burn, not comfort.

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REBLOG THIS. SPREAD AWARENESS.

Hey, so joking about suicide is probably the farthest from funny.

There shouldn't even need to be an explanation as to why this isn't funny. Fucking disgusting.

Please get a grip and realize that the things you say on the internet affect people the same, if not more than in real life.

If you think this shit is funny, get a therapist. You're the problem.

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Ilia continues to jump with steel fucking ankles

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I AM BEGGING SOMEONE TO WRITE Y/N X ILIA MALININ I'M GONG CRAZYYY

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Being a girl is: wanting to go to bed early but deciding to just get on tumblr/wattpad/Ao3 for a little bit and then end up finding a fic series that you really like and read until well past your usual bedtime then keeping on because it’s already past your bedtime. Then being mad when you wake up in the morning because you overslept your timer.

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Realest thing I've seen all year

family: “why are you just sitting in ur room smiling at ur phone?”

me who’s been reading smut about fictional characters for the past 6 hours:

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Information.

A new one beacuse I didn't like my old one.

Name: Cassie Smith.

Age: over 18+

Interests: I like horror games, drawing and hiking.

Something you should know about me:

I'm Christian so I feel uncomfortable making something along the words "sin" "sinful" "devil's child" like that.

Also I'm dyslexic so exuse my poor spelling

My fandoms/stuff I write for:

Creepypasta.

Cry of fear.

Demon slayer.

Resident evil.

Saiki k.

Sally face.

Scream.

Southpark.

This is just fandoms that I'm in, I know alot of other fandoms so if you have something in mind you can just request!

Stuff I write:

Smut

Fluff

Horror

Stuff I Don't write.

Gr@pe

Polly/poly relationship (idk which one is right)

Male x Male reader & Female x Female reader, I have trouble writing for those.

Let's do another poll beacuse.. I got more fandoms now.

Please request stuff

Fav song:

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I know I need to stop making these excuses but this time I'm going thru a break up yippee ( I've never cried this much, I miss him already, and it was my idea to cut contact, this bitch really gave me his number and said "if you change your mind" as a last goodbye beacuse he knows I'm gonna message him sooner or later except this time I'm trying to move on but it's impossible wtf do I do)

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Ok so imma post the story really soon. I'm sorry for my inactivity, I've been so busy w my volleyboll n stuff. Would post today but I have a RAGEING headache.

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Ok, so I thought I was gonna write smth... but idk what y'all want so. Voting time!

I write smut, fluff n like other shit y'all want.

Ok bye pookiez!💋

(Edit here) erm so guys I kinda have a thought for saikik too so just, like or comment if you'd like that to. Thank you lovely's

(Fav song rn)

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H E A R T.

Information:

Nina x Jeff reader🤍

Smut!!1!1

Minors please do not interact 💙

Their age is 28-30🤍

Rough unprotected sex.

Think that's all.

Please request if you have any ideas in mind🤍 all requests are accepted.

With a stable life for both Nina and Jeff, being married and having two kids.

Jeff looked great as always, having a pretty great body form, and Nina being slight thick after being pregnant two times, and kids being around 2-3 years old they sure are energetic.

But after a long day shopping on the weekend, they were so tired that they even fell asleep in the car.

As Nina brought the groceries inside and Jeff taking the kids to bed.

Jeff came downstairs quite quick again, with a successful mission not waking them up while carrying them.

Nina got all the groceries organised.

- I'm not gonna lie I'm also quite tired, Nina said.

- I'm going upstairs to change.

- Alright, a short response came from Jeff.

Around 30 minutes pass by, Jeff is now just watching TV, quite bored. Maybe a bit horny

He felt hands laying on him from behind. He looked back, knowing it was Nina already, but, he just wanted to see what she wanted right?

She stood now infront of him in a red lingerie.

- Oh you're one nasty. It's almost like you could hear jeff excitement in him.

- I know. She went over to him and dragged him to thier bedroom and sat on their bed waiting for him to do something.

He quickly took of his pants and shirt and tossed it on the ground and pushed her down so she qas now laying down on the bed and got above her, roughly kissing her, cupping her face, as she did the same.

He slowly started to reach for her panties and pulling them down, he was getting needy. But could you blame him? She was laying there so innocent with a beatiful red lingerie.

He pulled away from her and stod up, he started taking of his own boxer's, it was now so obvious how he had grown a boner. She almost got wet watching how his cock sprung out.

- I'm gonna cum in you, and you're not going to complain, okay?

- yessir. A short response, she just wanted to start already.

- I hope so, you fucking whore.

He lifted her up a bit, and did not hesitate to start rough.

She moaned at his entrance, but it's not like it wasn't anything new ;)

-nghh, go harder you old man! She teased him, hoping it made him get som sort of hint

-shut up, you're so needy for me aren't you? You couldn't live a day without me, pathetic.

Wet sounds, heat, moans and grunts started to fill the room.

- Fuckkk, Jeff I'm gonna cum, Nghh.

- Well I aren't, and we aren't stopping until I do, understand?

She could only fastly nod at his words. She was so close, and ah, the pleasure.

-Fuckk...

-Oh you're so tight.. I'm close. Jeff grunted out.

- Pleasee, cum in me, I do it for your pleasure.

-ofcourse you do..

They both finished off and Jeff flopped beside her.

- I love you.

- I love you too sweetheart. Jeff said and kissed her on the forehead.

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SO SORRY THAT IT'S SO SHORT😭🤍

I hope you guys like this!

Please don't be afraid to request if you have any ideas💙

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Craig tucker x reader

Minors please do. Not. Interact.

Warnings: smut.

Lonely To Lovely.

You had been dating Craig for quite a while now, 5 months to be exact.

He was cold, even though you were his girlfriend, he flipped you off whenever you tried to talk to him, or even touch him at that point, he would barely even talk to you. It's seems almost pointless even being his if he's giving you the same vibes as everyone else, no, he's even colder towards you than he is to others.

You had to end it, but how did you guys even get together if he's being like this?

Surely your relationship can't always been like this?

and you're right, it hasn't always been like this, in the beginning he'd give you small gifts here and there, maybe even hold ur hand if he was in a good mood.

But back to the present.

You went to his house, I mean, you didn't wanna end it here. You loved him, but it most have been for the best, it was so obvious he didn't love or even like you at this point.

You knocked one time, he was home alone, no car.

He opened.

- what? He said with that specific voice.

- can we talk, just really quick? Hands started to shake.

- uhm, sure but my parents aren't home.

He let you in and locked the door after him.

- as you said, let's make this quick. I got stan coming over soon.

There was an awkward silence for a moment.

-I wanna break up. You said it quite quick as you wanted to just sprint out of there.

-... Sorry?

- you know what I mean.

- why? What's wrong. Are you ill? You always come running after me.

Yeah, it's not so funny when you realize you're the problem here, you thought to yourself.

- I feel like, you don't love me anymore, you always flip me off, you never talk to me nor do you let me touch you.

- . . . Fair enough. But i can change, I promise.

- I feel like I've given you enoug-

Someone knocked on the door, you both looked at the door that back at each other, it's stan.

-we'll just end it here craig.

-no wait! I still love you, please.

You opened the door and greeted stan and tried to get out of there but stan stopped you.

-hey wait! You can still be around, right craig? I didn't mean to interrupt.

You looked back and Craig gave you some kind off- I don't want him to know- look.

-oh yeah that's fine, come on y/n.

You messily went back inside and took of your shoes this time, knowing that you'll be here for a while this time.

-what were you guys doing anyways. Stan asked tryna swallow any kind of awkward silence.

-oh just talking. You said, maybe a little to fast.

- alright, let's watch a movie or sum. Stan said obviously being bored while you and Craig starred at each other.

Hours pass by, watching what felt like every single Disney movie to exist.

- Imma head to the bathroom real quick, you told them.

- Oh actually I'll go with you, I also need to use the restroom. Craig knew what he was doing.

You went with Craig after you, and stan passed out drunk on the sofa.

-alright let's talk this out, please. Craig said after he had followed you in and locked the door after you guys.

-what is there to talk about? You started getting werid feelings in your stomach, feeling like he's gonna do something but you're gonna love it.

He started to get closer, you wanted to yell at him, but something in you said stay still.

- I can give you more affection, why didn't you talk to me sooner?

He gave in and hugged you, only for a short time.

And that's when it clicked, maybe you were so needy for his touch you didn't notice anything else he does for you. Oh how blind you were.

You cupped his face and kissed him. He kissed back. Soft moans and grunts left ur mouths. His hands going from ur neck down to your waist down to your hips. While one of ur hands rested on his shoulders and other one up his shirt.

You took a breather and you felt his cold hand lingering up ur own shirt to your bra. He lifted one side and feeling your boob, you almost shivered at his touch. So cold but so hot at the same time? You pulled him in for another kiss, letting his hand roam around your body. He pulled you away and helped you get your shirt off and then your bra, he took of his shirt and started kissing your neck this time.

- A-ah! Craig~! You moaned out his name

He started to roam around ur body until he was standing on his knees looking up at you.

You wearing quite a short skirt with only panties under.

He got up again and pinned you against the wall. Holding you with one hand and other one under your skirt.

He didn't wanna take your skirt of, you looked to cute in it. He just took your panties and started to rub your clit.

Moans started to leave you out of the pleasure he was giving you. He quickly covered your mouth, you never know when stan decides to wake up from hell or heaven.

He dosen't hesitate to put two fingers in you, you gasped at the sudden movement.

- Craig, oh please. Mumbles left your mouth in pleasure.

You wanted him now, you needed him.

- pleasee, fuck mee.

-I know, I know. He kissed your forehead and stroked your hair.

He stopped to take of his jeans and boxer's.

- won't you be a good girl and get on your knees, hm?

You didn't hesitate, you immediately started to stroke his dick and then suck him off.

Small grunts left his mouth.

-hey no hands. He said and you removed them, wanting to give some pleasure too.

He grabbed your hair messily and pushed him into you, you gagged a little at it but rather got used fast.

His head went back in pleasure.

-you're so fucking good darling. Oh you're so beautiful. He praised you time to time. He really was enjoying this.

Eventually he cummed in your mouth, and you swallowed it all, even tho you must say, it does not taste good.