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Drama per sapihan dimulai. It’s gonna be a hard times for you baby, you haven’t finished your “school” yet but then you have to be “sapih” semangat ya anak soleha berjuang bareng2 yuk ❤️

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The therapy is once a week. This is week 3. Hope it’ll done soon and everything ok. Mama papa love you velin ❤️

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First I have to bring my daughter to medic rehabilitation, then we met a doctor that seen like there’s something wrong with my daughter while I see everything is good. Then we met a therapist that making me feels like a very bad parent. But then I know that’s my fault. I blame my self everyday. Next we have to meet a occupation therapist. Hope everything’s gonna be ok, Ve. we can do it together 🤗

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Feels like I’m a very bad mother. Another one said “it’s okay you just newbie” but I see another newbie mom doing it good not like me

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‪Now I realize how strong a mother must be. I wish I could be as strong as that. Stronger maybe‬. Bismillah kuatkan ya Allah kun fayakun

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(Abis sakit belum sembuh bener) pulang dari supermarket, liat rumah berantakan, makin pusing liatnya. Laundry bag penuh sama baju baby. Terus bilang “duh mau beres beres tapi pusing” habis istirahat bentar, suami ambil sapu lalu beres-beres. Langsung lah berkurang pusing ini, semangat 45 beresin semuanya. Cinta bgt sama suami gangerti lagi 🥺

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Berdamai dengan Dirisendiri

Sebagai seorang ibu muda, banyak sekali problem dalam penyesuaian waktu dan kebiasaan. Tentunya banyak juga yang harus dikorbankan. It’s not easy. Berbagai aspek yang harus menjadi prioritas dan menuntut keputusan yang cukup menyita pikiran. Untuk memenuhi kebutuhan diri sendiri pun aku lupa. Ini bukan suatu keluhan ya, I just learn new thing and I think I have to share it.

Aku yang egois nya masih besar, manja, tingkat kedewasaannya rendah sangat rentan stres apabila sudah di hadapkan dengan suatu kerumitan especially masalah rumah dan anak. Karena terobsesi untuk menjadi wonder mom seperti tetangga dan beberapa figur yang aku pikir “dia aja bisa kenapa aku engga?”, aku memutuskan untuk mengurus rumah sendiri tanpa bantuan ART. Awalnya berjalan dengan cukup berat karena waktu istirahat ku dipakai untuk beres-beres dan menyiapkan semua keperluan dirumah. Tapi aku percaya jika aku tetap berdoa pada Allah untuk dimampukan, insyaallah Allah akan mampukan aku. Lalu semua berjalan dengan lancar, anggaran untuk membayar ART aku alokasi kan untuk dana liburan, jadi membuat ku semakin bersemangat untuk bekerja tanpa ART.

Saat Semangat ini butuh di charge, Alhamdulillah suami selalu mengajak liburan. BeSaat perjalanan pulang sehabis staycation beberapa hari di luar kota, rasanya aku dalam perjalanan menuju stres ku kembali. finally I know what made me stress. Suami pernah bilang kalo aku harus bisa berdamai dengan diriku sendiri. Aku stres karena aku belum bisa berdamai dengan diri aku sendiri. Alhamdulillah tidak usah pergi ke psikolog, berbagai permasalahan hati dan pikiran selesai bersama suami. Makasih sayang. Tak ingin menyiksa diri, setelah discuss dengan suami akhirnya aku memutuskan untuk meminta bantuan ART lagi, bismillah.

Sebenarnya jika aku masih mau menguatkan diri insyaallah bisa mengerjakan semua sendiri. Tapi karena aku tidak ingin anak dan suami terdampak stres yang aku alami, aku memutuskan untuk meminta bantuan ART lagi. Apalagi untuk anak, aku tidak ingin merusak golden age nya. Aku tipikal orang yang mudah stres, jika ada suatu hal yang mengganjal pasti kepikiran. Maka mungkin proses penguatan diri ini akan sangat sulit bagi ku. Alhamdulillah suami sabar dan pengertian selalu memberikan yang terbaik dan membuat ku nyaman. Mungkin akan beda ceritanya dengan orang yang lebih kuat dari aku, yang tidak mudah stres. Mereka akan berproses dengan baik untuk lebih kuat lagi. Well, semua orang punya titik lemah nya masing-masing yang tidak bisa di sama rata kan. The key is we have to know when we need help and when we can survive. Jangan lupa untuk menyangkut paut kan segala urusan mu pada Tuhan senantiasa semua akan lebih mudah dijalani. Aamiin

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Velin, maaf aku belum cukup baik utk menjadi seorang ibu mungkin untuk mendapat panggilan ibu saja aku belum pantas. terima kasih sudah bersabar, terima kasih sudah membawa kebahagiaan di keluarga kecil kita, terima kasih sudah mengajarkan banyak hal dan mendewasakan ku, semoga kamu kelak jadi jauh lebih baik dari orang tuamu dan selalu mencintai keluarga mu yaa, semoga kita dapat berkumpul kembali di surga Nya nanti aamiin

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Salah satu nikmat Allah itu hati yang tentram, masha Allah semoga kita semua selalu diberikan ketenangan hati aamiin ya rabb

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Sometimes I see someone and I wonder “how lucky she is with her life, and all what she have. Oh I do wanna like her maybe my life gonna be fun” but I forget there were many people not as lucky as me and wondering the same. Dasar aku manusia, jangan lupa bersyukur sih napa nanti Allah ambil dikit kenikmatannya baru inget bersyukur dan nyesel 😌

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Hello again tumblr. Udah lama ga nulis. Kayak nya tulisan ku sekarang all about mariage and parenthood, semoga berfaedah bagi yang membaca 🙏🏻

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Bukan kah Allah telah berjanji untuk memberikan cobaan sesuai dengan kemampuan umatNya? Just face it and pray. Allah maha membolak balik kan hati manusia. Percaya setiap sakit yang kamu rasakan pasti ada balasannya. Begitu pun setiap kebaikan yang kamu lakukan.

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Welcome back tumblr!

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Alhamdulillah, Bismillah. Allah please guide me to perfecting my religion. Thankyou to always help me and give this all happiness ❤

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I'm feel what I've never felt before. It's love but makes me remember Allah always. Not as usual, this love reassures me.

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Married

Married isn't just about life together ever after. As a woman before I choose someone to accompany my life, I think I have to consider several things. First, round off intent that married is just because of Allah. If it done insyaallah there's answer in every doubt and possibility I'll married faster by taaruf or matchmaking by my parents. But I can't do it yet and I hope Allah give me help to clean this dirty heart 😢 . Second, I really wanna a good man as good as my dad. He's a man that really know his responsibility to make his family be a good moslem and bring his family to heaven. Third, I hope I have husban who really appreciate woman as my old brother did. "Gapapa kamu gabisa masak yang penting aku seneng hidup sama kamu, yang penting kamu mau nurut sama aku jadi istri soleha yang gak menyebabkan suami nya terjerumus ke neraka. Gapapa si bibi aja yang masak kamu ngurus anak aja masa si bibi yang urus anak kan kamu kuliah tinggi-tinggi buat ngedidik anak kita bukan buat kerja toh yang berkewajiban cari nafkah kan aku. Kamu dandan yang cantik ya gapapa make up dan body care mahal yang penting kamu seneng dan merawat badan kamu buat aku. Badan kamu berubah setelah melahirkan? No matter babe, itu kan pengorbanan kamu sebagai seorang ibu and I'm appreciate it so much. No one more beautiful than you. I won't never turn away from you, babe." Masha Allah that beautiful quotes that I always hope I can hear from my husban later. Then, as a wife I have to obidient to my husband. Cause heaven of a wife is in her husband. Beside that I still have Mom as the only parent that I have after dad passed away. I mean I wanna be obidient to my husband but I still wanna devoted to my mom. I need a man who not only loves me but also my family too. Got it? . The last is a man who will life happily ever after with me and our children till the death separates us and we meet again in heaven.

In conclusion, everyone has their own criteria to choose someone who will accompany in the rest of life. That's all above is my criterias but if we intend cause of Allah, everything won't as complicated as above 😂. And the important thing is akhlak. Look someone based on their akhlak although my akhlak isn't good yet, but I hope I'll find a man with that beautiful akhlak who will guide me to have beautiful akhlak too as a devout moslem and her wife. But, no matter our criterias if Allah says "he is your mate" it will be.

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Kayak Ibu-ibu

When I decided to wear hijab syar'i, there are much comment from peoples around. Majority peoples give positive comments and support me. But I found some negative comment too. The minority peoples told me that I'm looked older than my age "kaya ibu-ibu", "keliatan lebih tua", etc. But when I hear that, I'm not mad. I just smile, maybe little poty on them. Why? I think they're who said that aren't explore the world yet. Hi dude, there're much peoples wear syar'i outside there! Come on explore and look around!

It's true. When you come in to big Mall, which there are so many peoples from another city or country, you'll found almost 50% of them are wear hijab syar'i. Not only adult woman but also teenagers. My friends and I were thinking the teenangers doesn't looked older even they wear very long veil (longer than my veil) but they looked so beautiful and graceful. Alhamdulillah with various beautiful design, although most of it are expensive, womans be more interesting to wear hijab syar'i to close aurat as Allah ask. It's a duty for woman. So, please don't say they're looked older as "Kayak Ibu-ibu" when you look a woman who wear hijab syar'i. Support them. Support us. We don't need flattery, we just want you to open your mind. We just trying to complete our duty on Allah, we just trying to be a good moslem. Explore your world, before you say we looked "Kayak Ibu-ibu", please evaluate your self if you need to refresh your mindset and update your world. Don't be old-school when you say we looked old-er "Kayak Ibu-ibu" cause we're trying to be a good moslem.