kaisbadfeelings

[kaisbadfeelings]

p sure im ovulating cus im so fuckin horny

i can usually tell if pne sec im rutting a pillow and ttw next im crying

i miss being in a relationship for moments like this

[kaisbadfeelings]

and ugh im just so nervous abt living with my parents again... specifically bc i dont think ill have any way of like meeting ppl??? so thats fhdjfh sucky

[kaisbadfeelings]

idk how to feel bc i like my own space and could probably never see myself spending all my life around someone else but... idk maybe i could. if they were right for me.

i keep having dreams about getting fucked and its like broooncmon now i gotta go about the rest of my dayyyyy... itd b nice to just have someone to get nasty with... i miss kissing especially, its like my favorite thing ever its always so soft and warm... unless they have bad breath but still

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fuck ive been sooo horny lately i have no idea why

god i wish i had a fwb 😫😫😫💔💔💔💔 i jsut wanna make out and cuddle with someone sometimes and then just live my life

idk im moving soon but then ill also have like no way to meet ppl... hoping these dating apps come in clutch 🙏

[kaisbadfeelings]

um getting my circle on the full moon as pluto enters aquarius ???

crazy

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i just wanna be alone forever. i dont want the semester to end. i dont want to get older. i had so much hope this fall, but now its withered and died inside of me, and i carry its rotting corpse wherever I go.

i havent even rlly eaten. fuck i forgot my laundry

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god i fucking hate being alive. i hate having to worry about money all of the god damn time. maybe I need a second job. maybe i should just die.

but i dont want to go without my cats. i wouldnt want to leave them alone.

what the hell am i gunna do if i move back home when i graduate. i wouldnt be able to escape. id always be around them. theyd always have a hold over me.

i wish i could just find a job and move out, but god it is unliveable out here. i stress abt going to the grocery store. i never buy all the food I want. god knows id never get the chance to eat it anyeays.

im 105 lbs, and everytime my mom or dad ask

why is everything in my life going wrong right now. why can i never have peace. genuinely the world is a fucked up place and I hate living in it. My cats are the only things i gaf about at this point. im tired. i dont dream of labor. i dont want to work for the rest of my life.

its hard enough as is having to deal with all of this. and then they call me up about money. im not the one who had 4 kids ok, u could have stopped at 2.

genuinely whats the fuckin point of trying anymore. im just done. im done im done im done. but i have to keep going. i stg if i get my period after this.... i feel horrible. i feel awful.

im trying as hard as i can... what more do she want from me. i get it money is tight... and i feel awful enough as is.

[kaisbadfeelings]

the dating pool where i am rn is actual dogshit tho

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i think i just miss like having the comfort that comes with a relationship,,,, cause when im actually in them i tend to miss havjng like time and space to myself

i think its jus weird cause its been almost a year since my last relationship ended which is crazy 2 think abt

[kaisbadfeelings]

ughhh bro i go out of my way to find shit that will make me upset

i just want a bf :((( but im moving so soon it would b difficult.... seeing my hs ex and shit they r still like exactly my type

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had a dream i was like kissing this guy, i was just like super attached to him for some reason. it was nice, weirdly enough. but then i woke up and was like damn 💔 i dont have a boyfriend rn thats so evil

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cause i can sit here n jerk the gerkin but wheres the fun in that? jus me scrolling fucjin twitter in my bed. but being able 2 actually get off cause of someone else aould b epic i think

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not that the sex ive had in the past was all that gr8 like these bitches cannot make me cum !!! i always have to either fake it to get them 2 stop or just do it myself :/ i wanna cum with anyother person 4 once like fr

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at the point in the being single game again where i miss being loved and having sex smh my head

im not the kinda person 2 rlly do hookups tho,,, i just want the comfort that comes with a relationship i thknk. but godddd i wanna have someone coddle me n be nice to me and kiss me... being on a college campus ud think it would b easier but i fhdjdhdj am awkward

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i miss my cats, i miss being by myself, i miss not having to interract with my peice of shit brother. am i going to be busy this semester? yes. but itll b a hell of a lot better than the shit i go thru here :)

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i only really get sad or cry around my family. GEE WONDER WHY !!!! i was so much happier alone

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it just hurts idk :/// im held to such a higher standard and i always will be, and its not fair. its not fair its not fair its.not fair its not fair !!!! i never asked to be born !!! i never asked to be here.