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I seriously can’t handle my feelings rn. Every now and then i think of my ex and my stomach starts turning. And i also have nothing to really do… I mean, there’s a lot of things I could do, but nothing satisfies the void within. I have no idea what to do. Sometimes i think that smoking 🍃 would make me feel better, but i dont think it will. I havent been genuinely depressed in years, i dont know what im supposed to do. I want it to go away.

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Been isolating myself to see how long it takes for someone to reach out (I'm crazy ik) and I'm realizing this makes fasting a whole lot easier

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i love how everyone in my life knows about my issues with food but nobody does something about them <3

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I just read through old texts with my partner and fuck that shit hurt

They used to be so much more attentive and loving and sweet. Random texts out of the blue, sweet messages, support, checking in on me. I don’t know if it’s because there’s truly less love or if we’ve just gotten comfortable. We’ve been together for YEARS and it feels like we’re barely more than friends sometimes.

Maybe I’m just tired, it’s 5:30a and I haven’t slept. But I don’t know, reading those messages did some emotional damage. We will never be the people we were back then. I want to go back. I want to feel loved and wanted again.

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We are so back babes I’m broke, having relationship issues, depressed and ready to face the world with only 200 cal in my system over the last 24 hours let’s go

(I am struggling immensely)

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Day two of my social experiment, seeing if any of my friends (or anyone at all lol) texts me.

The results so far have been disappointing

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End of the day, he's still the only person to text

The only person who's texted me all day has been the guy I casually have s3x with :/

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The only person who's texted me all day has been the guy I casually have s3x with :/

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I need you now. Where are you?

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I still blame myself sometimes

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I never realized how shit you are

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I got a salad

My mom's asking what I want for lunch and I have to choose something

Nothing is appetizing in the slightest...

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My mom's asking what I want for lunch and I have to choose something

Nothing is appetizing in the slightest...

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I want to die, instead, I'm forced to eat

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How about I don't eat until he comes back or I get over him?

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I know stressing about this isn't helping, but idk how to stop