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Omg guys sorry if yall applied TT been so busy i'll post the acceptance post soon! Currently the only admin so it's hard!

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Hey what tag do I use while posting?

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hi wifey -flo (deni pls dont write anything stupid)

ㅤㅤㅤ୨୧ㅤㅤa park jongseong oneshotㅤ . .ㅤ ☕

summary ㅤyou never took the relationship seriously with park jongseong in high school despite him loving you dearly to the moon and back. and going back to your yearbook, seeing jay's picture reminded you of how perfect of a partner he was and you regret everything, finding yourself wanting him back.

pairing ㅤ:ㅤpark jongseong x gn readerㅤㅤgenreㅤ:ㅤpure angst. oneshot. warningsㅤ:ㅤangsty angst. profanity.ㅤword countㅤ:ㅤ1.4kㅤㅤpublishedㅤ:ㅤ00/00/00ㅤmasterlistㅤ:ㅤ📎ㅤwork in progressㅤ:ㅤ📎

hot cocoa which stayed warm near the fireplace, snowflakes painted the glass window, and the christmas lights beamed wrapped around the scotch pine tree. you sat on the deep fern couch, trying to focus on the series you're watching on the tv, but a blue and gold book catches your averting eyes. it stood displayed near your high school graduation picture, its hues matching your gown and cap presented in the frame.

with a sigh, you sat up, turning the tv off with the remote on your hand, casually dropping it on the couch as your gaze stayed on the book. 

"could it be?" your hand touches the spine of the book, reading along the lines of 'riverfield high school yearbook.'

your lips curve into a soft smile, grabbing the book, "let's see…" once again, you sit on the couch, placing the book on your lap, skimming over the pages and laughing over the silly pictures each of your classmates took.

then you finally got to the senior year page. you burst out a laugh as you see your picture, "i look like shit" then with curiosity building up, you skim through the pages more, looking at your friends' pictures. 

but a sudden painful feeling struck your heart, you stopped turning the page. a lump builds in your throat. and the air felt suffocating, not allowing you to breathe.

his picture was there. his soft dark hair. his red neck tie that you used to help him with. his sharp jawline. his sweet smile that laughs at your jokes. and his beautiful eyes that you admire so much.

the memories began to swarm your mind. everything is so vivid. so clear.  

the way he held you. his strong arms delicately wrapping around your body as he rests his chin on yours. his warmth provides you solace.

the way he kisses you. his soft plump lips trailing kisses on your cheek to your neck. it gave you butterflies, an addictive feeling that you never wanted to end.

the way he treated you like a flower. always being careful with his actions around you, making you feel safe in his care.

his words of affirmation. constantly reminding you how perfect of a person and a partner you are. giving you more boost in self-esteem and confidence for yourself.

the way he treated your loved ones, your family. how he cares for them the same amount you do. his respect for your parents and his youthful side when he's with your siblings. the way he gives them presents for their birthdays, and the way he supports them with all his heart.

and the way he stayed with you through your ups and downs. he wiped those tears away and he laughed with you until his cheek hurts from smiling too much.

the way he would give you the whole entire universe.

everything about him made you feel like the luckiest person ever to exist in a cruel world full of nothing but greedy, selfish, and judgmental people. but park jongseong was the only exception. he was different.

being with him felt like home. but a home you once had that you threw away.

a tear drops on the page, smudging the pigment of the jet black tint of the printed text. your breath hitches, memories reminiscing in your head like a broken video tape.

you ask yourself, "why?" why in the world did you break up with him? all for the sake of not being good enough for him.

but you realized as you remembered his numb expression, his quivering glistening eyes that struck your heart, hitting you like a truck. he always reminded you how good you are. he was your everything. but you never listened to him, you never trusted his genuine and sincere words. and all that led you to break his heart that used to be filled by you. only you.

you look up at the ceiling, closing your eyes as tears flow like a ravine in your rosy cheeks. "second chances exist right?" you whispered under your breath. the lights flickering above you, "it does.."

wiping your tears away, you closed the book, placing it back where it stood on the shelf. with a fast pace, you went towards the door, grabbing your coat as you headed out with your car keys.

driving along the icy road, your heart beats fast. hoping that he still lives there. the house that he bought for you. the house that was always neat and clean. the house that smelled like freshly cut flowers. and the house where everything happened. all the memories that are filled with both joy and sorrow. you hoped, "please, take me back home with him"

you arrived at your destination. the lights are on. he's still there, and this time, you're going to make everything right again. you're going to love him, right? right.

the winter breeze brushes on your hair and your shoes are covered with snow. with hesitation, you finally rang the doorbell.

you waited five seconds.

one.

two.

three.

four.

and five.

the door unlocks, the first entryway to make things right. it's open. and you peek through the small opening of the door…

and there he was. "jay?" his pretty eyes surprised by your sudden presence. his flowing dark hair and his lips you yearned to kiss. but not yet. you need to focus. he was wearing a blue polo shirt that looked unfamiliar on him, but it looked good. extremely good.

but in your gaze, you notice that his guard is up, and you know why.

"yn..? what are you doing here?" he asked, fully opening the door, looking over his shoulder then back at you.

you purse your lips, cautious of your words, but you proceed to get to the point as the cold bothered you and it probably bothered him too, "jay.."

you just wanted to be in his arms again, in his care again, be his love again, "i'm sorry.. for everything"

"yn.." his eyes avert your stare.

your shivering hands clenched into a fist, "i know it's so sudden.. i know it's been years, but i just wanted to let you know that.. you were so right about everything.. you were so good to me.."

"yn.." he calls your name once again.

but you exclaimed, "i was so stupid! i was so selfish! and i would do anything to fix what i've broken. like that one time i never called on your birthday.. and left the roses you gave me to wither.."

"yn.. listen to me" jay fixes the strand of hair on your face, tucking it in your ear. his face was close to you. he smiles gently yet his eyes look apologetic.

you shed a tear, "i'm so sorry. we were so perfect. you were so perfect. i miss your tan skin, your sweet smile. you were so good to me, so right. i—"

"i have a fiancee," he finally spoke out. his eyes closed and his arms crossed, giving a source of protection from the cold.

"and they mean the world to me.. yn.." he added, sweetness and admiration visible in his tone. god, he must love them so much. you could see it in his eyes. it's always in the eyes. and right now, he doesn't see you, but sees someone else.

your tears stopped flowing, your eyes broadened, and you could see your breath in the freezing air. somehow, the pain you're feeling right now feels numb. it's like you're used to it. you avert your eyes from his gaze to the ground, and all you could say was a mumbled, "oh.."

you could still see his hands, a silver ring visible in his finger, shining underneath the full moon tonight. you took three steps back, "i'm so sorry.." you choked on your own words, turning your back, running to your car.

"wait–" jay calls out, but he was too late.

no, you were too late.

you drove away, gripping the wheels. tears glistening underneath the moonlit sky. silent cries which took your breath away. an immense amount of pain aching in your chest. you wanted to be happy for him. but your heart can't. he moved on. but you didn't. he found love. but you lost it.

and everything was your fault. if only you never said anything you'd regret that december night, if only you'd return the love he has for you and never said goodbye, you could've been the person he's holding right now on a cold winter midnight.

you promised yourself that if you loved again, you'd love him right. but the ring on his hand blocked the path for your second chance at love. it turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing him. wishing you'd realize earlier what you had when he was yours. and all that led you to go back to december all the time.

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lex's notes ㅤ: ㅤSO THIS IS ME SWALLOWIN MY PRIDE STANDING INFRONT OF YOU SAYIN IM SORRY FOR THAT NIGHT I GO BACK TO DECEMBER ALL THE TIME anyways lolz back to december just fits jay so much. he's too good of a person sometimes we don't even praise it as much and it's just :( well, hope you loved this oneshot angst. reblogs and feedback are highly appreciated.

© — xinvue. do not plagiarize, repost, or translate my work.

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omg, thank you for 100 likes😊 i’m very in shock as at has been almost 2 weeks since we started and we have so many people in the server! so thank you guys sm🫶🏻

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In ur application it says keywords.. what does that mean tho? cuz i dont see any keywords in the original post u guys have

if you looked in rules and read through them, there will be keywords!

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tysm to everyone who applied! if you didn't get a dm, don't worry! we only accept the weekends, so you will probably get a dm tomorrow if you're accepted! i never expected so much ppl applying ty to everyone <3 especially the admins, ily guys!!