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how am I supposed to recover if everyone around me is all of sudden on a diet, a gym rat or losing weight, dude I wanna die 😙

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honestly most of liquids from juices to tea and coffee. I just feel like they're lil bit easier to process

REPOST WITH YOUR SAFE FOODS!

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REPOST WITH YOUR SAFE FOODS!

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SO I'M GONNA GET CANCELLED FOR THIS ONE.

But I just remembered when my friend was renting to me and my other bestie and like, he was like : yeah I wasn't eating for whole week (FOR THIS PART I WAS FINE) but then he went : I was even bulimic for awhile (or something like this)

AND WHAT I WANNA TALK ABOUT IS

for some reason it really really annoys me when people are like : I was bulimic or I was anorexic FOR A SECOND because every time i guess I'm just triggered? cuz I'm there like HI BESTIE I'M LIKE 5 YEARS WITH THIS SHIT? and I know it might be more like a start of their Ed or something but like the choice of words just pisses me off everytime. YOU'RE NOT ANOREXIC FOR A WEEK. IT'S NOT ALWAYS ED IF IT INVOLVES NOT EATING OR THROWING UP LIKE AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

and I'm sorry but even if you're eating normally for couple months now, it's not fucking gone. Let's be honest the thoughts will always be there we can only learn how to ignore them.

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I just ate

the urge to throw up >>>>>>>

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so like my Mom is making dinner

and its weird because on one hand I'm happy it takes so long because longer without food is better

but on other hand I'd like to eat already so I can start my fasting cycle again? like wtf

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okay but can we talk about the random stomach pains? like what is this 😭😭

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I just finished my antibiotics so guess who's back bitches

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y'all can be addicted to drugs, cigarettes and alcohol. I'm addicted to the hunger.

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can't starve, have meds. logging off.

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My crush is my thinspo.

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this.

It really sucks sometimes

Having a restrictive ed while not being skinny; I feel like I’m wasting away when in reality I’m too fat for people to give a shit

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LIKE YOUR FUCKING FRIEND IS YOUR BIGGEST THINSPO.

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do I wanna work out, eat healthy, have healthy habits instead of starving myself? yes. but I feel embarrassed to do all of this things with my weight for some reason.

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I woke up today and chose to hate myself 😁

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I'm doing it so I won't feel scared to sit on your lap.

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I know y'all are sick fucks but stop with fat/mid spo. Just because you feel bad with your shit ass body and mental health doesn't mean other people do.