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When i close my eyes, all I see is you.

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For a moment, I felt like dying.

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Soon

you’ll get better soon, cause you have to…

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July 31 2019

When could I ever be honest with you I can't tell u whenever I am really sad because I miss you I can't tell yoy whenever I'm getting jealous over petty things and I can never tell you the emptiness I feel whenever I think I was never good enough for you. I will just say okay or I'm fine just to get over with the conversation Sometimes I do feel like we dont have much to talk about or sometimes I think I'm the one who talks too much and you just listen there and aggree with me or discuss it with me but i dont regret any of this, iloveyou so its fine. I just dont know when will u ever notice this from me, I cant tell you directly because idk where and how to start.

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Sep 16 2019

Behind those smile is a great sadness Close to loneliness Despite of the make up Wrinkles started to pop up When I looked at you My heart broke because I felt your pain I saw how you endure life and wait til it ends You make jokes, deep inside I know you are suffering You cried once in a while All I did was to stare til it ends You've carried me in your arms when I was little Now I have ignored you because Im so cruel You sang me a song to carry me to bed Now I have shouted at you when you annoys me Now were having our dinner I reminisce all the bad things I did I watched you eat as my heart broke seeing how you aged Your time is near but Im still as cruel as I am who did nothing but watch how you handle your own pain

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I love you

Is it okay? That I love you? I know you love me too, but that's just now. What about tomorrow? Does your feelings wont change? I need assurance, because I dont know where we are headed to with the love we have.

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You never looked for me, I know. You never will

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Again. For you

Hey. Thank you for staying by my side, through good times and bad times. Look how I suddenly removed you in my life, so careless right? Some things wont change, I wasted our time together but I guess its for the better

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And if I could go back in the same spot, I won't hesitate to do what I had done to you. But I can say that I regret not giving you the right against my decisions.

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Just my message for someone

Ang sabi mo, alam mo. Pero bakit isinugal mo. Alam mong hindi ako sigurado Pero bakit hinayaan mong maging ganito. Hindi ako sigurado, magulo akong tao. Mamaya gusto ko, mamaya ayaw ko. Naguguluhan ako , parating hindi ko alam ang gagawin ko. Pero nandiyan ka, tinanggap ang lahat ng ito. Ngayon sinabi mo, alam mo pala ang lahat ng ito. Pero bakit mo ako tinanggap ng buong puso? Hinayaan mong mawasak ito, pero bakit ganito? Nasasaktan din ako. Kung inaakala mong ayos lang sa akin ang lahat ng ito, nagkakamali ka. Mahirap bitawan ang pinagsamahan nating dalawa, naroon ako at naririto ka. Mahirap tumayo nang wala ka. Kaya nga ipinilit kong sanayan at sinubukan kong kayanin ang wala ka. Sinubukan ko sa paraang nasasaktan kana. Patawarin mo sana ako sa katangahan kong nagawa. Patawad kase hindi ko inisip na masasaktan kita, pinilit kong isipin na mas sasaya ka sa iba, alam ko, kase kailanman wala akong maalala na nagawa ko para sa iyo na lubos kang lumigaya. Maaring sabihin mo na nagkakamali ako, pero ito ang nakikita ko. Ngayon, mahirap sa akin na bumalik sa umpisa, malapit na ako sa kasukdulan at kaunti nalang magagawa ko na. Magagawa ko na ang gusto kong panindigan. Nakakahiya na sa tuwing ako ay may kailangan, saka tayo ipinagtatagpo ng tadhana. Hindi ko gustong dumantay nanaman sayo dahil ayoko nang dumepende pa. Masama nang tignan, masama ko din itong ituring naiinis ako sa aking sarili na kung bakit diko mapigilan ang sarili na lumapit sa tuwing ako ay may kailangan. Pero ngayon sa aking nakikita, sinusubukan mo nadin na umiwas. Maaaring guni guni ko lang ito, pero lubos akong nagpapasalamat. Kung maaaari papaunahin kita, mas gusto kong makalimut ka. Dahil sa mula't umpisa, ako ang nagsimula, ako din ang nang iwan. Naaalala mo ba kung paanong naging malupit ako sa iyo? Sa bawat panahong hindi ko iniisip ang nararamdaman at iniisip mo? Sa kung saan ako lamang ang nagdedesisyon para sa ating dalawa? Aminin mo, naging malupit ako sa relasyon nating dalawa. Bakit ba kase kay tagal mong lumimot? Pagod na akong magpanggap na ako ay tapos na. Maaaring ako'y nasa kalahati na o malapit na sa hangganan. Pero sa tuwing mag aabot ka ng kamay para sa kaonting tulong, hindi ko maipagkakaila na unti unti akong bumibigay. Pero para saan pa ang lahat ng ito kung sa huli alam naman natin na ako nanaman ang magdedesisyon sq huli. Kaya nga sana, naninindihan ako sa poong maykapal, makikiusap nadin kay tadhana na sana paghiwalayin na ang landas nating dalawa. Panginoon, ako ay nakikiusap na ilayo niyo siya sa akin dahil kahit ano mang oras, ilan mang segundo sa huli mawawasak at mawawasak ko padin siya. Magbago man ang nararamdaman ko para sa iyo, hinding hindi magbabago ang takbo ng isip ko. Alam ng utak ko, na kahit ano pa ang mangyari. Hinding hindi na tayo maari pang bumalik sa dati.

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We don't know what is bound to happen. Stay positive ignore the negatives

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For you? yes

May mga bagay lang talaga tayong hindi na mababago. Katulad nalang nang turing ko sa iyo. Hindi man katulad ng dati, hindi naman mababawasan ang katotohanan na naging konportable nadin ako sayo. Maaaring mamis-understood ng iba at isipin na tayo pa, pero alam ko alam mo yung pakiramdam na may taong kaya mong masabi ang lahat, nang walang pag aalinlangan at walang limitasyon. It will be too much for me to ask this to you. Kaya for the mean time, while youre sorting out your feelings. I will keep it to my self, together with your phone. Walang dahilan para maghiwalay tayo noon. Ako lang talaga tong may problema. Pero kung tatanungin mo ako ngayon, ngayon mismo ganoon padin abg gagawin ko. Maybe I will treasure more the moments I had with you but I'll definitely chose the same ending for us. I am glad na nagbabago ka na. Natutuwa ako at nakikita ko na kung paanong sinusubukan mo na, nag iimprove ka na. I can sense the small changes kase masiyado akong naging observant all this years. Sabi ko na nga ba e, you will appreciate the essence of the things you never appreciate before. The problems arise, pero kaya mo yang lagpasan. Masakit, siyempre it will hit you hard pero siyempre kayang kaya mo yan. Depression is no joke diba. Overcome it please. For your own sake, I can always listen. Pero mas better kung makahanap ka nang mas kacompatible mo. Nag uumpisa ka nang mag sort ng feelings from me, keep doing it. Magkaibigan padin naman tayo diba? Fighting ghel! -will be always here for you (kapag nasa mood at hindi busy) Merry Christmas!

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But come to think of it, you always thought that I never appreciate every single effort you make

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I love how you make efforts just to satisfy me and make me happy

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I wanna hate you. I want to shout at you and I want to ignore you, but everytime you come to me with those smiles, with those looks I just give in.

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I didn't know it still possible, but I feel like I am falling to the wrong person over and over again

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I don't want to hear news about you, but what can I do? the people who surrounds me is the people who are close to you