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[just-wannabe-sk1nny]

Where are all my adult anas?

It's a different world stepping into Eds shoes again half way through life.

I don't have to worry about my parents getting mad at me

I don't have to worry about my school teachers getting mad at me

I don't have the typical teenage drama that spurred this mentality shift

I remember Ed being a call a shout for help just to be seen and cared for as a teenager. But now no one sees me, I have no watchful eyes on me. No one whispering under their breath, no parents staring at me across the dinner table as I play with a half eaten plate, no boy trouble or pubescent drama fueled by hormonal rage and indifference. I'm not doing this to impress the boy I like or try to fit in with the popular kids.

I am invisible

Except from myself.

I'm in a strange state of visible translucency. I tell people I'm fasting and they believe me, I tell people I'm too tired to come meet them for dinner they believe me.

Fuck, even my live out partner whose been here for the last 3 days who I have said the words 4norexi4 to and who has watched me consume nothing but tea for 3 days doesn't question my choices.

How different a world it is when you're seen but not seen. I am validated but I remain a shadow.

[just-wannabe-sk1nny]

So I decided to knee it in the ass and get back on track. I made a diet that is gonna help me hopefully stop bingeing. 😌💕

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Me:that cake looks good.

My ed:*Inhales*

Me: i- no I'm sorry I take it back please!

My ed:.......So you want to be fat?

[just-wannabe-sk1nny]

💥REBLOG💥

We need more people from The UK♡

If:

You are 16+

SW of 150+

Aren't pro but want more friends who understand

[just-wannabe-sk1nny]

To be cute and dainty like this...I would do anything

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This is the Dog of Protection.

Reblog and you’ll never be forced to reblog anything you don’t want to ever again!

[just-wannabe-sk1nny]

Hope none of your clothes fkn fit for the new year. Hope you have to trek it out to EXPENSIVE boutiques to buy clothes that actually look good and have to pay a dumb amount of money to tailor them in to fit your new, sickly frame.

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last time I made a curse, I lost 5kg in 10 days. here’s another to curse us all again hmm

[just-wannabe-sk1nny]

Reblog the pumpkin king and you’ll lose 5 pounds this week

(just do it)

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66 Calorie mini pancakes!

These pancakes are such a safe food for me.Especially since I know what goes in them.

Recipe:

INGREDIENTS.

115.0g White Flour

[2x] Medium (50g) Eggs, Free-Range, Raw

90.0ml Water

[25x] per spray/0.2ml Frylight 1 Cal Sunflower Oil Cooking Spray 190ml

300ml Skimmed Milk

INSTRUCTIONS.

Combine the milk and the water in a jug.

Sift the flour into a bowl and make a well in the middle. Break the 2 eggs into it. Begin whisking the eggs, gradually incorporating the flour.

Slowly add the milk and water mixture, still whisking, until all the liquid has been added and it forms a smooth batter.

Heat a frying pan over a high heat, spray with 2 - 3 squirts of Frylight. Ladle 2 tbsp of batter into the centre of the pan.

Check when the edges of the pancake start to loosen (about 20 seconds) and the batter has solidified. Use a pan slice to turn the pancake - cook for a few more seconds.

Serve on a warm plate with a topping of your choice. Blueberries are a great low calorie option!

[just-wannabe-sk1nny]

Why is it so mentally exhausting to find foods to eat.

[just-wannabe-sk1nny]

So I've just eaten a not safe food today.

I had a chocolate bar that's nearly 600 calories.Thats all I've eaten tho but I feel like a failure for it.I don't know what I'm doing wrong.