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True Beauty Is Skin Deep, True Passion Is On The Cuff Of Your Sleeve, And True Love Lies In Your Heart Not In Your Head♥

Me

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This is me! I am a chaotic diaster of thunder and lightening, a force to be reckoned with and a flawless fuck you additude. I hold up shoulders high because I know the weight of this world, I've carried more than you could probably handle. I've laid in bed at night thinking,would it be better if I stopped thinking? Seeking death as a comfort a relief from the affliction of addiction.

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Look at this... https://pin.it/p27ppsk2pdfjtk

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My biggest fear is that eventually you will see me the way I see myself

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So I've expressed you guys a few times already that my life is just so crazy and hectic that I have a hard time finding time to just sit down reply to my messages as well as post content. I'm so thankful for the many of you that have stayed around and continue to follow my blog and still send me messages. I'm going to try to be post a video once a week and multiple pictures a week because I know you guys enjoy seeing my content and being apart of my journey.

I love you all

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Do you masturbate on meth?

No I actually don't masterbate at all

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Stop chasing rainbows, start chasing sunsets

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What addicts want normal people and those who love us to know

1. We are not stupid, we’re well aware of the damage. We know that what we are doing is killing us. We know that we are hurting people. We are aware of how society sees us. We know.

2. ADDICTION IS NOT ENJOYABLE. We are not “partying” or having a good time. The party ended a long time ago. We’re fucking miserable. Many of these drugs were never party drugs to begin with. It might seem fun and exciting the first week or month, but it quickly becomes a chore.

3. We don’t keep using just because we want to get high all the time. We use to not get sick and just to function normally in our daily lives. After awhile, we’re not thinking “how am I going to get high today?” We’re thinking “how will I be able to get to work today?” And then the reason we relapse is because we can’t remember surviving without it.

4. We have massive amounts of guilt, shame, and low self-esteem. We don’t need to be called “pieces of shit” and “scum junkies” because we already feel that way about ourselves every day!! The disease tells us not to care when we lie to and steal from friends and family. The disease makes us selfish. But we are human and we feel terrible about it. We aren’t psychopaths and are more than capable of feeling remorse. The more selfish acts we engage in, the worse we feel about ourselves. But we compulsively keep dragging ourselves through dirt.

5. It has absolutely nothing to do with you or anyone else. You didn’t cause it, you can’t control it, and you can’t cure it. It is no one’s fault and you did not fail as a sister/brother/mother/father/aunt/grandpa/best friend. When we lie to or steal from you or choose drugs over you, it is nothing personal. It does not mean we don’t still love you. When the disease takes over, it doesn’t necessarily want to hurt you. It just assigns everyone the same value so they are neutral/irrelevant. Someone in active addiction is stuck in a completely internal thought process that completely blocks out the existence of other people.

6. The drug is stronger than love and values like family and friendship and that’s why we’ve chosen it over you. That is the unfortunate truth. That’s why we find a higher power in recovery, because no human power or emotion can fight off the drug on its own.

7. While addiction makes us choose the drug, we NEVER chose the addiction over you. Addiction is miserable and we don’t want it. The addiction chose us.

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Question

I'm close to 1100 followers on Tumblr and I know lately my activity has been below normal there are a couple reasons for this :

Honestly I haven't had that much dope recently and my blog is somewhat considered a drug blog so my content needs to match

I'm thinking of keeping it a more personal blog as in my daily life even if it does t involve drugs, what do you think?

I'm complacent right now and I need to shake things up therefore question number two is if I were to sell videos and pictures would y'all buy it?

Let me know your thoughts in the notes below it would be very very much appreciated.

Xoxo

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