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[junior-high-mafuyu-official]

Mafuyu tilts his head at Mizuki's excitement. He's never really had that much fun shopping before, but maybe he just had never done it with a friend. If he could even call Mizuki that.

So... you just want me to try this on..? It's not exactly what I would typically wear.

Heyyy, tell me when we can do that shopping trip, I've been saving money for it

@middleschool-mizu

Oh! I guess I could go now. I’m not too busy and I think I have a decent amount of money to go so…

sure, let’s go :)

[junior-high-mafuyu-official]

Oh, yeah of course.

I’ll just hold onto the stuff you gave me until we both have outfits to try on.

Heyyy, tell me when we can do that shopping trip, I've been saving money for it

@middleschool-mizu

Oh! I guess I could go now. I’m not too busy and I think I have a decent amount of money to go so…

sure, let’s go :)

[junior-high-mafuyu-official]

Great figure..?

Uh…well…only if I get to choose something out for you. I’m not very well accustomed with this part of the store but I think something caught my eye when I was walking in. I don’t know if it’s something you would wear but it seemed like it was a color that would match your hair.

Mafuyu, the pair of pants and the shirt still hanging on her arm, started walking over to the women’s section of the store. There, they found a long pink pair of pants — upon closer inspection they realized that it was actually a long skirt and not a pair of pants.

Oh. It’s a skirt, are you alright with that? I just think it’s a nice color.

Heyyy, tell me when we can do that shopping trip, I've been saving money for it

@middleschool-mizu

Oh! I guess I could go now. I’m not too busy and I think I have a decent amount of money to go so…

sure, let’s go :)

[junior-high-mafuyu-official]

Well I— Never mind that, actually.

Mafuyu pulls a pair of pants off the rack.

These ones would be my size, I guess I could try them on. I can’t say they’re something I’d normally wear though…

Heyyy, tell me when we can do that shopping trip, I've been saving money for it

@middleschool-mizu

Oh! I guess I could go now. I’m not too busy and I think I have a decent amount of money to go so…

sure, let’s go :)

[junior-high-mafuyu-official]

I still don’t quite understand what’s wrong with looking like your grandma…mom dresses me typically and she likes it….

But I guess you were the one that brought me here so…sure, I guess you can pick out an outfit for me.

Heyyy, tell me when we can do that shopping trip, I've been saving money for it

@middleschool-mizu

Oh! I guess I could go now. I’m not too busy and I think I have a decent amount of money to go so…

sure, let’s go :)

[junior-high-mafuyu-official]

O-Oh, okay..

Mafuyu glances around the shop’s stock and sees an oversized beige knit cardigan, they begin to slowly gravitate towards it.

Oh, I like that one. Do you..?

Heyyy, tell me when we can do that shopping trip, I've been saving money for it

@middleschool-mizu

Oh! I guess I could go now. I’m not too busy and I think I have a decent amount of money to go so…

sure, let’s go :)

[junior-high-mafuyu-official]

Why would I judge you..? You’re the one that seems to know more about clothes than me, I trust you’ll find something good.

Heyyy, tell me when we can do that shopping trip, I've been saving money for it

@middleschool-mizu

Oh! I guess I could go now. I’m not too busy and I think I have a decent amount of money to go so…

sure, let’s go :)

[junior-high-mafuyu-official]

Oh. I’m at the mall, I think I see you. Where did you want to go first?

Heyyy, tell me when we can do that shopping trip, I've been saving money for it

@middleschool-mizu

Oh! I guess I could go now. I’m not too busy and I think I have a decent amount of money to go so…

sure, let’s go :)

[junior-high-mafuyu-official]

I…I guess so.

I’ll see you there.

I still don’t understand what’s wrong with my fashion sense though…

Heyyy, tell me when we can do that shopping trip, I've been saving money for it

@middleschool-mizu

Oh! I guess I could go now. I’m not too busy and I think I have a decent amount of money to go so…

sure, let’s go :)

[junior-high-mafuyu-official]

Heyyy, tell me when we can do that shopping trip, I've been saving money for it

@middleschool-mizu

Oh! I guess I could go now. I’m not too busy and I think I have a decent amount of money to go so…

sure, let’s go :)

[junior-high-mafuyu-official]

hhnnng……i have fallen ill :(

and I still have school tomorrow….

[junior-high-mafuyu-official]

Jinrui shijou katsutenai

Jinsei Minna Baka Kawaii

[junior-high-mafuyu-official]

Question Game

Are we tired of these yet?

What is your nickname?

When is your birthday?

What was your longest relationship?

What is your favorite book?

What is something you're insecure about?

5 Male celebrity crushes

5 Female celebrity crushes

What is your dream job?

What do you consider your biggest accomplishment?

What is a fact about you that nobody would believe?

What were your highs and lows for this last month?

Where is somewhere you'd like to visit?

How do you de-stress?

What are your favorite apps besides tumblr?

Describe yourself in one sentence.

What do you think makes you attractive?

What is something you're really good at?

What is something you're really bad at?

A time that you told a lie.

What's a totally random and useless fact that you know?

Who knows you the best?

What is your most prized possession?

What is your longest friendship?

When did you first feel like an adult?

Do you/ Have you played any sports?

How are you feeling right now?

Are you an early bird or a night owl?

Do you believe in love at first sight?

Favorite song lyrics right now?

What does self care look like for you?

Describe yourself with 3 singers.

What makes you nervous?

What’s a pet peeve you have?

What will always make you cry?

What kind of first impression do you think you make on people?

Free Pass! (Ask any question you want that's not on the list)

[junior-high-mafuyu-official]

Mafuyu tries to blink back his tears, trying to avoid any eye contact with his older self —

I— I guess you are.

But it’s still not fair… it’s not fair that I’ll never live up to I want to be. Maybe if I just try harder I can be perfect! Even if you couldn’t maybe I…

Her getting into my head is a good thing, it strives me to be better…

umm…if you’re going to be truly honest with me…

then I’ll ask this:

are we…really happy? did we find something to actually enjoy..? that’s not impressing our mom I suppose…

— @junior-high-mafuyu-official

. . . I don’t know. I… I would say I am content. True happiness is something I don’t ever think I will feel. We… Have people around us who we love, and they love us back. But I can’t say I’m happy. I have too many… thoughts. Too many burdens. Until they are gone, happiness seems unattainable.

But I enjoy… my life, to any extent. Not my home life but - with nightcord. That’s my happiness, in a way, even if I don’t. . . Feel happy, truly, all the time. At least they make it bearable.

Nothing we can do will ever make her happy, so my advice is. . . Give up. Do what you want to do. Regardless, we let her down - may as well have a small amount of fun doing it.

[junior-high-mafuyu-official]

O-oh…

So nothing really has changed. I think I have people around me who love me, at least…they’re happy when I do well so I’d assume that’s what it means. But I somehow feel like it’s not the same…these people around me don’t make life bearable, the opposite, actually… I don’t understand…

But we have to! I can’t give up at this point! People already see me as perfect, she sees me as perfect..!

If I give up then…I’ve lived my whole life doing what she wants me to do! I can’t do what I want to because I don’t want to do anything!! Who am I if I’m not her good girl..?

umm…if you’re going to be truly honest with me…

then I’ll ask this:

are we…really happy? did we find something to actually enjoy..? that’s not impressing our mom I suppose…

— @junior-high-mafuyu-official

. . . I don’t know. I… I would say I am content. True happiness is something I don’t ever think I will feel. We… Have people around us who we love, and they love us back. But I can’t say I’m happy. I have too many… thoughts. Too many burdens. Until they are gone, happiness seems unattainable.

But I enjoy… my life, to any extent. Not my home life but - with nightcord. That’s my happiness, in a way, even if I don’t. . . Feel happy, truly, all the time. At least they make it bearable.

Nothing we can do will ever make her happy, so my advice is. . . Give up. Do what you want to do. Regardless, we let her down - may as well have a small amount of fun doing it.

[junior-high-mafuyu-official]

stares at you with my little neurodivergent face

[junior-high-mafuyu-official]

Thank you.

He pressed his lips tightly together into a smile — whether it was real or not, he couldn’t really tell, but that wasn’t really what mattered to him, it was all the same anyways. More importantly, he thought maybe… he found something that he actually, truly liked.

Are you…also me?

Why do you run this music account? Shouldn’t you be more focused on your studies?

I don’t mean to pry as I don’t know what’s gone on in your life but, I do know that you’re…some sort of me and that we’ve been taught our whole life to focus on our future instead of on any hobbies that won’t benefit us.

— @junior-high-mafuyu-official

// spewing whatever his mom has taught him because that’s all he’s ever known

All I ever do are studies and this. It does bring benefits, even if you can’t see them. And I hope for your safety that you never will.