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bitches see no way home and hyperfixate on tasm spiderman again like it’s 2012— holding onto that same happiness that andrew gave us almost ten years ago and falling in love with him all over again, despite being in different phases of our lives. it’s me. i’m bitches

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if your girl cried while watching no way home that's not your girl anymore. that's andrew garfield's girl

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no way home spoilers

That look in Tobey's eyes when he's holding Tom's Peter back from killing Norman. He didn't have to say a single word. They both just knew. That look is haunting me it won't leave my mind.

It was so, so important how they did that moment - how Tobey didn't just snatch the hoverboard out of Tom's hands with a web - but rather he could look him in the eyes, look his younger self in the eyes, and stop him from making the same choice that he did. Not just physically stop him but to make him understand, and let him make the choice to let go himself, instead of making it for him.

I love how they really framed Tobey's as the oldest and the wisest. He's had all this time to look back on that choice he made. All this time to think about the things he would have done differently. All this time thinking if he had just known, wishing he could just go back in time and talk to himself, to stop himself. He never thought that one day he would actually get that chance.

That look. That look that won't leave my mind. That look that said you know you shouldn't do this. You know May wouldn't want you to do this. I know the pain it will cause you. I've felt it. I feel it every day. I don't want you to go through what I did. I don't want you to make the same mistake I did. I don't want you to feel the pain that I do. Please. I love you. Please. It didn't help.

And Tom's Peter listens. He makes the choice Tobey's couldn't. His younger self didn't have him to offer him his strength and compassion and wisdom and perspective. Tobey's Peter can never go back in time and save himself, but at least he could save this version of himself. He can go on living, and the pain will fade more and more every day. Whenever he looks back on his younger self at least he'll know, without a doubt, that in another world, there's a version of him that he was able to help. Who didn't make that choice.

(And then Tom's Peter could then do something else that Tobey's couldn't, that being curing Norman, which he said he's been thinking about for years. Even though he was dead he still wished he could go back and help him, and now he was finally able to give him a second chance.)

(And the fact that Tobey says in the very next scene after May dies that ever since he got here he's been trying to find Peter because he feels he needs his help. I know he probably got there earlier but part of me thinks he got there right after or when May died, and he goes through the portal a few hours later. Yes Peter needed him because of the villains but the real reason he needed him was because of May's death and how he was grieving - and how this universe's Peter was going to make the same decision he did if he didn't find him and help him.)

And Andrew. I saw someone else say that he's still grieving Gwen, which is so true. From his conversation with Tobey it sounds like he really just sunk himself entirely into his work as Spiderman in order to, maybe not so much cope but just keep himself occupied to block out the grief.

He thinks about her every day. Sees her falling. Feels the weight of her in his arms again and again and again.

And when MJ fell, every fiber of his being was screaming not again. Not again. Not again.

In that moment, he just saw Gwen. Like he does every day. Only this time it was all too real.

And this time it was different. MJ's Peter couldn't get to her, just like he couldn't get to Gwen. This time he was here. This time he could do something about it. This time there was someone who could spare Peter the pain he lives with every moment of his life.

Maybe when he caught her, for just a split second, it felt like he caught Gwen. He had relived the most horrible moment of his life again. That moment that lived in his mind, that was always there underneath everything else, burning just a little but without end. Then somehow, this time, it ended differently.

The worst thing that happened to Andrew's Peter was a tragedy, but the worst thing that happened to Tobey's was a choice. They're both things that they can never change, but wish they could. They're both things they were able to spare this young version of themselves from. This boy who's full of so much potential and been through so much already. This boy who needed them. This boy who is them.

Obviously this whole movie was about second chances and compassion. You can always give second chances to people, no matter what they've done. You can always start over with them. Everyone except for yourself. You will always know what you've been through and what you've done. And you can be compassionate with yourself, but you can never truly start over. We can never get second chances in life - we can only have them in the eyes of others.

I wish I could go back in time and be there for my younger self. I wish I could help them and guide them. I wish I could protect them. I wish I could save them. I think about it all the time. I think a lot of us do. But in the real world we can't save our younger selves from pain.

Tobey and Andrew were able to fulfill the impossible dream of giving yourself a second chance. Of saving yourself.

I think what this movie was saying was that, as much as we wish we could, we can't start over. You can't give second chances to yourself so that's why it's all the more important that you give them to others - because if we could give ourselves even one moment of the past that could be changed, we would all do it in a heartbeat.

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Don't talk about weight loss and diets to your daughter, don't talk about weight loss and diets around your daughter, don't comment on your daughter's weight, don't tell her she has to weigh herself every once in a while, don't ruin your daughter's relationship with food, don't make her feel bad about the way she looks. I'm sorry if diet culture fucked you up but please try to break the cycle instead of perpetuating it. Thanks.

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“Some of us aren’t meant to belong. Some of us have to turn the world upside down and shake the hell out of it until we make it our own place.”

— Elizabeth Lowell

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otra vez porque es un temardooooo

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You don’t have to be positive all the time to prove you’re trying or healing. It’s okay to just say “this fucking sucks right now”. No one is positive all the time, please don’t expect that of yourself. 

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I want ALL the possibilities of Hayden Christensen playing Anakin and Darth Vader on the Obi-Wan Kenobi show!

I want Obi-Wan vs Darth Vader meeting up again, where Vader’s been  hunting him, where Obi-Wan has to learn that Vader still lives!

I want a rematch of a lightsaber fight because it wouldn’t solve or even change anything between them, they’re still impossible to reach the other side, Obi-Wan can’t reach Anakin, Anakin can’t reach Obi-Wan, but the fight would be epic, imagine Obi-Wan who still knows Anakin better than anyone, but also this is Vader and he’s off the fucking rails now!

I want scenes of Anakin in his hamster ball of evil looking sad about all the breakups that happened a decade ago!

I want Clone Wars flashbacks!  Hayden wearing his Clone Wars armor!!

I want hallucinations of Anakin being there with Obi-Wan on Tatooine!  Trailing after him like he used to, asking questions about why this or why that, making obnoxious comments or being whiny on purpose because he knows it annoys Obi-Wan!

I want heartbreaking hallucinations in the desert where Obi-Wan asks, “Where did it all go wrong?” and Anakin doesn’t answer, just looks sad and angry!

I want Obi-Wan imagining what Anakin could have been, a better world where he could let go of those horrible feelings of wanting to possess and own people/his attachments, and become the Jedi he was meant to be!

I want them sensing each other in the Force, the look on Vader’s face (whether we see him inside the helmet or he has it off for whatever reason, like he got a bomb thrown in his face and it knocked his helmet off for a second or what have you) and just that split-second moment of pure longing for his old friend, that look where he glances down and to the side like he always did when he couldn’t handle his feelings, which then immediately becomes fury and rage as he looks back up, ready to wrap the dark side around himself again!

I WANT ALLLLLLLL OF IT.

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Daily remind that the precious, beautiful, badass and great politician (Queen and Senator who should have been Empress) PADME AMIDALA SKYWALKER is an important figure in SW and shall not be forgotten EVER. Nor being compared or trashed because she is not a Jedi nor have Force. She is important. She is REALLY important because the Force choose her to be the lover, wife and mother of the children of the CHOOSEN ONE. She is the REASON Anakin chooses the dark side; she is the reason why Darth Vader was made. And she is the mother of the twins that saved the damn galaxy with the postulates that she believed with Mon Monthma and Bail Organa and the other 2,000 senators who tried to stop Palpatine. Thank you!

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Watching Revenge of the Sith literally makes me so genuinely upset because of how Anakin’s Fall is structured. Anakin is just so afraid of loss and he’s so exhausted and wounded and YOUNG- only being a year older than me- and he’s got so much pressure on him. He wants to be a good Jedi, a good husband, a good father- and he wants it so badly that he’s desperate for a way to be able to do it. And that makes him so susceptible to the manipulation of other people- the Chancellor, the Council, etc. Now, I’m not saying that Anakin isn’t culpable for his actions- he is, but he feels so responsible for everything all the time and it’s because of that stupid prophecy that everyone seems to just push onto him. From a young age he was expected to be the Chosen One instead of just Anakin Skywalker, Jedi Knight. Anakin feels that because of this burden he has to be alone, has to figure everything out himself, and that’s why he doesn’t really reach out to anyone. Not Obi-Wan, not Padmé, no one. And it’s heart-breaking because Anakin feels everything so deeply and he loves his mentor and he loves his wife and he will love- if he doesn’t already but he totally does just look at his face- his child, but he doesn’t feel like he can lean on them. He’s the protector. Always.

tldr; We’re emotional on main for Anakin Skywalker, lads

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Grogu getting told off at Jedi school: I don't think my father, the ruler of mandalore, would be happy to hear about this.

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I can’t believe people are throwing a fit on Twitter because mark hamill (the one and only) played luke skywalker instead of sebastian stan. shut up shut up shut up!!!

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Seeing their fathers face for the first time

Return of the Jedi | The Mandalorian - Chapter 16: The Rescue

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The most dramatic family in the Galaxy

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Rogue One | The Mandalorian - Chapter 16: The Rescue