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Self portrait. Another proof of life, I guess. (April, 2021)

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Julia during her birthday at our neighbor’s roof top (April 1, 2021)

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SWOON, a photo exhibit by Tarzeer Studios. The last photo from this set is called Listen by one of my friends, Jerico Bico. Do check his exceptional works on his Instagram page (@j.eribico). He is open for possible work and collaborations. (Makati City, September 26, 2018)  

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Sunday

It was such a lovely day to end the week. My mom took us to the cinema to see Goyo. We also had dinner which really made my heart happy and sad. Happy, because we got the chance to bond as a family again, seeing my siblings and my mom smile just melt my heart. Sad, because I wish dad is still with us. I always think of how things or days will end up if he’s still here. Just like the old days. 

I’m now listening to One Sweet Day by Mariah Carey featuring Boyz II Men as I’m writing this down. This song reminds me of him. He used to sing this in the karaoke or play this every Sunday along with other Mariah Carey hits. He’s the main reason why I fell in love with music, because he used to love music more than I do. 

Anyway, if you’re reading this and you still have your parents around you, I hope you hug them and tell them how you love them while you can. It really hurts when you can’t do those things anymore. It really fucking hurts. 

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Saturday

My head hurts because I forgot to bring my umbrella yesterday during the rally which made me feel unwell. I’m also very anxious looking at my works because I think they were no good at all. Fuck these insecurities, right? I really hate thinking like this. Someone kill me now. 

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Never Again to Martial Law (September 21, 2018)

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Bamba playing hide and seek. (September 2018)

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Portrait of me taken by Jordan. (Liwliwa, September 9, 2018)

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Thursday

I’m very fascinated by the power of technology. By just using an app, or just signing up from different social media platforms, you’ll be able to meet someone who has the same wavelength as you. 

I’m talking to a close friend right now, which I met here on Tumblr. He’s from Cebu and we met last 2015 when I travelled there with my colleagues. We haven’t got the chance to spend some time together but later that year, he visited Manila. We went to B-Side in Makati to have drinks and listen to some good music. I still remember how we ended up sitting in a corner and just exchanged stories. We also went to his condo where he and his friends temporarily stayed which is pretty occupied that time so he decided to go to the parking lot instead.  He brought his iPod and gave the left ear piece of his headphones, we just listened to some pretty dope music until morning. He also gave me postcards from the Art Fair, which I lost because our room got renovated and I think my mom unintentionally threw it away. It sucks because they really meant something to me. 

I’m glad that I’ve heard something from him again. He’s now running a business with his parter in Cebu, a restaurant to be exact. Well he’s always been into business since then. I told him that I’ll visit him again if there’s a chance. 

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First day in Liwliwa. (September 8, 2018)

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Wednesday

It’s almost midnight and I’m in front of my laptop for hours. I’ve been looking to a lot of artworks hoping that it will help me to do some but it didn’t work. I’ve also indulged myself with films that I think might help me to be creative but it didn’t work out either. Is this a crisis? What should I do? I can’t feel anything at this moment.