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Wednesday, April 06, 2016

“On my next birthday, I’m turning 60 years old and then I am ready to go.”

I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I AM DOING. SOMEONE, ANYONE HELP ME GET OUT OF THIS TIME OF CONSTANT REFLECTION AND CONSCIOUSNESS. 

Well, here it is; your typical “artistic” photo depicting an older frail individual smoking a cigarette. I guess the theme one could obtain is the romanticism of the intrinsic infatuates one consumes to deplore their suppressions and emotions. 

Through the abundance of time this year has brought me, I merely have ventured my surroundings or figuring out myself one bit. Throughout these months, I’ve stayed in a distorted world that I created in my mind for myself for times that I have no control of. It simply sucks. Time seems to go as it does, and all the moments that are considered in the past have no significant feeling to it. Just like every growing teenager, I am on a constant internal conflict of all the ideals that I perceive to achieve. However, it has no significance effect on me. I am so sick of my intangible aspirations that I believe will never be in the grasp of hands. Without any hesitation I envy others that I perceive to have the “life” I want. The outlook on my life represents an upheaval of moods and unrealistic ideals and subjective opinions. I’m living in this cave with a desire to attract attention. Do I want to be seen as an attractive being, a political controversy, or a down to earth individual? Questioning whether or not to post this was a time boggling event. Although no one will possibly see this mess filled with words under ten minutes, there is a constant fear of not living up to the high bar of expectations. 

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Clearly I have no idea on the etiquette of posts on Tumblr. At this time, I am in a zone of a egotistical mindset, and in need of a spark to help me contemplate that the world goes on, even the issues I’m currently facing. A free bird reminded me that the world does not neccesarily revolve around me. It’s always the repetitive objects you see that can redefine your perception of life.