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girl who suffers from صداع نصفي, still kicking life tho

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unfortunately if you are an old friend of mine i will always care about you no matter what even if we haven't seen each other in forever because i still remember what you were like 7 years ago and i still remember how it felt to be young with you and i still have a lot of love for you in the back of my mind

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i have this disease called i will open your message and get distracted and forget to reply and then the notification will be gone so i will not have replied for ages and you will think i am ignoring you but. i am not. it’s incurable

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they should invent a mother who is normal and says normal things and has normal interactions with her child

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the 0 notes wont stop me from posting every single thought that crosses my mind btw. dont u guys worry about that 

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Took a shower now I'm 42% less evil

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maybe if i stopped IFing life and actually did stuff

(saying what IF… not the fword)

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hope the tumblr girls are surviving out there in the world

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who has suffered more jesus christ or me when i'm on my period

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Spike has ADHD and his hyperfixation is Buffy

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This is a real letter, dedicated to the boy I am so sweetly in love with. I can't tell you his name, but his name sounds like bells clinking when you say it. To the boy that is like sun rays peeking out from behind a forest to me, I hope one day you will know just how much I love you. And I'll always try to understand your decisions, even if they sometimes don't make sense to me.

Letter:

I miss you. A sweet feeling lingers in my heart, and all I can think about is your smile, and the fact that we can never be friends anymore. But this sweet feeling, sweet as sugar, stubbornly stays there my heart and drives me crazy. It won't go away. I've got the sweetest little crush on you, it's so sweet, so so sweet. You got me so drunk on your poison, because your poison is as sweet as honey. I want to know what your lips taste like, I want to get drunk on your smile, I want to fall into your eyes and stay there for hours.

But despite all this, I know it isn't just a crush; I developed a crush on you only after falling in love with you. For many people it works the other way round; but for me somehow, I realized I was in love with you first.

The gentle feeling of love came first - the peaceful feeling of being in your company. The calm feeling I felt when listening to you tell jokes and stories. And the way the world seemed to fall silent, when I watched as you walked happily alongside your friends.

It was only after that, did every little thing about you start to make my heart race, did every single thing about you seem cute beyond words. It was only after all this, did I get a little drunk in your eyes that always seem to be thinking.

But this "dizziness", this blinding crush, will lessen eventually, and in the time that it will take for it to reduce, I promise to hide most of it from you to respect your comfort.

And throughout all this, I will always love you the way I did from the beginning.

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changed people (me)

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i know everyone is like "oh high school was the worst time of my life and i hate everyone from there" but. how do you not fall in love just a little bit with almost all classmates. i don't know your favourite colours. i don't even remember your last name looking at the group picture. you still surrounded me when i was probably the most uncertain, immature and afraid i will probably be in my whole life. you didn't do anything to make it better but it mattered that you were there. we learnt almost every bit of knowledge we had sitting next to each other. we danced in different groups at school parties but when that one song plays, we all did the hook step together. god help me if i wouldn't take a bullet to save my schoolmates

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i think we should celebrate buffy's resurrection like easter

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ok