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Aaaaand my year is finally over! Now for the rest of December is binge watching TV and hopefully doing some creative shite

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Interesting points raised here for smutty fiction writers under the upcoming Trump adm/Project 2025 adm.

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Worst pain

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do not forget about reservations.

do not forget about the people on reservations.

when you are making and reading posts about dire predictions for quality of life, do not forget about reservations.

we already have issues accessing clean water. we already experience devastation from climate change. we are already going missing for our race. we are already being murdered for our culture.

it will only get worse.

it’s possible to live through. every single person indigenous to north america has a chance to live through this. i’m not trying to fear monger; i’m trying to remind you.

please do not forget about us when you assure people that “everything will be okay; people are living under far worse circumstances in other countries”.

people are living under far worse circumstances here. and it can get worse. and it will get worse. and we need you to remember that we’re here when it happens.

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hello again (bill clinton limewire voice) my fellow americans

There are a few states that actually have Shield/Refuge laws designed to help trans people fleeing from trans-unsafe states, which also guarantee trans folks access to healthcare. These states are:

California

Colorado

Illinois

Oregon

Vermont

Washington

Minnesota

New Mexico

Maine

Massachusetts

Rhode Island

Connecticut

Washington D.C.

Additionally, some states have "trans sanctuary" executive orders signifying safety for trans folks seeking healthcare. These states are:

Maryland

New Jersey

New York

Living as a resident in these states means you are protected by state's rights and state government to continue or begin receiving trans healthcare. These laws have been codified in their states so everything has been a-ok'd by their state governments.

Stay alive. You got this. I love you.

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reblog to give the person you reblogged this from a fucking break

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reblog to give the person you reblogged this from a fucking break

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I am so serious when I say if you want to learn about light, you NEED to at least look at modeseven’s tutorials. even if you’re not pursuing a painterly style, this is all essential theory that can be easily adapted to different coloring styles. notice how none of these ever say ‘light with these colors and shade with these colors’? notice how this is teaching how light works on a mechanical level, and reminding the audience to adjust the actual colors they choose by context? THAT is good advice.

(if you’re thinking ‘wow I want to study more of this persons art!’ I encourage you to do so, but proceed with the knowledge that modeseven draws pretty much exclusively weird as hell kink art. sometimes wisdom comes from horny places)

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we need to make using chatgpt embarrassing bc sorry it really is. what do you mean you can’t write an email

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@artisticreptilequeen legit Soren at Eloise and Aida's wedding

if i told you what rhis sounded ljke i dont think youd believe me so just listen

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That didn't happen

And if it did, it wasn't that bad

And if it was, that's not a big deal

And if it is, it's not my fault

And if it was, I didn't mean it

And if I did, you deserved it

"The Narcissist's Prayer" by Dayna Craig fits the Marauders like a glove

I think the fireside chat Harry has with Sirius and Remus pisses me off even more than Snape's Worst Memory. They are literally trying to excuse their actions by saying they were 15, and when Harry indigantly says that he's fifteen then the excuse becomes "he was interested in dark arts" and when Harry points out that they attacked Snape because they were bored, suddenly Sirius is like "I'm not proud of it" as if he still doesn't call Snape Snivellus and literally said that Snape deserved having a werewolf almost eat him. And then they reveal that James continued to attack Snape behind Lily's back even though she had started dating him because she thought he had stopped that. Like what the fuck.

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I know that most of you are probably tired of me disappearing, then coming back and saying I'm alive, then going MIA again for months, rinse and repeat...

TBH, for the past year or so I've been seriously contemplating just leaving all fandoms stuff behind because I can't seem to focus and that's because I'm going through some internal changes.

I've been in therapy for a little over a year, and on depression medication for a little less than that, and tbh most the time my mood has been a flatline. I mean, it's not bad or anything. I' just kind of existing and learning to be nice to myself and leave some shit behind. Mostly what I'm trying to do right now is just find motivation again. I'm past the worst stage of "well, fuck, I need professional help cuz shit is getting real bad" and into the "things are not bad anymore, but I kind of don't know what to do now, but I know I gotta do something." It's a weird kind of hopeful.

Basically the worst is behind me, but the work I put into putting it behind me has left me tired as I've never been in my life before, and while I know I'm doing MUCH better, I'm also a bit lost because...so much of who I was was rooted in the traumas I had to leave behind, so who the fuck am I right now. If that makes any sense. That is probably somewhat of a clean slate to begin from, which is good all things considered.

Yeah, this is a whole lot of vagueness and rambling in a single post but the bottomline is that I'm still here. I'm not as active, but I'm here. Also my plans to move from Rio fell through, and I'm trying to do it again next year and, fingers crossed, it's looking like it just might happen this time, so there's that to look forward to.

(and @artisticreptilequeen thank you for not giving up on me. The level of kindness and care of checking up on me constantly is far beyonf anything I could reasonably hope and expect. I love you, and I'm sorry I haven't been around.

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Ya'll still remember me?

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Fanfiction went full mainstream and we're all old, lol

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Severus Snape Nighty-night fashion pack