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久了。

與你相處的日子也過了一年，今年我看明白了。自己很喜歡你的陪伴，真的很喜歡和你在一起的時間可是我自己很清楚這只是個假象。

有時我自己不知道，是不是只是喜歡你的陪伴。其他的事情都沒看清。是真正的喜歡嗎？還是喜歡上了我對你的想法-其實你並沒有我想像中的一樣。 我不知道我喜不喜歡和你在一起的我，也明瞭自己真的很難欣賞你。。。我不知道我們以後會不會幸福，我不知道我能不能多像你。

可是你知道嗎？這幾個月了，我成長了好多。耶穌保護我的心好多。我也拼命告訴自己-沒機會啦，放手吧。我不可能喜歡你的啦。防護自己的心靈，那扇門堅定了很多。我常告訴耶穌，別鬧我了，我無法再受另一個打擊，饒了我吧。可是當每個打擊要來時，耶穌會小聲的告訴我，要來了，準備好。

你說在你的夢裡，當你要和她說話時，都看不到結局。。。傻蛋，結局在我這呀。你知道我常夢到什麼嘛？我常夢到你和她聊天聊到多開心，你開心到把我忘了。你不知道前幾個月，我都是被這��夢嚇醒，常哭著睡，因為我真的很害怕失去你。可是你。。。就沒那麼怕失去我，我真得不重要吧？

親愛的，這一年要結束了。多五個月，我要一個小要求。。。耶穌，這個要求好痛苦喔可是是必須的-我希望明年的時候，我不好再喜歡你了。我想好好的愛一個愛我的人呀。我的愛可以給他了，不是你不值得我的愛，只是你不懂我的愛，你懂了哪有怎樣了呢？你沒比她在乎我呀。

有種愛，是這一輩子擁有不了的愛。有種愛，是默默守護著的。我不能像情人一樣的愛你，那就以好友的身份好好的愛你吧。我真的真的好喜歡你呀。耶穌，如果這是如你所意，就開啟我們對彼此的愛。如果這不是你所意，就懇請你保護我的心，願我們各自找到耶穌已為我們安排的人。我希望她會比我更愛你，我也希望遇到一個很愛我的人，讓我也好好的愛他去。

以後我們的回憶都會被新刷掉，我們去過的地方也會改變，但回憶終究是回憶。我們在一起的日子請讓我好好保留。

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‪“Make sure you don’t start seeing yourself through the eyes of those who don’t value you. Know your worth even if they don’t.” ‬

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I get anxious. I get anxious when I overthink. 

I overthink about how things could be happening without me knowing, how you could be treating everyone just like how you treated me. 

I thought of how you might really really think of me - that I am actually a horrible person deep within, that I am not as good as others think I am. 

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你

明明不是我喜欢的那种人，却偏偏是我最喜欢的人。

喜欢自己在你身边是怎样的人，喜欢你善良的心，喜欢你常常努力逗我笑，喜欢你陪我一起��，喜欢你尝试打动我，喜欢你说你会保护我，喜欢你陪我做我想要做的事，喜欢你了解我的喜爱，喜欢你记得关于我的事情，喜欢你担心我，喜欢你亲手写的卡片，喜欢你买个我的礼物，喜欢你从来没发脾气，喜欢你努力的打算未来，喜欢你终是那么贴心，替人着想。喜欢你，真的真的很喜欢。

可是我的真的很害怕。害怕是自己想太多，其实你对每个女生都是这样的，害怕自己一厢情愿笨笨的。所以我一直怀疑你，不是因为不相信你，而是怕自己受伤，而伤的更深。

你知道吗。。虽然我口中里说我喜欢其他人，但当我在和那个人相处的时候，我只想着你的好。希望在我面前的人是你。 我好想忘掉你，不想再喜欢你了。可是好难，好辛苦。我做不到。

你知道吗。。。最近的噩梦惊醒终是旋绕着你和她。你们在梦里亲密，你把我忘了，我在梦里哭着，醒来的时候也哭着。

所以我选着隐瞒。把我对你的爱藏在心里的最深处，不让别人知道。骗每个人说我其实喜欢着他人，好让我放下我对你的爱，反正你也不喜欢我嘛，我为何要自作多情呢。真笨。所以我建了一个心墙，不可以再那么傻了。

笨在喜欢你，也以为你是喜欢我的。

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God is always worthy of my praise.

Even when my faith is tried and my hope is faded and my joy is lost, He is worthy. Though my heart be broken in my chest and my body cries with aching sorrow, He is worthy. And when my step is lagging, my spirit tired, my mind spinning with despair, He is worthy. Even when things don’t happen the way I’d hoped they would, even prayed they would, and disappointment swells within, He is worthy. Though death may rise around me and pain is raging and I am weak and cannot bear to stand, He is worthy. When worries weigh me down and anxieties attack my being, He is worthy. And through hurt and suffering, fear and doubt and confusion and disaster, He is worthy. When the past is bearing down on me, reminding me of my mistakes, and the future��s dim ahead, and I cannot see the light, He is worthy.

He is always worthy. No matter what happens in my life, no matter how I feel, still I will say praise the Lord, O my soul, because my God is worthy.

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seasons

n.j.johnson via @natalyajohnson

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I used to think i was introverted bc I really liked being alone but it turns out I just like being at peace & I am very extroverted when I’m around people who bring me peace

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A lot of times I run to humans when I’m looking for answers, because I know they’ll give it to me right away. I am not a patient person. So, when I ask God a question I want it now. I want it so loud and so obvious that I can’t miss it. I’m coming to terms that God does not work this way. To hear him you have to listen. To be patient. He won’t always give you the answer you expect. He could give it to you in the form of breakup, sickness…. His answer could be in your pain. LISTEN.

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Madeline Art

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#Repost @ jayshetty (via @repostapp) ・・・ Tag someone who helps you grow👇notice it’s not I drain you, you drain me. So often we think relationships are one way and we drain someone’s energy. We have to realize also that the people we water may not water us back so it’s our responsibility to stay hydrated through others. 💯🙏🏼

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Humility, man. If I could teach all my friends this one thing. No matter how much you’re promoted or “blessing” in life, someone is always above you, even God. If you never stop being humble and you’ll never stop being blessed. God exalts the humble, resists the proud.

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The whole idea behind being a new creation, where old things have passed away and all things have become new is that you see Christ’s death as God declaring to you that through Him you died and through Him rose again a brand new person.

So some say, “Well, I thought it was just about going to heaven and escaping hell.” No, heaven is our destination but Christ-likeness is our destiny. If it was just about getting into heaven, we would have disappeared once we prayed the prayer. If you’re still here it means you have value here and purpose here, and remaining in tune with the why behind His love is what keeps you striving to fulfill His will while you are here and focused on those things that moves God’s heart rather than the things that tend to break yours.

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If true love and marriage is really, really importsnt to you then you’ll wait as long as you have to. The first thing love is is patient.