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“Carry On” and...Yikes.

Well clowns, looks like the clown calls were coming from inside the house this entire time.

I so desperately wish I wasn’t writing this right now.  I so wish that I could be writing something better, something joyful, something happy about this fifteen year journey with these characters.  It seems as though the show had other ideas, so in we go.

So…the dog was cool.  Also interesting that Dean was back to his breakup/grieving coping mechanisms: not making his bed, messy room, beer all over the place, Sam making breakfast, etc.

So I guess I better just start off with how…off this episode felt in regards to Dean specifically. Idk why he suddenly wanted a dog and Sam had no real interest in one, since the opposite has been true for, idk, fifteen years, but whatever, I was willing to let it go.

I thought the pie thing was a sweet scene, it was funny and nice and a good button on Dean’s pie thing.

Weird to, you know, bring up Cas and not mention his tragic ass deal and why he got got, but whatever.

I cannot physically believe that this MOTW aspect was, quite literally, so much of the plot.  Like…we figured that it was going to be an aspect, but for it to be SO MUCH?  Bruh.  I am such a fucking fool lmfao.

Again, cool to see Cas’ coat in the back.  Too bad it wasn’t addressed.

Jenny.  Bitch.  Come on.  Of ALL the villains in the FIFTEEN YEARS of Supernatural.  Jenny.  Who was in….one….episode.  Ok.

I mean that line about the high school thing was funny, I did laugh at that moment.  Fuck I love Dean Winchester.

I cannot believe I specced so much about the barn scene.  Are y’all telling me that “The Night We Met” is being claimed by……Sam and Dean.  Fuck off.

I mean, I thought Dean was going to die, and the scene actually did play out pretty similarly to how I thought.  It was probably the most powerful moment in the episode.  I am very glad that it was Dean’s choice, his choice and his peace to let go. 

“Let me look at you.  There he is.  I am so proud of you, Sam.”

I do love this, I love this because Dean is able to look at his work, the man that he raised, and tell him these things.  He was Sam’s parent, he raised Sam into the man he is today, and he should be damn proud of that.

I do love this most of scene, I really do, I love my boys, these brothers so damn much, and at least, at the very least, I have this scene of them.

Forehead touch was weird, I’m just gonna say it.

I feel like most of this episode was montages lol.  I mean I always hate sad Sam but at this point I still fully felt like we were going to get closure and we just…didn’t.

The Austin number was a cool detail, I liked that bc I picked up on it right away (since, you know, my phone is a 512 number lmao).

What a lackluster goodbye to the Bunker.  I had no clue that was going to be the last time we saw it ever.

FUCK AT LEAST I GOT MY DAMN HEAVEN BAR.

The scene with Bobby was nice, it was good to see him.  We did get our remade Heaven, that’s also nice to know.

“It ain’t just Heaven, Dean.  It’s the Heaven you deserve.”

He does deserve this.  An open Heaven, the people he loves, finally some peace, he deserves that, and I am glad that he got it.

Our second Cas mention.  Great.  Thanks guys.

I mean thanks Jim and Jensen for the microexpressions I guess lmao.

So I am supposed to believe.  That Dean.  Whose entire arc has been speaking his truth, specifically speaking his truth to Cas.  Where he has been stopped twice before this season.  Is going to just drive around in circles for forty years until Sam gets there?  Yeah, that’s gonna be a no from me, dawg.

And Sam gets married and has a kid that he names Dean, and the unspecified dark haired woman in the back of the ten minute montage is supposed to be enough for me to buy that it’s Eileen?  Bruh.

Also it’s BACK TO BACK MONTAGES???  WITH TWO VERSIONS OF CARRY ON WAYWARD SON?

Sam’s age makeup????  Hello????  AT FIRST THEY DIDN’T EVEN AGE HIM THEY JUST PUT HIM IN A WIG?????

That cover of Wayward Son did slap but was it enough?  No.

Even that bridge moment didn’t hit right because Sam didn’t cross it?  He was just suddenly there.

It just fucking sucks.  It sucks that their reunion doesn’t land right because they…didn’t do anything when they were apart.  Sam had his kid sure but Dean literally just drove around.  No mention of Cas or of Eileen.  Nothing.  So the last moment of this show I love feels tainted and hollow and just wrong.

It sucks.  I’m not going to lie.  But the worst thing about it?  Is that it doesn’t make any sense.  I have not spent two years of my life picking apart the writing rooms in Supernatural, lauding this current team for what they’ve accomplished for it to end like this.  I know many of you will regard me as a complete tinhat freak right now, but this, to me, does not feel like an episode that Andrew Dabb wrote.  Hell, it doesn’t feel like an episode of Supernatural.

None of the arcs were completed: Dean didn’t get to speak his truth to Cas, Sam never got to become the leader, the legacy hunter he was meant to.  We don’t see them with Cas or Eileen, we don’t even hear about them.

Listen, there’s a lot that…simply doesn’t add up to me.  First of all, the episode was SHORT, and most of it was montages. They had four montages AND the episode was only 38 minutes.  The series finale of the show was shorter than any other episode and had four multiple minute montages.  Okay.  Make it make sense.  Newsflash: it doesn’t, there is simply no way I can believe that there weren’t massive cuts and reworks done to this episode on an executive level.

I know there are people who will tell me that the writers are just bad and I need to accept that they gave me a shitty ending, but after all this time with this story, especially with Dabb’s arc, he just…doesn’t do shit like this.  His arcs are always complete, always tied up well, always have a button.  But this mess?  This confusing episode that left everything hanging with a cover of Wayward Son hanging in the air?  It just doesn’t add up to me.

This wasn’t the story they were telling, this hasn’t been the story they were telling all season, and I stand by that.

So, I sure do wish I could give you a better post. I wish that we had gotten something better.  I still, after everything, love this show, and will still be here in the morning.

Thanks guys.  Love y’all.

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I feel so bad for Jensen, Jared, and Misha who worked so hard on this show and tried to get us hyped for their last episode ever for us to just hate it and roast it to hell. Poor babies. You guys did great. It was just the story telling.

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are you fucking kidding me?????????

ARE YOU ACTUALLY FUCKING KIDDING ME

THEY HAD ALL THESE PEOPLE WITHOUT MASKS ON BUT COULDN'T BOTHER TO MAKE MISHA APPEAR FOR 2 SECONDS ON A SCENE ??????????? FUCK SPN WRITERS FUCK THEM

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absolutely fucking living for the imdb reviews for 15x20,,, it’s what they deserve 😙

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i hate that this isn’t even a “the show went on for so long it just had to end badly right??” scenario that some people less familiar with the show are suggesting. nah.

they had their perfect finale set up. all these latest seasons. they foreshadowed it, It was right there. even if they didn’t plan or do it intentionally (because now i know the writers never had any plan or common sense for that matter)- it was there. they had apparently broken the brothers’ codependency seasons prior. they had Cas reveal his love for Dean. they brought Eileen back and had her be with sam. They killed the author. Dean and Sam, together but finally free from the ties their story had over them, ride to… reunite with the family they formed along the way, and to live out the happy lives they always hinted at wanting, of course. i mean, what else??

but before, gotta bring Cas back, right?? the exact details as to how don’t matter. they brought him back so many times, in so many different ways already. whatever could work at this point. so you come up with whatever –Jack’s help, stolen grace, the fucking power of love, literally whatever– and that’s your plot for the ep, right?? after he is back, Dean is able to say he loves him too, thus reverting the whole ‘he is homophobic’ and 'bury your gays’ mess from before, maybe even the accusations of decades long queerbaiting because “we will never know if they planned it all from the beginning, right??” anyways, you give closure to their history together, making fans happy and having it trend because you just know they will let the world know it happened and you know people will go “did supernatural really do that??” and you maybe even gain new fans for the show with that one single 10-second scene in the final episode of a 15 year old show, an absolute feat!! because oh, you know, actual representation is where its at these days and the decade long fans will be content with crumbs at this point so. whatever if some fans are pissed! its the finale and they can go watch something else happily now!

moving on. dean and cas either carry on with the hunting life together, or retire and open a bar, a diner idc, maybe cas is human maybe not, maybe they become hunter consultants in a bobby-esque fashion?? while Sam, who always wished for something 'normal’, more domestic, marries Eileen (hey, more representation!) gets a dog (we don’t need to see them grow old, come on) and they, together, carry on with the men of letters legacy. or get into law school together idk??? the details dont matter!! you just let them be free. you let them be together. you let them live. you let them love. you let us know that you actually cared about these characters as much as we did the whole time by showing us that they went on to have long, fulfilling lives. without showing us their deaths.

because oh, we know they will die eventually, yes. but we don’t need more death right now!! you just need to let them carry on!! without them ignoring their past, nor their progress nor, like, literally everyone else they considered to be their family along the way. the original message of the show still holds, even more powerful now, even stronger: family dont end in blood. because you can find your family. and fight for them. love them. grow old with them. you can defy all odds and come out victorious on the other side, because of and for that love. and that’s your ending. roll credits and everyone’s happy!!

there, dabb. rewrote your shitty finale for you.

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What pisses me off most about the Supernatural finale is that things ended exactly where they started.

We had seasons upon seasons of the brothers and Castiel making their own choices, writing their own stories, going their own way. They defeated God, the ultimate author/puppeteer of the universe.

And yet...

Dean was daddy’s good little soldier to the very end. He died working a case his dad never finished with Sam having to watch as the life drained from Dean’s body. Fuck his character development. Let him die slowly and painfully and pitifully.

This is what 15 seasons culminated to. A circle. A fucking circle. Dean deserved to be free of his father’s bullshit, that cycle, his codependency with Sam. Hell, I would’ve even taken a non-Destiel ending if it meant the brothers could actually develop apart from each other.

But no, in the end, it was just them back where they started. Just two brothers. Not anyone else. No Jody, Donna, Ellen, Jo, Castiel, Jack, Rufus, Claire, Kaia, Adam. Barely any Bobby. No one.

The show claimed to be about family not ending with blood. And yet it did.

And fuck that.

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deans heaven sure is perfect and not missing anything!

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Jensen really said what we all were thinking during 15x20

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01x01 vs. 15x19

It ends the way it begins.

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Can we all just appreciate that Alex Hirsch, creator of Gravity Falls, was prank calling Republican voter fraud hotlines on November 6, 2020?

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My tablet’s still busted, but I wanted to do somethin cute for Halloween

Click to see what these silly ghosts are up to~

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“And then she smiled  That’s what I’m after  A smile in her eyes  The sound of her laughter…”

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Padparadscha from Steven Universe! I saw the new episodes about Off Colors yesterday and fell in love with Padparadscha, she is kinda cute.

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This was really fun to draw (Look at those tiny gay beans )