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06/23/24

It's been a while since I've had a weekend to myself. Ever since Kev's wedding and the graduation I've been booked every weekend.

I have to figure out what's wrong because I feel like I haven't been myself in a long time. It's like I'm stuck in a vicious cycle where I'll stay up late, wake up tired, not have enough alone time, and then rage stay up the next day. Maybe it's because I don't really have something I'm really dedicating myself to, compounded by some of my injuries.

Work feels like just another item on a todo list. When I first started working, everything felt new, and I was so motivated to learn from others and build something cool. Perhaps I'm just running the course of any job, but you see the same faces and do the same work where everything feels so repetitive.

The obvious fix is to just find a new job, but that takes an enormous amount of effort. When I was studying in 2022, it sucked the life out of me for five straight months and I still didn't feel ready. I've flirted with the idea of starting back up again recently, but I don't think I'm ready to carry the full mental load. I'm stuck at a crossroads where I'm a little discontent with where I'm at, but not discontent enough where I bite the bullet and start the process all over again.

Then there's the injuries. I feel like injuring my upper back was the best and worst thing to happen to me. It was terrible because it was painful and I lost the full range of motion for a lot of daily tasks. But it was eye-opening in that I understand kinesiology much better. I realized how awful just mindlessly going to the gym was.

I was simply focusing on weight, and I wasn't engaging the right muscles for most of the lifts. When it got too heavy, I'd use the wrong muscles to compensate and that real threw my body out of balance. It sounds so simple, but I realized you really need that mind-to-muscle connection. If I'm thinking about the exact muscle I want to work out, I'm probably doing it wrong. Weight is overrated, it's all about form.

Now, I've been really trying to focus on my posture. My thoracic spine is extremely stiff, so loosening that up should give my scapula and erector spinae more range of motion. My calves and hip flexors are also extremely tight, which pulls down my pelvis and causes anterior pelvic tilt. Then my deep cervical neck flexors are weak and constantly pulled forward by my tight chest. And on top of that, I have rounded shoulders which are probably because of my frozen pec minor and weak mid-back.

The cherry on top is that I reinjured my left ankle from DDR. I think I was trying some new technique where I keep my center of gravity lower, but I over bent my left ankle when I hit the back arrow. At least it's the same injury from 2021 so I know how to fix it, but it still takes time.

For the second half of the year, I really need to focus on and get my life together. I feel like for starters, I can

Set boundaries with work so I can really unplug

Dedicate a fixed amount of time for my nightly PT

Do something that makes me smile every day

Hopefully those give me enough peace so I can move my bedtime earlier and have the willpower to start up the studying.

There's also a lot to look forward to so I shouldn't be too bummed out. I'll be in LA next week, Vancouver in a couple of months, and then hopefully visit Japan in the fall.

But I still feel like I need to be working hard to deserve all that fun. It wasn't even my wedding but with it over, I hope I have the mental space to work on myself.