jonathanhcaldwell

[jonathanhcaldwell]

I can't look at couples, I can't hear about people in love, I can't even watch other people have sex. All that rings in my head is "what the fuck have I done wrong to not have had this for so long..."

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I'm beginning to lose faith in myself because it's been so long since I have convinced someone else to.

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I live in a perpetual lie in order to hide the fact that I may be in a perpetual state of depression.

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I think I play God to those around me in a never ending fleeting from boredom. It's a boredom I've created to keep myself from making any real commitment and a way to avoid facing the fact of my stark ostracization.

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I have such a strong drive to be with a woman right now. I think in part to my very biologic nature, but also because I believe if I have some grounding, she'll keep me from spinning into darkness.

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My days are filled with the cold isolation of my being alone in the world, and my nights are marked by my hanging onto the last few threads of sanity I have left...

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_Emelie. by *Bloddroppe

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Tattooed Blonde

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find out more about tattoos : http://bit.ly/1cFdzgg

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