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[joisapig]

Engaged with the love of my life!

28 March 2020.

Thank you for making me the happiest woman ever! For making me feel loved, secured and happy everyday!

[joisapig]

He makes me feel loved every single day.

Had my wisdom tooth extraction and my man bought me chocolate ice cream!

Wanted to try his friend’s beehoon briyani and he collected and delivered to my house!

When we went drinking at his friend’s house for Christmas exchange, there was this game suggested to be played. To suck a card and pass it on to next person’s lips. My man immediately rejected the idea. I was still like ooo interesting game but wasn’t going to comment. Hehehe.

And for Aslam’s wedding, he was asked to walk arm in arm with a bridesmaid but he didn’t want to because he wasn’t comfortable.

Homg, he’s purrrrrrfect! 😍

K la k la, we get one kitty first. Hehehe

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I smile everyday.

A stranger said you must be doing something right, because I always look so happy when with you.

So glad I found you my love 😍

[joisapig]

And as with each day I must say.

How incredibly blessed I am to have met you.

To hold you in my arms, and to call you mine.

To know that you choose me everyday.

From supporting me when I joined my new job.

From Phuket to Cameron with your #jialat friends.

Our 1 year anniversary staycation at whimsical which I left out! My gosh! 😍

From attending Zhimin’s wedding at Fort Canning.

From attending Aslam and Sabeera’s engagement party together.

From video calling me when I’m in Austin and singlehandedly getting us our house.

From surprising me at the airport when I landed back from Austin and helping with my luggages.

From surprising me at my place when you’ve an upcoming hectic work schedule.

Hasie, you are amazing and I will always choose you. 😍🖐🏾

[joisapig]

Baby, there’s so much to say.

You have my heart everyday.

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Yay

We had a great trip in Japan and walked a lot! Tokyo was awesome for shopping and Osaka was great for sightseeing! Lots of 7-11 food! 🤣

Tokyo - Shibuya, Shinjuku and Fuji Q highland: Owl cafe, Blue Bottle cafe, Gyu something restaurant, yummy bbq beef buffet, bars and crazy queueing plus express rides for tallest, steepest and fastest rollercoasters

Osaka - Nara park, USJ, Fushimi-Inari shrine, bamboo forest, Dotonburi and some high end shopping malls

Walk til you drop! Airbnb accommodations were pretty good except the first which was dusty. We shall explore Tokyo next time alone for a week. Then Osaka too to immerse in the culture. 😊

Oh and great news we have received, we got a unit!!! So we are going to be home owners in say 4-5 years?

Teehee. Gonna settle down with this awesome man next time and I can’t wait to have nights with him sleeping by my side for the rest of my life in time to come. Can 4-5 years just zoom pass already? 😳

Side note: Sometimes I ask stupid questions about random things which then make me uneasy or jealous. Wish I grow out of these and grow up. Be all cool.

Oh we watched Ready Player One which was super good about VR.

And yeah, started my new job at HA. Similar culture as Microsoft I will say. Much flexibility and friendly colleagues. Already had an exciting 2 weeks plus here. Hopefully, can learn quickly about my job scope to get the ball rolling for APAC.

I wanna eat carbonara! 🤭

[joisapig]

2018

It was a fun filled early 2018. Only three months into 2018, and I’m already having a blast with you love!

Jan:

We went to the carnival where we spent $256 catching all these toys and you looked so happy the whole night that it was all worth it. 😍

Celebrated your birthday early at Amara Sanctuary resort in Sentosa but was tad emo because it clashed with your course the next day. And yet, we had fun together playing in bath tub with bath bomb and eating macs before crashing.

Surprised you with domino’s lava cake and card on your actual birthday while you lepaked w friends 🤪

Thanks to AiA, we had Japanese bbq buffet in bugis plus. It was the super cold season and you were wearing cute sweater. Cook for me my man! 😍

We also went shopping for clothes! And you have many new shirts now. Heehee.

You brought me along for Kishaans birthday on a rocking boat and we went to Indochine to drink after. 🍻

We ate the expensive Sichuan food in hillion which wasn’t worth it. And ended up taking many selfies there.

We also went wine company to celebrate you passing your course to be a PM! 😎

Of course, with many udders along our dates!

Feb:

Early vday surprise from you with roses when coming to my house to chill because my parents were away teehee. I also tried cooking for you but kinda failed again. Luckily you and my bro were there to help out. Oh and yes! I love to see you falling asleep on my bed and I want you to be in my bed by my side always. 😍

Henderson hill top with Hermanos. My first time there! Great view for chilling. Thanks for having me ard no matter.

Staycation at Carlton City because it was your offs and vday kinda too. Or rather, I wanna be sleeping with you 😄 had the burger guys which was actually quite yummy after walking one big round ard tanjong pagar cos I cldnt decide what to eat. Heh 😅

Watched Black Panther at PS then we argued cos I got jealous over stupid issue, hahaha!

The loveliest you had some credits and you changed them for Grab voucher codes which you gave them to me in screenshot as well as two activities for us to enjoy together. One of which you took me already, prawning at Orto! Had great fun with you that day. You were looking so serious hehehe. My man! 😍

We also went prawning during CNY near kranji farm. And won some prizes. Lol! Angbaos and coke cans.

Went to bugis to eat Yoogane with your colleagues and went drinking after that at Arab street. Puked for the first time after 1 shot and 2 ciders. Weak af! LOL. Embarrassing. Hehe.

This time, we went to Henderson Waves to chill with Hermanos again after buying some Roti John and Teh Tarik hehe.

But really glad to be able to spend time w you during the CNY period. Teehee!

You wanted to go ECP although I was feeling lazy and thought it would rain but it didn’t and we made it! We cycled to marina barrage and it was really nice being up there with you. Watching people lazing around and flying kites. Heh. Then we had Arabian food at Satay by the Bay and stingray. Oops. Hehe.

Full body massage together at toapayoh. Then we ate w hamid at al azhar and OFOed back. Lol! Perspiring much.

Steamboat celebration with your colleagues at Ralph’s place. Yummy yummy and I dou after one whiskey shot. Nose leaking nonstop. So fail again :/

Mar:

I planned JB trip to go get stuff and so we stayed a night at Amari hotel. Great hotel stay. We went cat cafe and Banafe. Danced together in the hotel - Gashina! And bby wrote me a card. Hehehe. I sat on it etc. and I love it! Didn’t expect to get a card considering how busy you were. 😘 Had some local breakfast, toast and eggs early morning and watched Game Night before returning to SG. We OFOed back from yewtee. Cool stuff. Heh. Only regret is we never take any photo tgt there except this not v nice one below. But still, a memory. Haha!

Quarrel w bby as seen in earlier posts because of my birthday stuff. Oops.

Met you and your friends at HV for drinks at Indochine. Then supper at Al Azhar. Great night!

Today, you shared w me that you had rejected your female colleague to go JB for petrol pumping. So considerate. Hees. Even though you showed me the msges but I still teared cos I was jealous? Wtf jo. Haha. Damn fail. Luckily, I’ve an understanding boyfriend who knows me well. And he puts me first I guess. So what can I say about moving forward. Because he is always guiding me along. Girls, watch out and stay away because he’s mine! Get your own man. Teehee. 🤣 Anyway, we also watched Tomb Raider, tried beef cubes and ate coffee shop burger. Always a great day with you my love.

And we are gg to Japan next week! 😍

Amidst my time spent w my love, I also played mahjong w friends, rock climbed, played escape, makaned and etc! Glad to have those bunch of friends w me.

And sadly, I’m moving on from Microsoft. But I’ll never forget the culture and people there. Fun and great working environment! I hope the new workplace will be too. Need all the support I can get from bby. Wahaha :p

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GG

Even after everything, I still love you loads. And I need and want you always. We can do this! 🤭😳😚

*Most of the time you treat me well. Other times, we are just different.

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Fuck Birthdays

Last year, on vday and my bday, the man did nothing for me. We kinda quarreled because I expected something. He said these days mean nothing to him because he has differing views from most people.

They are just another day.

And that is why, relationships fail. People don’t bother celebrating or do anything anymore for one another. Slowly, nothing is done and everyday is just like another day. Flames get lost. No more excitement. Nothing to look forward to. Nothing is special anymore because everyday is just like another day. Even a day that means something to me, he cld said that I’m forcing him to do something for me.

This year I did nothing like that. All I wanted was a simple lunch. He cldnt even bother to reply my morning messages BUT YET he replied his friends. All three other msges except mine. And no, he has no explanations as to why he did that. And yes, I’ve no reasons to be upset with him because he’s sorry and it’s already over. We can’t turn back time. That’s all. And because it’s on my birthday, I felt extra upset about the effort done. And we had a quarrel as if it is all my fault because I’m not supposed to feel worse.

And, guess what? He told me:

If your this special day is of such importance to you. That's your opinion. Please don't force that on me.

If you think I'm being unreasonable than we have an issue.

Who will type something like that outright to your partner’s face after apologizing for not msging first? That’s just too damn hurting and obviously, making a point to me that hey it’s your birthday and so what? It meant nothing to me so stop your nonsense. Your birthday doesn’t mean anything.

But the point is, he can’t accept that it means something to people.

When all I actually wanted was just for him to celebrate my birthday with me. To know it means something to me and he will celebrate it with me. It’s simple as that. We can have a simple meal. And tells me he loves me. That’s all. A super loved and nice feeling I will get. Him making me feel special on my “special” day. But nope, he has to msg everyone else but me then argue and make his point on how this special day is none of his concern so stop forcing it on him.

He made my birthdays awful and miserable so far.

May be we really do have issues like he said because I’m unreasonable in his opinion. We really are different then. And these issues only really surface like today.

I don’t know how to move forward from here or get past this. I just want to leave and run far away. Because I am hurting. When shit happens, I don’t know how to deal with it. I just want to be with someone who makes me happy and put in effort because he knows what makes me happy.

But today, I’m really fucking disappointed. Just like last year.

Another year of disappointment over similar matters.

How do I let go? I can’t turn back time. And nothing will change.

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We did a lot in the month of December.

Boracay trip where we scuba dived together for the first time. Cliff jumping at Ariel’s Point. And just spending time with each other. Although you fell sick due to middle ear syndrome, you’ve a great attitude. I will wish to learn more from you. I believe I would have sulk or whine and spoil the mood of ours if I were in your shoes but you, you’re different and great. You were calm as usual and your temper was awesome even though you’re unwell. And I got to look after you! Hehe. My best partner!

We went JB together with my JC friends. You were so accommodating and chilled throughout. Much effort of you to join us. And I must say I really appreciate it. And I enjoyed all the time with you even as such. When I see you hanging out with my friends because they’re my friends and you’re trying, I felt touched.

Then we hung out with your friends at OCC. Awesome night it was! Drinking we were and bowling. Even though I sucked at it, you were totally giving me tips and encouraging me throughout. Couldnt believe I even hit a 94 points for the final score. You’re quite a bowler yourself my hot stuff. Heh, one thing that you beat me at. Your friends are nice and funny and I like them!

From Christmas to New Year were the times when I get to crash at your place for the first time and spent time with you. We cooked our first meal together, spaghetti with beef bacon in mushroom soup. And also breakfast corn beef with bread!

Oh one of the days, we also had a quarrel because we have different views and had a miscommunication. I wanted to meet you at 1.15am and when you said you were leaving at 1am, I couldn’t comprehend why you would go off so late. You tried to find out why I was feeling how I was and I explained my view while you yours but we just have different thoughts that’s all. And I’m glad we managed to understand the different perspectives and move on with it because it really is not a big deal after all. You were definitely so hot when you were high. And I so wanna squish you which I probably did. How can I be angry when you didnt walk away from me even though you were mad at me being unreasonable. You were totally trying hard to make things right and you were so damn cute when doing so because you were high. Hehehe. Argh! My love!!

It was a good Christmas and New Year spent with us just slacking in your room and watching some shows. I didn’t feel neglected but instead I watched the shows with you as you do indeed have good taste! Even finished the Mist then! And I noticed that even when you were watching. Now and then you would check on me.

Oh not to forget, you made me wash my feet before going into your room and I love it! So clean and hygienic my man is. And you also helped me hang my towel always!! Cleaned up your room so it wouldn’t make me feel uncomfortable due to allergies. Removed other girls’ photos from your room’s board which I didn’t request. Not vaping when you could. Everything! May seem small and simple. But it all amounts to love.

Thanks for loving me the whole of 2017. And this 2018, I wish of nothing else but you in my life always. 😘

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What can I say except that I love you!

Hahaha! Wanted to try a Moana song lyrics but realized I got it wrong. It was except that you’re welcome!

Bby and I had a staycation on 10.11 at Bencoolen! The place was just fine and we slept in the noon for a while then went to The Lab for dinner again! I love the food there! Amazing as usual! Hehe. And the next day, we had the entire pool to ourselves before checking out! Sexyback bby has! 😍

After staycay, we headed home and prepared to go for Ed Sheeran’s concert on 11.11 with my friends! It was amazing! Ed Sheeran was rocking the stage even though his arms were supposedly broken few weeks back! Lucky us to still catch him LIVE! Clever bby guessed the opening song right! Castle on the Hills!

Bby asked me to go to his friend’s engagement party on 18.11 and I was really happy that he asked me along. Meant a lot to me! :)

And the day before that he actually asked me to the beach on the same day as the engagement and I was like “Whatttt? Is he crazyyyy? Won’t we be too shag after?” But because I’m spontaneous, so YES anyway! Hahaha, or rather because he sounded so mysterious and fun that I got excited and definitely I want to go! He planned something for us!

So we went to Sentosa supposedly the beach but turned out, he brought us to Sentosa Adventure Cove! Hehe! Surprise! Knew he was up to no good. But so wonderful! I’ve always wanted to go there and he brought me there! Was so excited and we rushed through many rides together! So fun! And he pushed me chilling on the float down the Lazy River and naughty him always let the water hit my everywhere! Tsk. Hehe. Great morning with good weather!

And we ate subway, rushed home after to prepare to head to his friend’s engagement party. All the way to Tampines and it was quite nice to see his whole clique with partners. The dinner was good too! My first under block experience. Teehee.

We then went onto Holland Village’s Indochine. 1 for 1 errday! Are you shitting me! Great deal man! 🤣 Had a fun night ending at McDonald’s with his friends!

I had my DnD and my love had been really patient and gone shopping with me for my dress! In the end, we found one at H&M for $18 only! What a great deal indeed since I was only likely gonna wear once! Also, he accompanied me to mustafa to get my accessories with my colleague. We went for some mutton murtabak after at Al Azhar and teh tarik! Also, this guy uh, listened to me go back and forth nonstop thinking if I should get the black satin gloves without getting impatient with me at all. Haha! Even offered to go collect it from raffles and deliver to my office if I really want to wear the gloves for DnD. Tell me how lucky I’m please to have this love? 😊

Oh and also congrats for completing your course! YAY! Happy for you! Now you don’t have to stay in so far at Yishun and no more 8-5 on weekdays. Back to shift work for you! But I sure am gonna missed the weekends spent although I know for sure you will always make time for me no matter! So it’s all gooood! 😍

Also, we are probably gonna try to BTO in Feb since the location was pretty good for transports etc. Ahh! I’m really quite excited about that and hopefully, all will go well! 😊❤️

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From a million things to my everything.

Cycling from ECP to Changi that killed our asses.

Going Macritchie for a walk in the noon followed by Adams food center and some sleeping in the noon to our spaghetti dinner at Timah.

Scaring me throughout USS Halloween but yet holding me close to you while we tried all the haunted houses as well as some rides.

Clubbing with me and my colleagues on 3 nov 2017 at Altimate where we first met after your dinner and pub with your own colleagues. Dancing together was hell of a fun tbh because it felt like you only had eyes for me. And as usual, you’re always looking so handsome from head to toe. Kissing me passionately despite my colleagues being around made me felt that you were proud being together with me, proud of me and proud of us. I felt like the luckiest woman ever. Not to forget piggybacking me when my feet hurts to McDonald’s. And all my hormones raging for you when you touched me. Gosh, what a night indeed.

Working with me in Starbucks or anywhere else when I was “working from home” and just spending time together doing our own work/you looking and laughing at your handphone’s videos which I always secretly see that makes me smile.

Talking to me always about everything and anything including going backpacking or traveling alone which you said you won’t go if I don’t like it (It’s unbelievable and amazing because I’ve never had someone who respected my opinions and cared abt how I felt so much except you. And I always truly feel I matter a lot to you. I will say you taught me much and keep our relationship healthy and I love you for that, amongst everything else)

Accompanying me shopping and making me try clothes. So much patience the whole time choosing and checking me out on my phone (Ended up getting a bikini, jeans and white sleeveless)

Discuss with me if I’m okay that you’re gonna be guarantor for your friend’s bike. (Many thumbs up for you indeed!)

Just too many things we did together, and I couldn’t even pen them all down. Not to forget the things you said, or have done for me. All the times that you have talked patiently and calmly to me. Helping me see things in other ways. Assuring me about everything else because I’m a kanchiong spider. What can I say but that you’re a star. You light up my life and make us shine. 🌟❤️

And we still have so many great plans and trips coming up ahead together which makes me so excited and happy. Life is never a dull moment with you.

Seriously I really can’t count how lucky I am to actually have you in my life. And there’s not a single chance I’m going to give this or you up in any way. Because I know I want you all the time. And I will choose you over and over again. Always.

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I am of value

I guess one of the things that I love most about this relationship is how he makes me feel valuable.

When someone treasures you or sees you as an equal, he treats you with love and respect.

And your relationship grows.

One significant moment was a conversation we had when I asked H randomly if he will like to go out with my friends and I to Halloween USS.

He was alright to go but I was afraid he might not want to but was doing it for my sake. Turned out he wanted to go. This showed how important communication is. I was assuming while he was just saying what he wanted

So when he brought this up to share with me, it was quite interesting. He said if he didnt want to go, he wouldn't have. At first, it sounded like woah no negotiations or talks with this guy. If he doesn't want means nope. So I said wow means I would have to beg you to go with me if I really want you to go. See me assuming again?

But guess what his response was? He looked me in the eyes and said: "Nope, you don't have to beg. You just have to ask and I would have gone for you."

So simple his response was yet so powerful. I was very much impressed then and it just makes me feel loved.

Simple words can mean so much sometimes.

Avan romba amazing irukan!

[joisapig]

This human of mine

Had our 5th staycay together at Hotel Fort Canning. Lovely stay but poor baby had flu due to the room being dusty. However, the room was still amazing in my opinion! Check out the bed and bathroom!

Our bed with rose petals arranged for us, HAHA!

Love the huge bathtub that can fit both of us. We threw the rose petals into the bathtub where we soaked our night away and drank alcohol together.

This time round we didnt get nuggets as we were so full from dinner at The Lab SG. Baby has his burger while I was choosing between 3 dishes and asked him to pick one for me.

He got me the smoked salmon pesto spaghetti! And guess what? He asked them to add chili padi for me! So much love for this man who knows what I love. And best part was that I myself forgot about it but he remembered!

Most of our time spent together is considered quality time. Just lying on bed together and using our phones, it is blissful to have him so close to me. I wish this feeling will stay with us forever if it is not too much to ask for.

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Stronger

We broke up. We made up. And hopefully, we come back together as one even stronger and better than before. 🖐🏾

Had our 4th staycay at Grand Park City Hall hotel in end July. Love that place. Although it was under renovation, there was not much noise thanks to the room location we were given I guess. It was so awesome that we stayed in most of the time and it became a sleepcation! 🤣

The king size bed. So huge and yet I always stick close to H when we sleep. 😍

And our lovely toilet for the staycay.

Oh and not to forget our usual drinking session with 20 pc nuggets! But the Glenfiddich had gone bad. 😅

H also brought me to Pan Pacific to try the Beef and Reef buffet recommended by Iron Lady chef but we both found it to be okay only. I like the crepe most. 🤦🏽‍♀️ But it was great fun hanging out with love always.

Tada! A night to remember. He peeled prawns for me! 🤣❤️

Ah. We also had lunch not too long ago at Tomyum Mama. The food was good and there is no GST or service charge! Woot!

Although I had the tomyum claypot mama noodle, I still like H's crab meat fried rice more! It has a tinge of spice in it. The spicier the better though! Hehe! Green milk tea was great!

I have had many wonderful times w H! Not forgetting our naughty times together, movies, long walks, "wfh" with him or even just video calling each other in the nights. It is indeed a very nice feeling to be loved and to love someone. Like H said, a reciprocal love. I hope he never gives up on us again. Gee.

Next up, Hotel Fort Canning staycay tomorrow. Can't wait! To lie in his arms again! The man of my life. 😳

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Wise words

"If he doesnt try even like now, whats to say when the road gets tough You can be there for him but who will be there when you need support It just means he's not the one Everyone keeps trying till they find the right one Keep trying, don't give up"

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All lies

And today you broke my heart again.

I don’t even know how to talk to you anymore. I really want to message you. I really wish that you will tell me that everything is alright and that you’re just being emotional. But somehow, I don’t think you will do anything because you are just you. You run away because you are scared.

You ruined what we had and what was worse was that you didn’t even bother to try. Like I’m nothing to you. Just like that. You haven’t even tell your parents anything and you bail. I would have never bail on you. And I was serious about you. But I don’t think you were now.

I thought we were happy together. I knew I love you and it’s not even about you being cute. I love you for you.

I really didn’t see this coming as I just got back from my holiday and were all excited to meet you. I thought you were too. We were supposed to hang out together and in the end, you just threw that in my face. Why can’t you wait? Why cant we have a little more time together? What’s the difference with hurting now and after? Have you ever consider how I feel or you don’t ever think for others?

I only asked how the talk was because I wanted to find out more about interfaith relationships so I can understand how you feel and we can grow together. You told me we can always talk and work things out and I believed in that. I believed in you.

But no, you talked to your friends and read stuff online and decided to just go with the norm instead of communicating with me. I really thought you were different and I could trust you.

You’re just a coward and hypocrite.

It must be so damn easy to get laid, to smoke, to get drunk and get tattoos going behind your parents back. No commitments. Single and free.

But so hard for you to love someone of a different faith, that you didn’t even bother trying and backed out right away.

Because you are afraid. You cannot handle reality and hardships. You find the easy way out which is to escape.

How can someone ever love a man like you?

When the whole world turns against me, you will never stand by me. Because you only care for yourself and the people around you except me. You will never ever protect me or fight for me.

You are just like any other men. You are selfish. And you only love yourself.

Don’t tell me you love me because you don’t. You never did.

I’m so disappointed in you.

Baby you are a liar.