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oh, to fly with you again

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YALLLLLLLLL

I finished another one💅🏼✨

ALSO letting yall know that i wont be posting as much art anymore considering that im starting school tmrw and i wont have a lot of free time BUT i’ll do my best to try and work on shutff :D

BYYEEE

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yass you tell her queen

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I love it

throws up

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kick her out of the webtoon, feed her to the phantoms, please?

her "son"

The first time Jessica Clark looked at the baby swaddled in her arms, she didn't feel anything. Not the pain from the pregnancy that happened ago. Not the usual overwhelming feelings a mother had when she laid her eyes upon her newborn.

Not love.

Daniel Clark stood at her side. His face was blank, too. Their eyes slowly met each others'.

"I wanted a daughter," Jessica said.

+++++

Maybe she was too young when she had her child, the boy, her "son," named Aiden. Was that--he--really hers?

Sometimes she felt guilty, even a bit regretful. She didn't like when the child followed her around, calling her "Mama" and "Mom." She wasn't his parent. She was just someone who gave birth.

She knew Daniel wasn't really happy, either. The child was restless, always moving and making a mess. In their pristine house, she hated when he made messes. Why couldn't the child just stay still? Why couldn't he just...be quiet?

+++++

She and Daniel decided to leave for a week. Just a week, nothing more, nothing less. Maybe if the child learned to live on his own, he could stay while she and her husband went somewhere else. After all, it'd be good for them.

Right?

They left in the middle of the night. The child was still sound asleep in his room.

When they came back, the house was a mess. The toys were strewn everywhere, the child's bed was unmade, and the door was left open.

Why was the child like this?

Why couldn't he just be normal?

Why did she even have him, anyway?

They found him asleep in their bed, eyes closed but streaming with tears.

"Mama...Papa..." he was saying, voice shaking.

Jessica wanted to yell.

She wasn't his mother.

+++++

The child soon turned older in a flash. His eyes were dark, matching his hair.

But one weekend, he came home with his hair bleached and his eyes rust red.

Why couldn't you just be normal? Jessica wanted to scream as he entered. Why couldn't you be like any other kid?

When his eyes met hers, they startled her.

Not just because of the red.

His eyes were empty.

+++++

As he continued growing, Jessica managed to call him by his first name. She got used to it, but sometimes it felt alien in her mouth.

She wanted a daughter, but instead she got a son.

She wanted a normal child, but there seemed to be something wrong with him.

She wanted to leave this house, but she felt the need to stay.

As long as she didn't interact with the child, things would be normal.

After all, he wasn't really hers. Just because she called him her "son," that didn't mean she had to think of him as one.

Right?

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Summary: Taylor celebrates her quncieñera, a big party for Latinas when they turn 15 but remembering who she lost spoils the mood.

Author's notes: PERHAPS LISTEN TO AMOR ETERNO BY ROCÍO DÚRCAL WHILE READING, based on those really sad quince videos I always see. The meaning of this song being watered down to losing a lover and not her losing her son is my thirteenth reason why.Fuck it we die like Tyler 🗣️

Amor eterno

The day was joyful before Taylor laid her eyes on the picture In Front of her. She felt gorgeous in every aspect, her dress was everything she dreamed of and more, her venue was decorated just like the images from her Pinterest board she made all those years ago she so happily name “quince ideas”, her friends there to enjoy this milestone in her life, even Ashlyn was enjoying herself, she did have to keep her headphones on the entire time due to the noise, but she enjoyed herself regardless. It felt perfect all the way through and she couldn't feel more grateful to her friends (more specially Aiden and his parents for making her quncieñera possible.) But her mood was ruined when she was called up to do her father daughter dance.

One of the most important events of the night and that's when she finally got nervous. Her hands shook ever so slightly but Taylor swore she'll be brave. Her mom gave her a gift while looking at her with a sorrowful look. It reminded Taylor of how she looked before her mother started getting better, being present in their lives. It was covered by Sage green wrapping paper, just like her dress. The gift itself was obvious just by the looking at the shape, she's seen it a million times before but this feels too real. The music starts playing the moment she starts tearing the wrapping paper off to reveal a picture of Taylor and her father when he was still alive. It was the last photo taken before he died as well. Just looking at the photo made her tear up but she tried to continue.

She held the photo in her arms, slowly turning around while swaying. She couldn't hear anything else around her, only the sound of her thoughts telling her not to cry but she just couldn't hold it any longer and felt her knees go weak, falling to the ground. She let go of the framed photo letting it fall to her knees, while she held her face in her hands as she began to cry, thinking of what could have been if her father lived. While Taylor hadn't noticed or cared about the people watching her they all showed clear sympathy for the girl but none knew exactly what to do. None except Tyler.

He got up from his seat as fast as he could to go hug the girl crying on the ground. Taylor hadn't realized this until she felt his arms around her quickly looking up. Once she recognized who it was Tyler slowly pulled her back up onto her feet, placing the photo gently to the side. This time he put her hand on his shoulder and her other hand holding his, dancing with her in place of their father. Upon this realization Taylor pulled Tyler into a hug, arms now around his shoulders instead. What Taylor couldn't see was her brother also shedding tears of his own while holding onto her and staring at the photo of her and their dad that lay on the floor behind them. Taylor spoke barely above a whisper with the loud sound of the music but Tyler still heard it,

“thank you, for everything”

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now see

you can’t do that to me

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me trying to get out of literally any social activity

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P.2 of the previous drawing lol

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what the hell do i caption this hi guys

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i think the sbg kids listen to mitski. all of them. logan probably cries to i bet on losing dogs. taylor does a little jig to strawberry blonde. tyler screams the lyrics to geyser extra loud. aiden claps along to washing machine heart at 3 in the morning. ben has a spiritual connection to francis forever. ashlyn probably falls asleep to last words of a shooting star.

see what i mean

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im still laughing at this

i will forever thank @stillfrownyclownlol for letting us know of this beauty

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my friends thought this was hilarious so

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ASHLER HEADCANONS

(i’m giving myself a break from my fic today so this is how I compensate)

How did they realise they caught feelings?

— I imagine these two to be veeeeery slowburn for a lot of reason, as in, they get together in their senior year of High School or even maybe after in college.

— Ashlyn is pretty out of touch with her feelings, It took her a while to differentiate between romantic and platonic sentiments towards people and even then, she sucked at handling it. I see her as the type to fall for someone without even realising and dismissing her feelings as being 'oh we're really good friends!' It took a sleepover with Taylor (who has been trying -and failing- to set her brother and Ashlyn together for a while now) to realise that she had a crush on Tyler. I think the two of them would have had a long conversation about it (I honestly see Taylor as someone who's really in tune with emotions) and even then, her realising turned out to be more of a bad thing because things became awkward and Ashlyn essentially avoided any one-on-one interaction.

— Tyler on the other hand, had known about his feelings for Ashlyn for a while now but had chosen not to do anything about it, simply pushing it aside in order to prioritise his family and focusing on staying alive in the phantom realm. Besides, there was no way Ashlyn would reciprocate when all she did nowadays was act weird with him.

What was their first date?

— Their first date was at an amusement park: I firmly believe that Tyler fell first but Ashlyn would fall harder and eventually, there would be a point where she gets fed up with the lack of confrontation and decides to actually do something about the unsolved tension.

— Taylor had gotten it into Ashlyn’s head that to confess there had to be some over-the-top, extravagant declaration of love and had been restlessly prodding Ashlyn to ask her brother out because “the idiot wasn’t going to do it himself.” The plan was for the two to hang out at the theme park all day and then finally go on a Ferris wheel ride where Ashlyn would admit her feelings and if she was lucky, Tyler would reciprocate and save her from total embarrassment and if not? Well, there goes trying to eliminate the awkwardness but at least Ashlyn tried.

The catch to this plan, you may ask?

Tyler was deathly afraid of heights. Like a cat in water afraid of heights. Will freak out afraid of heights.

It was a new fear that he had contracted after he died in the phantom realm that he had never actually gotten around to telling Taylor, mainly because she was a massive thrill-seeker and enjoyed anything height related and so he didn’t want to strip that enjoyment from her, he wanted to make her happy and experiences her joys with her, trauma be damned. Still, if he had a choice he would avoid it.

That was until his totally-not-a-crush-crush walked up to him ( looking as gorgeous as ever) and batted her pretty, little lashes, asking him out to an amusement park just the two of them and who the hell was Tyler Hernandez to say no to such a goddess? (he was such a weak, weak man for her it was disgusting) .

Besides, there was more to amusement parks than rollercoaster rides, right? And Ashlyn didn't look like the type to be chasing after the adrenaline of high rides so he would simply divert her from any high rides, that wouldn't be so hard?

— Anyway, after hours of Hell and successfully keeping Ashlyn away from every rollercoaster waiting line (“pfft, I’ve went on these rides way too many times, they’re soooo boring trust me!”) Tyler found himself enjoying the day, he got to sneak glances at Ashlyn when he thought she wasn't looking and got to spend time with his crush and maybe, just maybe he could be content with small moments like this for the rest of his life, his crush obviously wasn’t planning on fading anytime soon but now, he could admire from afar, even if she did kick his ass at shooting games.

— Unfortunately, all luck comes to end eventually she practically dragged him to the ferris wheel. He tried to get out of it by saying “it’s boring, only grannies go on those!” But for some reason she was entirely fixated on that ride and that one alone.

— A normal person, at this stage would admit to hating tall rides and save their dignity and sanity but Tyler Hernandez had a date and a reputation to maintain, so if Ashlyn Banner wanted to go on a ferris wheel, he was going on a ferris wheel.

— And that confidence lasted around two seconds because as soon as they got into the air, Tyler became eerily silent, something that confused Ashlyn because normally the boy wouldn’t shut up. She glanced down and noticed that he seemed to be digging his nails into the seat so hard Ashlyn was sure it would leave marks. There was something wrong with him, it was clear as daylight but everytime Ashlyn tried to bring it up Tyler would shrug it off dismissively and make some snarky quips to reassure her (spoiler alert: it didn’t work).

— Eventually they reach the very top, the “pinnacle of romance” (as Taylor liked to put it), this was Ashlyn’s shot; she would clear the air and get rid of the stupid bug that annoyed her every time Tyler was in her vicinity. And so, she starts talking incredibly fast in 2x speed, trying earnestly as all her pent up feelings and frustrations to the boy come spilling out infront of him.

— Unfortunately, Tyler was too busy counting sheep in his head to try and catch any of what Ashlyn was saying, never mind her incredibly fast speed. Though he did catch the last part of "-and now I think I might be in love with you" and suddenly, the air was cut off from his lungs. He paled at the realisation -and also partially because he was trying to not puke-: Ashlyn Banner, that stupid idiot, liked him back, in more than a friend way!

— For a while, the two of them just stared, Ashlyn looked like a deer caught in headlights and Tyler really wished Taylor or Aiden were here to pinch him. And then- well, he ended up wretching on the ferris wheel, the rest of the ride ended up being Tyler alternating between freaking out and becoming nauseous and Ashlyn panicking while trying to help and regretting her previous life choices.

— Afterwards, Ashlyn was pretty sure that vomiting was a clear indication of an unreciprocated crush so she honestly planned on running away and getting her parents to pick her up or something. Her plans were paused when Tyler stopped her by the wrist and pulled her towards his chest, Ashlyn could feel his hands shaking around her.

— "You're so stupid, I'm so stupid and- I think I might be in love with you too."

— And that was that.

Do they indulge in PDA?

— short answer: No.

— Both of them are the type to cringe and make fun of people who engage in excessive PDA so it’s no surprise that they’re pretty averse to it themselves. The most you’ll see these two do in public is touch shoulders or sit next to each other (or maybe if you’re lucky, you get to watch Ashlyn dragging Tyler by the arms away from a fight.)

— I think it would take at least 3 weeks for them to kiss after dating and Ashlyn would be the one to initiate.

— They’d be bickering one day and Ashlyn would just shut him up spontaneously by tugging his shirt forward and tiptoeing up for a kiss. Tyler would be surprised at first, his eyes wide open and looking down in surprise but eventually he just melts and it takes a minute for them to part.

— “Shut.” kiss “The.” kiss “Fuck.” kids “up.” would be a thing Ashlyn does everytime he pipes up a little bit too much. Whether it be over something stupid like a comic they’re both reading or something else, it would probably lead into a make out session afterwards.

— Tyler’s the type to walk up to her sometimes, play with her bangs and then lift it up for a little *smooch.* It’s mostly because he enjoys the way she goes red like a tomato every time. One time he did it in public after a baseball match or something and Ashlyn froze, she could not speak for an hour and it seemed like her face and ears were permanently coloured red. Aiden had found it funny and took a picture of it which is actually saved as her profile picture now.

— All of their intimacy is in private though, most of the time people would be surprised to find out they’re dating. The popular jock and the loner who never talks? But don’t they ever only argue?

Dates?

— I personally think their dates would mostly be stay-at-home dates.

— Ashlyn hates going out and Tyler doesn’t mind, so it works.

— Examples would be cooking dates, movie nights (that would inevitably get crashed by the others), little dinners together etc.

— They strike me to have very casual intimacy, so like grocery shopping together would also be considered a date for them.

— The mundane is openly enjoyed and celebrated!

Other random headcanons I have:

— Tyler has gradually become Ashlyn’s go-to hair stylist, especially for more formal events like ballet recitals. She was honestly shocked the first time he did her bangs and now feels entitled to getting it down whenever she pleases (compensation for all his moaning). Tyler grumbles about it and pretends to hate it but swatts his hand away every time Ashlyn tries to take over, he secretly really likes working with her hair because he’s never practiced on such long hair and so gets to experiment with more styles.

— When they become old enough to drive they’re both the drivers in the relationship. In the group and by themselves. Everytime they have to share a car they play rock, paper, scissors to avoid an argument over it.

— They have pretty similar music tastes. Idk I can feel it.

That’s all I can think of for now! If you have any other headcanon/scenario requests feel free to drop an ask!

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me going to bed knowing i stayed up till midnight reading sbg on my phone, and if my parents find out im in deep crap, but also knowing it was worth it and i would (and will) do it again

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Welcome to your obligated dose of incorrect quotes!

Aiden: oh complain, complain! You know, when life gives you lemons—

Tyler: I COMPLAIN ABOUT THE LEMONS!

Ashlyn: can you suggest me a book that made you cry?

Ben, typing on his notes app: general mathematics 6th edition.

Taylor: how do you tell someone their mouth stinks without being rude?

Aiden: I’m bored, let’s drink mouthwash.

Tyler: what do you have planned for the future?

Ashlyn: lunch.

Tyler: I meant long term.

Ashlyn: dinner.

Aiden: which is correct, seven and five IS thirteen or seven and five ARE thirteen?

Logan: neither, because it’s twelve.

Tyler: in your opinion, what’s the height of stupidity?

Ashlyn, turning to Aiden: how tall are you?

Aiden: if Ben and I were drowning, who’d you save?

Ashlyn: you two can’t swim?

Aiden: it’s a hypothetical question, Ash! Who would you save?

Ashlyn: my time and effort.

Taylor: you have to apologise, Tyler!

Tyler: fine.

Tyler: ‘unfuck you’ or whatever.