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if you’re not paying attention to trees and how they sway in the wind then what are you even doing

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Got bored love editing random shit

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Wondering souls lost beauty

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Got bores while friend passed out

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Just another day

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🎶A side note, I’m rootin’ for you, I use these bars and start recruitin’ for you But treat her right And just remember, on your lonely nights this mic will be your friend You tell it all your secrets that you keepin’ deep within Your fantasies, regrets, your happy moments and your sins And if he doesn’t comprehend, at least he can pretend🎶 https://www.instagram.com/p/CJ7DIRWA5DM/?igshid=1cgduy3gf5gnc

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🎶A side note, I’m rootin’ for you, I use these bars and start recruitin’ for you But treat her right And just remember, on your lonely nights this mic will be your friend You tell it all your secrets that you keepin’ deep within Your fantasies, regrets, your happy moments and your sins And if he doesn’t comprehend, at least he can pretend🎶 https://www.instagram.com/p/CJ7DIRWA5DM/?igshid=1cgduy3gf5gnc

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U told me to write so now I type wondering why these walls were built. Over analyzing on a constant basis but only with logic.

No feeling behind the thoughts or the action, just motions and searching for understanding with out fully choosing to care.

The air I breath is not my oxygen

for the life I live is not living at all, its waiting and drifting in and out of inebriation holding on to a sliver of hope prying u make it out alive.

The air I breath is not my oxygen

for the the person I am and have been is not for me, this was not my plain but it was my outcome.

Today I breath for the first time, and this air is not for me but for the ones I forgot about before,

This breath is the first expansion of new born lungs wanting nothing more but to grow!

Today the fight begains again I hear the bell round 2 begans

This was the first thing I ever wrote i was struggling with addiction while starting over with the mother of my first two sons I wrote this after I relapsed and she took the kids and left.

4 years have gone by and she has taken her own life Sept 11 2020

She kept me fighting back then and I wish I could have done the same for her no matter what problems we ever had

R.I.P

Heather E Savage

I miss you and I'm sorry

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No more lies and no more games, you play me a fool but I know your ways,

Your swear that its truth you swear your being honest, but the story always changes and your eyes reveal it all, you forget i know your soul to its core.

I wish i understood what you get out of destroying me some more, I only felt love for you you only feed on pain. As much as it kills me i must forget your name, I must do my best to block out your voice to erase your face and remember your choice. You choose to hurt me time and time again, until your ugly lies kill our future in the end

I'll always love her but I can no longer handle this pain 💔 I wish this was different but if I continue ill never breathe again.

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Longing for the lady I lost

You say you're tired of hurting me now you set me free I say I love you, you say it back but your actions don't say the same. Mistakes from me only once were ever made and for any chance I could've helped your mind you'd turned to someone else. Mistakes you made and never changed even after the 1000th time, the other man u chose to date in the middle of us trying, again making promises with those beautiful loving eyes. You say you get it u say u know, you tell me Im the victim and refuse to see my role. But I know my dark I knew my shame I became explosive with every hint towards his name and hours left ignored pudhed me within darkened thoughts and lies when you arrived which later admitted would overwhelm me so. Changing this heart of love and transformed it into devil's spit breathing fire with words that stained your soul and even broke your spirit. Yelling louder the vile titles and names you should never have had claimed growing with intensity I still curse upon his name. Back and forth u went between but swore to me to try with all your love and all your might to cut out this other guy, our family you said to me deserves a honest committed chance and everything you asked of me to approach id quickly attempt to advance with a full fledged effort every single day. You said u loved me and appreciate, all that I had done and now that I had changed for u finally you would for me but like every other time it took 2 days for you to dissapeare not a word or call with out warning at all you would vanish like thin air and just as I suspected your with this guy once again pretending your promise was never made.

the heart you choose is immature disrespectful and plays life like it's a game the heart you shattered haf grewn for you with open mind and it constantly would change I can't understand the choices you made but my soul I wishes that you didn't because even tho my heart should know you already crossed its limits. It still longs for u to just come back home and rest upon my chest with our boys behind you our family smiling with forgiveness we would forget. And actually be the mates of souls u told me Im the closest you will ever get and we'd lay in bed legs tangled in knots forever in love again.

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Simple quirks and lovely words lost in thought but found by you. My mind recognised us and so did my heart but one false step made may pull us apart. If the distance begins to grow the pain I will feel will duplicate.

That i do fear.

My heart skips a beat with each moment you are close. My hair stands on edge well i clear my throat. For these 3 word I want you to feel most; I love YOU with my full hearts embrace, I'll become endearment for those times you just need to be held. I'll be the ear to hear when you've pain to tell and I'll be the man you need me to be.

Remember this when you look at me and feel that some kind of way.

You move me in ways you could not even dream.

Your soul feels like a soft suddle rain slowly stroking my face or a spring sunset allowing me to bask in ur beauty well i lay in a field of orchids and lillies.

You miss are my peace at -3°, the melody in my heart everyday I guess what I'm trying to say. Is that I love you more and more each day.

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Longing for the lady I lost

You say you're tired of hurting me now you set me free I say I love you, you say it back but your actions don't say the same. Mistakes from me only once were ever made and for any chance I could've helped your mind you'd turned to someone else. Mistakes you made and never changed even after the 1000th time, the other man u chose to date in the middle of us trying, again making promises with those beautiful loving eyes. You say you get it u say u know, you tell me Im the victim and refuse to see my role. But I know my dark I knew my shame I became explosive with every hint towards his name and hours left ignored pudhed me within darkened thoughts and lies when you arrived which later admitted would overwhelm me so. Changing this heart of love and transformed it into devil's spit breathing fire with words that stained your soul and even broke your spirit. Yelling louder the vile titles and names you should never have had claimed growing with intensity I still curse upon his name. Back and forth u went between but swore to me to try with all your love and all your might to cut out this other guy, our family you said to me deserves a honest committed chance and everything you asked of me to approach id quickly attempt to advance with a full fledged effort every single day. You said u loved me and appreciate, all that I had done and now that I had changed for u finally you would for me but like every other time it took 2 days for you to dissapeare not a word or call with out warning at all you would vanish like thin air and just as I suspected your with this guy once again pretending your promise was never made.

the heart you choose is immature disrespectful and plays life like it's a game the heart you shattered haf grewn for you with open mind and it constantly would change I can't understand the choices you made but my soul I wishes that you didn't because even tho my heart should know you already crossed its limits. It still longs for u to just come back home and rest upon my chest with our boys behind you our family smiling with forgiveness we would forget. And actually be the mates of souls u told me Im the closest you will ever get and we'd lay in bed legs tangled in knots forever in love again.