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Okay! I need book recommendations and do not feel like scrolling through Goodreads to find something my library probably doesn’t even have.

I want some books that I can really fall into, the kind of book I can imagine living in. I want books about navigating dating life as a demiromantic asexual. I want books about found family. I want books about identity issues and the importance of community. I want books with nonbinary main characters. I want books that subvert tropes. I want whimsy and fantasy and romance but also the ups and downs and mistakes and losses that come with real life. I want to see characters get beaten down to their breaking point and glue themselves back together into a mosaic more beautiful than the original. I want a book about two roommates who do not, in fact, fall in romantic love; but rather become best friends and burn the fucked up system to the ground. I miss being able to imagine myself as the main character in the books I read. But it’s really difficult to find a book with just two of the things I like.

Most of all tho, I just want to fall in love with a new book. I like what I have to read, but the spark feels less than it should be

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So. I remember reading this in high school and the context page didn’t mention any of this. This is so important and adds a lot of depth to the story.

ya being kafkaesque isn’t about turning into a bug it’s about how if you turned into a bug your boss would still be like “ok but we’re short staffed can u still come in”

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I joined tumblr to have a source of dopamine. An escape from reality. Now that parts of tumblr are getting political (for good reason) I’m getting really scared about the state of the world that brought us to this point. If we’ve reached the point where even tumblr is political, then maybe that thing shouldn’t be political. Maybe, we let an issue go on far longer than it should have and now there are so many real people and casualties involved that there is no perfect solution as there so rarely is. I mourn for the dead of all. I mourn for the land and rights of the indigenous. I mourn for the lives this war has taken.

But I still don’t know enough about the conflict to have a true opinion. I’m not inherently involved in any way. But standing by and saying nothing feels wrong too. I want to support Jewish people. But we live in a world where I don’t even know for sure what that looks like.

I wish I could say that the countries should just merge. But that’s naive as shit. They won’t share the land. And those indigenous to it shouldn’t have to if they don’t want to. There’s so much hate and war and murder that I don’t know if it will ever end. I want it to. But I’m not part of any involved community, is it really my place to assert my wants on the situation?

I don’t know enough about the situation to have an opinion. And despite wanting to know more, to know how to help in any way I can. There’s so much hate entrenched in these sources that no matter how much I read I still end up knowing nothing.

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Reminds me of a friend

"critical gender shortages worldwide"

out of gender fluids SMH

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That’d be nice. Y’know I genuinely think I could have gone longer without adhd medication and thrived if I had just been accommodated at school. Instead I started taking focalin at 8 years old and slowly developed food issues because I couldn’t detect when I was hungry. If I had gone to therapy and had school accommodations I probably could have gone without medication till 13

It would be really nice if we as a society could celebrate disabled people who achieve amazing things without using their success to shame, blame, judge and invalidate other disabled people for not being able to do it too

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I am the rat that lives in your walls and eats your Cheetos

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I just want to feel like the people close to me know and have genuine interest in me. But how the hell am I supposed to know what that looks like‽

so diabolical that in order to get things you have to ask for them and in order to ask for things you have to know what you want

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Are concerts a possibility for group spell casting?

I mean think about it. It’s a large group of people come together in one common interest scream-singing at the top of their lungs with love and passion and pure awed exuberance. We shout the words up to the heavens and cheer for our collective spellcrafter

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As someone who lied impulsively throughout early childhood, I love this. It’s true. I wasn’t lying to cause harm, I was lying for no apparent reason.

Looking back, I think the reason was attention cause we had just moved and nobody was gonna spend extra time on a kid who seemed to be doing just fine when everything else was hectic.

"lying is wrong" what evangelical nonsense is this???

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Nothing makes me feel more privileged than witnessing a Reese’s ad, craving a Reese’s and being able to just, eat one.

Like, damn.

This is how I think of all privilege: see thing -> want thing -> obtain thing with zero difficulty and barely any thought or effort

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So, there are no gender neutral bathrooms in the entire building my class is in. So I’m trying to figure out how to choose which bathroom to go into.

I figure that unless I’m feeling ✨the gender✨, I’ll just go with whatever my clothes that day are leaning towards.

The issue is, what about days when my clothes are as neutral as my gender?

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Fun fact: I’m low-key scared of organized religion. I’d blame the fact that I went to catholic school to the end of third grade…

But the real reason is that telling other people how to worship, even when believing in the same god, feels gross. Like, major ick. Why are you doing that?

I appreciate the community aspect that happens in healthy centers of religion tho.

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There are two beasts within me: one wants to shave my head, the other wants epically long hair. My queer soul is forcing them to co-exist in peace for as long as possible. Specially in the form of a mullet.

But by the gods do I need a haircut. My ends are crispy, my floof is floppy, and my fade is puffy. None of these are wanted.

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I love this so much

A while back my pharmacist saw my deadname on my profile and accidentially called it out, he corrected and deleted my deadname from the system so only my preferred name shows up now. There was a crowd of people behind me, so as he hands over the pills he apologized, in equal tone and volume as when he called my deadname and lied saying it's been a long day and he didn't mean to call out -his own- name. I quietly told him it was fine and he didn't need to do that for my sake.

His response: "No, it's my name now."

I went to the pharmacist yesterday, his nametag is my deadname. He informed me he's immigrating and in the process he's changed his first name to my deadname to have an English sounding name. That's why he's now able to get a reprint of his nametag to be my deadname. And repeated, with the intense seriousness of someone who is going to die on this hill: "It's mine now. Not yours. I'm taking." His tone indicated that decision is final.

Bro literally deadnamed me once, and has committed to flat out stealing my deadname. It's his now. Legally. Officially. I over heard his co-workers call him by the name.

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Make this real. Make this real like we made the elderly chosen one real!!!!

historical drama/sitcom where two gay best friends (woman and man) get lavender married--and proceed to spend the Fancy European Honeymoon their parents paid for acting as each other's wingman

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There needs to be more Seer Ron Weasley content. And Ron/Luna. And just more Ron Weasley content in general. I also need some more Bad Parent Molly Weasley. For the mooDs

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When you’re looking for a therapist via website and the filters max out before you’re done listing your issues: