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AAA I REALLY MISSED DRAWING THEM

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This might be obvious, but I feel like it's often misunderstood about Jesse's character.

When confronting the Apex and running away with Lake, his number does not change. They don't get his exit right away, it doesn't appear after this dramatic moment of him standing up for himself and his friend.

"But Yellow! It's about the pacing! It's about the drama of them running away!"

Wrong!

For one, Jesse's problem isn't that he can't stand up for himself. Because he can! And he shows us this!

"It looks like your punching wasn't doing much good either."

"I was yelling! It's still my turn to yell!"

He talks back after Lake mocks his approach. He puts his foot down and defends himself.

"Pft. You would."

He antagonizes Lake after the flecs outted them as a criminal. He doesn't bend to Lake's whims like someone who's spineless.

"You better not tell mom!"

He doesn't grovel for Nate not to tell their parents. Doesn't promise to make it up to him later, doesn't try to lighten this blow at all. The way someone would if they always played both sides.

Defending himself is not his problem, not really. It's not even just people-pleasing.

"Don't tell me what to do!"

"I'm not gonna be a part of anything like this. On or off the train!"

If it was? This would have been the scene Jesse got his exit. There's enough build up for it, we don't need the chase scene before it, we could still have the flex show up after Jesse's exit closed with Lake on the other side.

But it isn't.

"I've got you. We're getting out of here."

It's only after he reassures Lake that his number changes. After he promises to stay with them, to side with them.

Jesse's issues were about standing up for others. For defending other people, even when it wasn't convenient. Not about him.

(Shout out to @elibethqueen for this post, love you bb)

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love them!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Missing Infinity Train so now the timeline will be cursed by this meme (BOOK 1 & BOOK 2 you will always be loved)

based on this ofc:

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Inktober 2024 - Day 7 - Passport

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Gaming moment

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Help them

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lake infinity train u will always be famous

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Touch

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Jesslake in nutshell

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The phone car

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(Older) Lake explains the patches on the battle vest I drew for them in this drawing from a few months ago

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Yes it's more Infinity Train fanart no I don't know how to stop

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the starshine always kept you warm.

alright so i'm continuing my thing of finishing up old wips, this being one of them. i sketched this out during the #finishinfinitytrain trend, but obviously (sadly) that's well past over. i think. they should finish it anyway. for me

i had sketches for each of the books, but s2 was the one i had the most motivation to finish. i love s2! i think lake being transmasc and having a crush on a boy did a lot for me at the time. i identified differently when i watched it than i do now

the song i picked for this one doesn't quite fit perfectly, like jesse isn't famous or rich or anything assuming the lyrics are from lake's perspective, but i figured jesse's life being comparatively kinder than lake's might make up for that. just the general vibe of having escaped on some level into a better circumstance. it was all kind of accidental though--the background color came before the song did, and the lyrics just kind of popped into my head after that. i was very much going for a summery, warm, out-on-a-hot-afternoon feel, and the entire album is very that

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Something about Lake. Something about how their first chosen name was MT, for Mirror Tulip—but they never intended to keep it. Something about following in someone else’s footsteps all your life with no choice or say in it, to the point that when you finally break out of the cycle even then all you have of your world’s perspective is the world through that person’s eyes—and so you name yourself after them even now, holding onto the pieces even as you shatter them.

Something about how every person who sees you views you as lesser—sliver, null, nothing at all—and how “MT” sounds so very much like “empty.” How you knew from the start that that wasn’t a name you’d be keeping, that there was a better one for you out there. How you planned to be something—no matter what anyone else said.

Something about living your life as someone else’s reflection and constantly being on the run from them even though they are where you came from. Something about choosing to leave the place and person that made you, because you can only be yourself when you are away from what your makers want you to be.

Something about chasing your goals and being so close to reaching them after all this time but having the people at the top look through you like you aren’t even there. Like you’re nothing. Something about that unique sort of frustration where you want someone to CARE, and so you take the nearest uncaring being and make them see you, and you tell them that YOU ARE A PERSON, tears in your eyes because that’s all you’ve ever been, but the world keeps refusing to see it. To see you.

Something about Lake. A reflective surface, something you’ve spent your entire life chained to and then running from the moment you got free. But it’s the first mirror you saw yourself in that didn’t make you afraid.

Something about Lake.

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That first picture was inspired by a cute fanfic titled "Tattoos on Titanium" by Yellow_Soul, where Jesse buys magnets at the dollar store so Lake can use them as temporary tattoos