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How is it that the worst driver you know will really not let you drive their car but then give you a near death experience every time you ride with them?

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2023 grateful list

1. Melo

2. Gorn’t

3. immediate family and their compassion/ support

4. Self growth and change

5. Taylor Swift

6. Big island

7. Chefing

8. LANY

9. Barbie and patriarchal deconstruction

10. The year of firsts

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Bed bugs but cock roaches??

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Paul Klein is HIMMM

I’m so in love with him. You get to thinking it’s weird to still be in love with bands after you’ve passed 18 but it’s so not. It’s so in. I’m so in. Lany is forever ever that band you see live and it changes you a little bit. Maybe altered your life course for the better a little bit. I think I needed a music obsession, something to cherish like that again. I saw them live for the second time after 7 years and had to mention it here. Lany is just so ?????? It’s easy to see that Paul was born to be a performer. I will never let it go. Here’s to THE NEXT SHOW

I’ll miss you double xl

Here’s also to post concert depression

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Costume Designer [of Marriage Story] really knew what she was Dern

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What the hap is fuckening?

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I was in the shower thinking of all of the depressing posts to put on this platform, all the ways to reinvent my feelings through writing. Then, I got out of the shower and (to be a lil dramatic) now I am an empty vessel with No Tears Left To Cry and untouched Panda Express. Feels awesome!

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About to make anxiety my bitch

Update: Anxiety made me her bitch :/

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“I would be down but I don’t think I can” screaming 🇳🇿

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Can we just grow/cut our hair whatever length we want and not jump to the assumption that it’s an identity crisis or a phase or a reason to feel something. I literally just appreciate the convenience of short hair; it’s not because I don’t know myself. Please rid me of your stereotypes. I’m doin just fine.

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The Violet Necklace

 

She was spring— the birth of new beginnings.  She was sunflowers and honeycomb, the richness of black soil, lively and emotional. She was light-footed as baby’s breath, a forget-me-not, pruned to perfection. But there she lay, her buttercup hair tangled, lips poppy-red, her neck stained violet. A passionate necklace, given by unforgiving flaxen, permanently scorched against her white-rose skin. Thyme and rosemary shaped her bones, and they will wrap them in a warm embrace as she returns home to the earth. Marigolds and orchids decorate her resting place, and although the reverend said she can’t go to heaven, she has created Eden.

-Taylor Autumn Goth, the Heir of Spring

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Rating my months this year and why

January: 4/10, bangs too short, waves too high to swim, still had mandatory masks (which is good for us but not fun), but ayeee saw my mission pres + wife yay

February: 5/10 surf comps, bdays, anxiety, went to therapy for it, and vday (I’m single)

March: 7/10 Mr. The Rock visited and blessed us with his presence, went back to the temple, watched Clayton’s season bachelor, the best st. Patty’s day, CULTURE NIGHT, hosted some baby chicks in our hale, Jess quit elephant shack (fortune smiles upon us for that)

April: 6.5/10 got pranked hard (lice), conference, took a friend to the hospital, big sleepover at salty breeze, Rach quit the luau, my Taylor Swift birthday, bday szn again, Kualoa, Easter, the new caf opened, the 90s dance purr

May: 7/10 got Covid first time, embarassing. Harry’s House dropped (would have been a 5/10 for the month but Harry’s album saved it) abortion rally, a lot of social work in action which I loved, gun violence 😭, caught a disease in my finger- the worst pain ever, this month was a fever dream.

To be continued when I want to

June:

July:

August:

September:ass

October:

November:

December:

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2022 top 10 gr8ful fors (it’s… giving thanks)

1. My Parents In Heaven

2. PRIDE in the 🌈 state AND coming out Bi to bffs

3. reading books (will, greenlights, crawdads, etc.)

4. Appa

5. Top-gun Maverick? oui

6. the for-lifers

7. a full year of Hawaii

8. poke nachos

9. Taylor Swift

10. my calling at church, it gives me added purpose

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The Scholastic Book Fair is forever.

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“Honoring agency does not mean embracing anarchy.” - heard it at church

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