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What I'm Feeling Right Now

I am writing this to express what I am really feeling right now. My heart is beating a little bit faster than normal. I can feel pressure that I can only feel when I'm nervous. So if you're asking if I am? Yes. I am. I am really nervous right now. I have doubts. I have fear. I know I should not feel this. I know I should faith in God. I know I should trust Him. But why do I feel this way? Lord, I wanna cry right now. I wanna cry and cry and cry until I feel better. But I can't. I need to be strong. I really want to cry now. I need Your comfort. I know You know my fears. You know my doubts. Lord, help me overcome these. Remove my doubts and change them to faith. Remove my fears and change them to confidence. I've been in a lot of situations like this before and in those situations, You never left me. You never forsake me. And now, I know I can trust You. I know You have something in store for me. I know You have plans. Teach me to wait for Your plans to be revealed. Teach me to be patient. Teach me to lean on You. Teach me to trust in You. Remind me that nothing is impossible in You. Remind me that I should not underestimate Your power. Help me to focus on Your will. Help me to trust You with all my heart and not to lean on my own understanding, on my own strategy, nor on my own ability. You are a Good, Good Father and I know You love me. Help me to trust in You. Remove these doubts. Remove this fear. My days may be dark right now, I am unsure of everything, and I don't know about tomorrow. But I know that it is always the darkest before dawn, it is always the hardest before the succes. I know though sorrow may last for the night, the joy comes in the morning. And I am so excited for that morning! Help me Lord to patiently wait for that. I know that if it is Your will, there's no early nor late. Everything will happen as you planned. Everything will be revealed in Your perfect timing. But at this moment, Lord, I need strength. I need patience. I need courage. I need confidence. Help me Lord go through this stage I am in right now. Help me in this new challenge I am up. Lead me. Be with me. Help me to focus on what You can do and not on what I can't do. Help me to focus on You, and not on myself or on what other people would say. I want nothing less than to be who I'm meant to be. I know with You, I can do anything. I can move any mountain. And even if I won't, my faith will still be in You. Amen. Lord, strengthen me right now for I am so weak. Cheer me up for I am really feeling blue right now. Help me Lord go through this. Help me. I hope one day, I could read this with a smile on my face, and with a clear airway!! To You I entrust everything ❤❤ Cheer up!!!!!!! God has something for you. Don't waste your time worrying about anything. Trust God. 10.14.17

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Anthem Lights

One morning as I was browsing my news feed on Facebook, a video caught my attention. It was a worship medley of 10000 Reasons and What a Beautiful Name. So why does it caught my attention? First, I’ve been binge listening to these songs for few weeks already so I am really familiar with the song! So I watched the video and I love it! I love the voice of the female singer that I even wished I could have a voice like her! And it stopped there.

One day, I was on Youtube, I decided to listen to this medley once more. From this medley, I also watched their Oceans Medley. Then, I got to know them, they were Kelsey and Caleb Grimm. Oh they are a couple! Wow! That’s cool!

I looked up who uploaded the video, and it says Anthem Lights. And I was like, “Who is Anthem Light?” They didn’t really caught my attention that I only choose to listen to Caleb and Kelsey medleys!

But suddenly, I saw their High School Musical Medley! First, I love HSM a lot! Second, they are with Alex G and I so love her too! I love the video! It was so nostalgic watching it! It even made me watch HSM 1 again and even made me watch some of Alex G videos again. So in short, it’s not really them who got my attention - it’s HSM and Alex G!

It was until Spencer’s voice caught my ears’ attention. That sweet yet husky voice is perfection! So, I started typing Anthem Lights on Google search. Whoa! They are a Christian band! Now, that caught my attention!

Next, I watched their Backstreet Boys medley! It was goooood! And at that moment, I really like Spencer! I so love his voice. Though the voices of the three are also so good!

Then, I remembered myself knowing all the members! First, I decided to know their names. And I had a hard time doing it because for me, they really look like each other! I got to know Spencer and Caleb first! But, I had a hard time with Joey and Chad, that I call Joey, Chad, and vice versa.

Then, I googled them one by one, compared their pictures with the videos, and at last! I know them now!

Their NSYNC medley made me love them more. It made me listen to Bye Bye Bye a lot of times! I guess this is also the video that made me love Joey! He is so good! So handsome! I love his eyes! His eyebrows!

24K magic Medley made me love Joey even more!!! He’s like Alejandro! Can sing, play guitar, piano, and drums!

I looked up to their IG accounts and learned more about them! I also learned about Alan and Kyle! They are active for so many years now but how come they are not that famous like the Boyce Avenue when they are so much better!

I tried watching all their videos. It has been my day for weeks now! I love hearing them, watching their videos one by one, especially those announcement videos where I get to know them more! I get to know about their personal lives, how Caleb and Kelsey have their baby now, Emmett Rhodes; how beautiful Chad’s wife, Fallon, is; how long Joey and Jewel have been together (which made me envy Jewel hahaha); and how young Spence is.

I love them! I love the group so much! I started liking Kelsey and Fallon too! I’m so sorry Jewel but I really like Joey. Hahahahaha. I wish I could watch them live! I also started having interest of Nashville! Inspired by how Caleb proposed to Kelsey! He’s so cute! Hahahaha.

When I learned that they will be having a live announcement on Facebook, I was really into it that I even made a countdown! But you know, unexpected could really happen that I didn’t catch it live! I was so devastated that time!!! Hahahaha

Day by day, my love for them is growing as I watch more videos of them. I started daydreaming of Joey! Hahahaha. I really love him! Hahahahaha. His baby blue eyes and his eyebrows! Whaaaaa. I wanna marry him! Hahahahaha. He’s the perfect match to my craziness! My ideal man. Hahahahahaha!

So now, here’s my fave videos of them:

1. Katy Parody - The Superbowl It was so creative! So funny! So good! Joey’s so handsome in there!! 00:40!!! Hahahaha. Fallon is so pretty also! Caleb is looking so cute too!

2. Be With You - It was also so creative! I want to own their shirts!!! Especially that With You and Slow Down shirt worn by Joey!!!

3. Frozen Medley - Joey and Spencer so cute! Chad’s voice is so cool! Love is an open dooooooor!

4. NSYNC Medley - They are all so good in here! That solo by Caleb is something!!!!

5. High School Musical Medley 6. Best of 2016 Medley 7. Simple Little Christmas - my new favorite Christmas song!!!! 8. Joey’s 24K Magic Medley 9. Backstreet Boys Medley 10. That’s What I’m Looking For - one of my most faves ever!!!!

I so love them! Hope I could watch them live someday! Come to Hawaii and Philippines please! Hahahahaha

That’s all! Check Anthem Lights now and fall in love with them!!!!

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Goals for 2016

1. Finish NCLEX Review please! 2. Prepare/Take the exam 3. Extra Job please for extra income 4. Increase Compensation (2/26/16) 5. DBP Salary please 6. Stable Job 7. Travel 8. Gain more friends. 9. More speaking/teaching engagements 10. SAVE

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2015

Reading all my posts way back then and all I could say is it's so funny. A lot of things happened to me this year. I may not remember each event but all I know is that all those will be treasured. There are achievements and of course there are failures. I failed to finish my review or even to continue it. I didn't get the increase compensation I've been wanting for these past three years. But hey! I did something different! Preach before the congregation twice! Had fun with VBS! Got Lit. Able to save for all the birthday expenses. Able to buy the gifts I want them to have. Able to have a 6k bonus!! My goal was just 5k then. And oh, I didn't have the chance to travel but it's okay. There's more to life. We celebrated Christmas and New Year altogether! Janessa already accepted Christ! Those successful NSTP events! 4 events actually. That teacher's day! And that bouquet of flowers on Heart's Day. 2015 has been so awesome. And also this year, I learned to save. Hungry stomach and empty pocket taught me a lot of things. All I could say is THANK YOU, LORD! Thank you 2015 and get it on, 2016!

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God Moves Checklist

So I'm making this checklist to list all the blessings I receive every day. The title, "God Moves" reminds me that in every blessing, God is the reason behind it.

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I am an overcomer!

Stains no more! Got to face one of the biggest fears of my life - dentist. Hahaha! Found the best dentist in town. She's more than a dentist to me. Thank you Lord for using that person to be an encouragement. No pain, no gain. Your greatest enemy in life is yourself. You only have two options, face your fear or ignore it. Face your fear and level up!

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I got Lit!

Yes, I did! Thank you LORD!!! You're the best!!

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Bad Day

Remembered myself waking up with a bad news. I didn't get it, did I? Tried to talk to her but still it's a no. And it's really sad. Really disappointing. It's like, I lost an opportunity to continue touching lives. Then got to watch the worst movie I've ever seen in my life!! It's really a bad day!

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How to move on?

Chance it's a yes: 1. Sat beside me 2. Look from behind 3. Stolen sights 4. Where I go, you go Chance it's a no: 1. You can do #1 to anybody else 2. Maybe you're just looking at somebody else. You're smiling at them. Loved their reaction. Chat with them. It's not me. It's them. 3. Assuming kills. 4. Again repeat no. 3 Need to move on! It's an emotional suicide. Though it's easier but need to control myself when he's around. Need it badly. I did it before right? I know I can.

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#JD

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Nostalgic Day

This day is extraordinary. First, I got the chance to meet Ate Melyn again, a motherly teacher when I was a kid. The feeling is extraordinary. I really enjoyed it, loved it.

Then, I met three young people who are so nice. Jasmine Albus who assisted me throughout my duty and the other two who shared with me their stories without hesitation.

Those cute kids with wonderful smile especially those who did not cry.

Got to watch that awesome practice of “Smooth” and screaming as my heart beats fast.

Then, bumped into a friend - Shalom. Had an amazing dinner talking about a lot of stuff. Thank you Lord for this day!

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'Cause you're so smooth

I can't control myself! You're really something. I love the voice, the appeal, everything. I really admire him as a performer. It's the first time I saw him like this and it's just so awesome. My screams were real, from the depth of my heart. Haha. You're so smooth.

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New Found Friend

I have a friend named Steph. We're close like siblings. We share lot of stories. I love her as a friend. I treasure her so much. She's always there to cheer me up, and to listen to my complaints, opinions or even problems. Hope our friendship would last even after that "thesis" thing.

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Welcome Back

A lot of things are happening in my life nowadays. I’m so busy with the upcoming intramurals. I’m so excited but at the same time I’m nervous. I really pray that my group would win. Please Lord. Be with us. The kids are really working hard. Don’t want to disappoint them.

I’m also busy with my “another” blessing. Yeah. Another job. Tomorrow I’ll be on PH 435. Nervous because the patients are kids but I know God’s with me and it’s His house right? No need to worry, God is in control. Tomorrow is my first payday! Yipee! So excited.

Tomorrow, we’ll practice again. But wait, I need to remind myself to be less hyper when it comes to #JD. I can’t control myself. The old feeling is coming back. I’m just happy. That’s it.

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HERE I GO AGAIN

Let me say it over again. Touch is not an expression of love or like. Why do you always fall for someone by merely relying on the sense of touch? So what if he sat beside you, so what if he approached you, so what if he go where you go and so what if your chairs are zero centimeter with each other and your elbows rub each other?! It’s not a sign to watch for. He’s not even texting you nor talk to you for a long time. Stop assuming and save yourself from pain! Arasso?!

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A Kiss in my Dream

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This is what I’ve been waiting for the past three months! #RD