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For the past few months I’ve been through a lot but I think thats my fault. Every relationship and friendship is scary cause I feel like they’re gonna leave me anyway.

If you feel the same lemme tell you, every story comes to an end someday, good or bad, amazing or borin, it comes to an end cause nothin is permanent in the circle of life.

But that being said feeling scared is normal cause at the end of the day it’s your heart thats gonna be broken but lemme tell u one more thing, don’t let that fear destroy you and your relationships. I’ve been there, done that, didn’t work. All I did was break my own heart and the heart of someone dear to me.

Even if u have a million reasons to let go, don’t cause relationships and friendships are what make a person. Just make sure you make the right choices and listen to each other and as long as forever goes it will last if it’s true. You’ll know it in your heart that it’s true.

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What happens once you kill yourself? Because I'm ready to go.

You wanna know what happens once you kill yourself? Your mother comes home from work and finds her baby dead and she screams and runs over to you and tries to get you to wake up but you won’t and she keeps screaming and shaking you and her tears are dripping onto your face and your dad hears all the screaming and runs into the room and he can’t even speak because the child that he loved and the child that he watched grow up is gone forever and finally your little sister runs into the room to see what all the fuss is about and she sees you dead. The person she looked up to and loved. The person she bragged about to  her friends, the person she wanted to be just like when she grew up, the person that made her feel safe. But she’s never really going to get to grow up and smile and laugh and love because she’ll always be consumed with this feeling of missing you. And now there’s something missing from your family and they can barely look at each other anymore because everything reminds them of you but you’re gone and hurts more than anything. and you think that your mom never cared because she was always busy and yelling at you to finish your homework and clean your room and forgot to say I love you sometimes but really, she loved you more than anything and she doesn’t leave the house anymore, she can’t even get out of bed and she’s getting thinner and thinner because it’s too hard to eat. Your father had to quit his job and he doesn’t sleep anymore, every time he closes his eyes he sees his baby dead, and the image never goes away no matter how much alcohol he drinks. And at school your best friend sees that your seat is empty and she gets this sick feeling in her stomach and that’s when she hears the announcement. You killed yourself. And suddenly she’s screaming and crying in the middle of class and no one even bothers comforting because they’re all  busy sitting there staring at your empty seat with tears dripping down their cheeks and all she wants is for you to hug her and tell her it’s gonna be okay like you always did, but this time, you’re not there to do it, everything is dark now that you’re gone and her grades are slipping, she barely goes to school anymore and she ended up in hospital after taking too many pills because she wanted to see you again. the girls who used to make fun of the way you dressed feel their throats get tight, they don’t talk to each other anymore, they don’t talk to anyone, they’re all in therapy trying so hard not to blame themselves but nothing works. and your teacher who always gave you a hard time stares blankly at the wall, she quits her job a few days later. And then your boyfriend hears the news and he can’t breathe, he still calls you a lot just to hear your voice and he talks to you on facebook but you never message him back, he can’t fall in love again because every girl he meets reminds him of you, he’s never going to get over you, he loved you and he cries himself to sleep every night, hating himself and slicing his skin because he couldn’t save you and he’s never going to hold you in his arms or hear you laugh again. Now everyone who knew you, whether they were a big part of your life or someone you passed in the hallway a few times a week, they carry this aching feeling around inside them because you’re gone, and they miss you, and they don’t know why you left but it must’ve been their fault and they should’ve stopped you and they should’ve told you they loved you more and that feeling is never going to go away. And so you killed yourself

but you killed everyone else around you too. 

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“Just don’t give up trying to do what you really want to do. Where there is love and inspiration, I don’t think you can go wrong.”

— Ella Jane Fitzgerald

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It’s 104% okay to come to your DM and just say, “Hi, can we be friends?” And then start asking you random questions.

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this is so great. fuck toxic masculinity. we need something like this stateside (x) | follow @this-is-life-actually

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“Make yourself a priority. At the end of the day, you’re your longest commitment.”

— (via perfectfeelings)

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“you do not need to explain your decisions to anybody if you don’t feel comfortable doing so”

— Unknown

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Crying does not indicate that you are weak. Since birth, it has always been a sign that you are alive.

— Charlotte Brontë

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Got tagged by @ipromisednomorepoetry 😂😂

You know mostly everything bout me 😂😅

Last song: death by a thousand cuts by Taylor Swift(obvio)😂❤️

Last movie: Moxie (ig. It was an amazing movie. Do watch it.)

Currently watching: the originals, it’s ok not to be ok

Currently reading: how bout a bunch of fricking huge text books which are awful but informative.🥺🥺

Currently craving: holidays where I can do what I want🤩🤩

@genuinewriting @blehh094 @halley-ann5 @honeybee-del @vero-vetka13 @the-moon-loves-you @obnoxious-thinker @themoondidntloveme @lunathearchivist

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Rules: tag 9 people you’d like to know better.

Thank you for the tag @chocolatepepsifloat @alxmeg @ihavesomeideawhatimdoinghere 

🎵 last song: Born Ready by Zayde Wolf and When You Call - Cyrus Reynolds

🎬 last movie: Interstellar (because I fucking love that movie)

🍿 currently watching: (re)watching WandaVision but waiting for ‘The Falcon and The Winter Soldier’ next episode!!!

📚 currently reading: I just started Six of Crows by Leigh Bardugo (Gotta finish it before Netflix releases the new show based on it!)

💭 currently craving: Chocolate because I ran out of my chocolate stash at home 😢😢

Tagging: @the-aggressiveshipper @lyrikxland @mollyinthewater @laudh8 @pandas-cant-fly-ks @sam7sparks7 @roonilbwazlib @ghostyprince @emmesse96reborn @ziezie13 @putriart and anyone who wanna join on the fun!

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“Please believe that one single positive dream is more important than a thousand negative realities.”

— Adeline Yen Mah

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“I never want to change so much that people can’t recognize me.”

— Taylor Swift

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Chocolate brown iris

That transparent brown iris,

Broke though my opaque walls.

That figure, stuck in my head, heart and soul,

I was paralysed, don't want to see no more.

Why would I want to after those eyes,

OH THAT SMILE!! Don't want to see no more.

Tried to part my eyes from those brown chocolates,

But I couldn't. Want to see more.

Want to see that wonders smile,

Want to see that moving smirk,

Want to see that chocolate brown iris,

Want to see HER forevermore.

-JK

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BFF

When the whole world is annoying you and putting you down but there is this one person who can make you smile every single time when you want to cry.

@genuinewriting

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“Sometimes the smallest step in the right direction ends up being the biggest step of your life. Tip toe if you must, but take the step.”

— Naeem Callaway

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why would i face my problems when i can just take a nap instead?