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is anyone else just going through life like “yeah i just gotta get past this last difficult week and then it’s smooth sailing from there!” but like… every week

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Introvert

I’m not sure when it happened. There was never a specific date or time. I couldn’t tell you what broke, how it broke, or when it broke, but something changed in me.

One day, it just got really hard to talk to people. It got difficult to connect, to have different perspectives and opinions.

One day, it just got really hard to stop thinking. When it got hard to stop thinking, it got easy to stop talking to people.

Then once it got easy to stop talking to people, it got really hard to start talking to them again

Trusting people is hard and there’s been a lot of let down recently but I feel like I am getting to a place where things are getting easier.

It’s been less than a year since normalacy, and it’s taking time for everyone to get comfortable with being uncomfortable

Myself included but you really have to push yourself to move around and talk to other people

Social anxiety is a bitch, you gotta just let it rip sometimes and pray you don’t say anything stupid or harmful.

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They call me lady

I’m like nah it’s JC

Not your baby

And you can’t call me maybe

I’m one in a milli

I don’t mean to be silly

But my blood is Sicily

Brain so big, Hit the books like billy

Trust me take my hand

I say to myself cause I don’t need no man

This ain’t about good looks

No I ain’t talking about good cooks

Old school I’m poloriod

Get with me and I’ll fill ya void

Sit with me I can be ya fraud

Multi-talented, employed

Jc is the name confidence is the game

I don’t do this for fame

But you will remember my name

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I wish it was me, I wish you would come back, I wish you meant it when you said I do.

I wish we could go back, I wish I could take back all the stupid shit I said to you. Even if most of it was true.

I’m so sorry, I’m not sorry, that for me, it was always you.

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I’m not sure what to do or how to move on from you

You make it look so easy

I hate how much I think of you, everyday there’s something new that brings me back in time. To think I waited all my life for such a harsh goodbye.

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And all the nights I stayed up for you

7 years I never missed a que

Every birthday was special and new

Do you even miss me?

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What a gift you gave to you

To have your cake and eat it too

They’ll circle up and sing happy birthday and

I wonder if you’ll think of me

But I know you do

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Chronic pain hurts the same

Weather in your bones or in your brain

I played the supporting role in your stupid show

37 days since we last spoke

Looking back laughing wondering if it was all a joke

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You bought yourself dude wipes

Couldn’t splurge on a dinner

I sure picked a winner

It’s a wonder I’m thinner

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May 25 couldn’t come soon enough

Time sped up and didn’t slow down

It’s December now

Almost 60 days since

Life has been amiss

I wish you didn’t have to do this

Life is moving on without you

I’m comfortably numb

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I never thought a lifetime would be over so soon

I never imagined going on without you

I can’t help feeling like

You should be here

What a year

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Is it crazy I wish you would just come back home? I miss you, you know.

I went two days without crying, and I’d be lying if I said that didn’t scare me.

It’s been 6 weeks.

I never thought that me and you would become just another thing to get through

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You won’t get a rise out of me

Realizing I was never the problem

It was always you

I’ve been stuck in hyper vigilance since you hopped my fence

You broke my confidence

I miss you and I can’t believe ill never see your face again. How do you do it?

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I just wanna know, how do you do it?

I’m crying alone,

How do you do it?

I can’t figure out how to detox another human from my being. How do you do it?