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this album is probably my favorite album of all time. it has changed my life in so many different fucking ways,its crazy lol. ive been listening everyday ever since it came out because it relates to my life life with its amazing details, each meaning in each line, the depressing lyrics, the music, beats, screenplay, the deep web tour, the movie that goes with it, and it is just one hell of a experience. one of my favorite songs off the album is Telegraph Ave (Oakland by Lloyd). It shows how much work was put on into that song, the details, and everything. like this album couldnt have came out at a better time. it was at a time where i was feeling lost, depressed, lonely, insecure, and really suicidal. its like the album came at a stage in my life where i didnt really know what was going on and i just felt really lost and lonely. i still kinda feel like this but things are getting better.  i can honestly say this album changed and mostly saved my life. even though “someone” told me not to listen to this album anymore because it makes me so depressed (lol), it will always be my favorite album of all time. bti.

http://becausetheinter.net/

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i planted the seeds but are the flowers growing?

i’ve felt at my worst semester due to hella stress, anxiety, trying to find myself in the wrong reasons (drugs, people), switching majors, getting caught up in the worst predicaments.

this state of feeling lost and hopeless towards so many things and fearing of failure when i take action. trying to find a confident, optimistic mindset in drugs and drinking so that i can feel like me again but i’m not even fucking there.

i tried to act more like my zodiac sign cus i thought it would help me feel better and know about myself. all it did was make me closed off, not be honest with friends, family, and even towards my goddamn self.

its like i’m using my experiences over my wisdom.

i’m not always good with change even though i feel its always in me. i just get annoyed because i’m such a “moving” person; never use to one state (literally), one person, but for that to stay, you must be quite special.

just a slight breakthrough of bliss is all i’ve been trying to look for but i never truly been able to find it.‬

i stay more to myself when uneasy feelings strikes. i use to break the rules of my zodiac sign by letting people get a piece of my mind but it never has truly endure for me to be relaxed or be happy with who i am.

i learned about myself a lot and i know what it takes to be at a comfortable state again. 2017 has been a roller coaster but it has only kept me moving forward.

i guess self acceptance and decision making has been my biggest issue this year.

i don’t know why i like to test the hard depths of life; to make this life more challenging than it already is even tho i might not believe in myself nor feel like i’m always ready.

in the end, its what i want and its my resolutions; whether it’ll be the downfall of securities or lead me into being my utmost self.  

just fuck it whatever happens, happens.

i might not be cut out for this program but i can say that i’m trying and ima Dothatshit!

i might not be the most macho dude out here but i know that when realness is shown, thats what always matters.

i might feel the worst when i’m under pressure but u kno a yung nigga always prosper.

through all my toughest anxieties and tribulations,

i might bend a little but i never FOLD.

-jcarloz

u were MAINEY 2017 2018 bouta b coooo

new year, new me*devil smile emoji*

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rainy ass spring break 2017 lmao

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i luv book stores

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white ho lets go

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my childhood :((

“Thank you, Taker”

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i got some shit to take care of...thats all i gotta say haha

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Check out BRYSON TILLER on the March cover of FLAUNT Magazine!

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“In moonlight, black boys look blue”

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i always be gettin caught up with shit when im on tequila LOL

def will not do edibles before a party ever again

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the only rules

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top 50

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soooo dopee

Super Steven Bros! Had this goofy idea and painted it just for fun.

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luv this

brysontiller: man… i’ve been a lot of places in my life. few of which i feel like i actually belonged in. been around a lot of people who have made me feel like i don’t belong. as an artist even sometimes, doesn’t really feel like i belong here. no one has ever made me feel like i belong somewhere until You came along. when i’m at home and you wake me up early for breakfast, when you sneak into the basement while i’m recording to ask can we watch movies, i feel like i belong there. As your dad. As your friend. As the person who tells you “Yes” when mommy said no. i always feel like i belong there. and i’ll always be there. I love You. We belong together. won’t be long until we’re back together ♥️