jaysonlife

[jaysonlife]

My heart refuses to let you go.

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lol

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cumsloot

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Enough

I wish I knew how to keep your interest, instead of feeling like I lose it everytime I speak.

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Wishes

I met you, I was good but then I don’t know what happened. I got lost, life broke me, you’re back and I’m still putting the pieces back together. I’m so scared you won’t stay, I feel so broken, I’m not fucken weak, I just need to know it’s safe to breathe..

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alone

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My brain and my heart isnt the same. I dont fucken care, just come back. I'll take the scars. I'll take it all.

I miss you, can we talk?

Please.

-Mind Of A Mad Man

[jaysonlife]

I know Im fucked up, Im working on me.. Yes okay, little toxic, Alright very toxic. Did you have to run away so fast that the dust got me stuck in a haze? Not blaming you for the pain, I respect that you want to leave but that doesnt mean Im not hurting..

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Maybe.

Do you ever just wonder, maybe If I was better the ones who left wouldve stayed? Like maybe losing me would seem like the worst thing imaginable like It is for me when I think of them. Like maybe If I was better, things would have been different... Or like maybe if I dont get better, and I stop being around maybe this loneliness would end with me. Do you feel alone when your eyes are closed? No right? Maybe we should keep them closed. Maybe.

Mind Of A Mad Man

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What happened.

For a long time I have felt alone, internally. Like my heart was just by itself. When I met you it didn't feel like that anymore, It was almost like I've been holding my breathe and I finally let the air out.

I felt comfortable around you, like I could be me. Maybe I never felt accepted, or never accepted myself completely so I kept holding back, or embellishing because I didnt want to lose you, didnt want to lose the one person I finally feel connected with.. Then that fear took over and I kept worrying about that instead of enjoying our company. I forced myself to forget all that which drove me to you in the first place and replaced it with fear. - Mind Of a Mad Man

[jaysonlife]

How much of me has to die before you come back? Take it all, destroy me. I don't know how to protect myself when it comes to you. Kill me, and ill come back asking for an opportunity to love you.

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I cant see anymore, the waters dropping its all blurry.

[jaysonlife]

And as the last message he ever sent, written in red almost like the blood from his broken heart " Please come back , I wish you were here. "

[jaysonlife]

Fell asleep and forget to die, maybe this world isn't meant for I.

Mind of a Mad Man

[jaysonlife]

Doctor Doctor will you help me, how?

[jaysonlife]

I am scared to show vulnerability. I feel it makes me less attractive to have these very human emotions. I don't know how to shake that fear.

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