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oh i wish you the best of luck with your exam angel!! you got this!! <3 that sounds lovely!! I am glad you can see your friends soon! and ooo a new piercing? what kind of piercing is it going to be? I am excited for you hehe. My life is just busy with uni really but in a few weeks I will have a fancy dinner at home with my friends so I am looking forward to that <3

thank you so much sammie! i’ve been wanting the navel piercing for a long time, but my parents would kill me and i still don’t dare so i’ve decided to get the industrial first :) oh yeah uni is often a pain in the ass lol but i’m sure you’re doing great! and omg that sounds so fun, it’s sure to be a wonderful dinner!

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hello my pretty hia!! how are you doing? <3

hi sweet sammie! i’m doing fine, i’m back home to see my parents. i haven’t been able to see my friends yet as i have an exam next week and have been concentrating on this alone, but i’ll see them between friday and saturday, so i’m really looking forward to that. also on friday i plan to get a piercing and i’m quite nervous but so excited haha wbu? how have you been?

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This is a social experiment but pls reblog w your sun, moon and rising and who's your bias in mx!!! 👀❤

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hiii bestie!! thank you for those johnny headcanons <3

the fact i had half of these saved ���� excuse me… the yuta one? if he’d look at me like that an ambulance would have to take me out of the room lol you are so lucky i haven’t seen any johnny or jinyoung tiktok yet

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changkyun & his pizza ♡ midnight idol episode 065

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so idk why i had the asks turned off but if someone wanted to send some you can now do it haha <3

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✦ MEANT TO BE?

old draft ❐ 0.786 / angst / yeonjun x gn!reader ❐ user jaynamic is listening to water fountain by alec benjamin!

you dreamed about him again last night, and you couldn’t hate yourself more for it.

leaning your arms on the wood of the bridge you played with the raised skin of your fingers, nervous to see him face to face and not the image of him that drew your mind every night.

“i see you haven’t kicked that vice,” his voice paralyzed your body for a few seconds. but then you turned your head until your eyes fell on him. he looked more handsome than ever and it made your blood boil. however, you did notice the concealed dark circles under his eyes and how they possessed a pinkish hue. your gaze descended to the lighter and cigarette box protruding from his pants pocket. you raised an eyebrow.

“and i see you have a new one,” you murmured. he looked back to where you were looking and cleared his throat nervously, hiding the two objects with his hand. after a few minutes in silence you spoke again, “can you now tell me why you summoned me here after so long?”

“i needed to see you,” he confessed wrinkling his nose as his eyes rested on your face, “i want to explain what happened.”

you let out a sarcastic laugh running your hand through your hair, messing it up, “you’ve got to be kidding me,” you whispered to yourself, “you cheated on me, yeonjun,” you reproached, your tone of voice sounding more affected than you would have liked. the boy looked away, closing his eyes and biting his lower lip. then he looked back at you, looking stricken. but you weren’t going to fall for his game, not again.

“i know,” he admitted, his response taking you by surprise. after you found out about what he did you blocked him from all your social networks and made sure your friends let him know not to try to contact you. the last thing you expected was for him to admit his mistake, “and i’m sorry. i’m so sorry.”

you gulped, trying to see past the regret drawn in his eyes, searching for some trace of irony or lie. however, you found nothing to contradict his words. you nodded awkwardly, clearing your throat and fiddling nervously with your fingers.

“you hurt me,” you reminded him, your voice cracking, remembering everything you had to go through when he decided to put everything you had built on the line.

“that’s why i’m here,” he said, taking a few steps forward, and that’s when you realized that since you’d met again there was some distance between you. and you knew you’d marked that distance to somehow avoid being affected by that encounter, “i want to fix that.”

“you can’t,” you replied, running your hand across your cheek, brushing away the tear that had escaped your eyes.

“please, come back with me and we’ll work it out, together,” he insisted.

“why would i come back with you?” you asked genuinely intrigued raising your arms, waiting impatiently for his answer.

“because i love you, y/n,” he replied. your breath caught, and you closed your eyes trying to dispel all the beautiful memories and all the amazing moments you had experienced together. you didn’t doubt that he did, but you don’t cheat on the person you want to spend the rest of your life with.

“i know. but not the way i want to be loved, nor the way i deserve. and, definitely, not the way you love her,” you rebutted, watching the small smile that had appeared on his lips fade while these began to pucker, “i came here for a reason too,” you revealed after a few minutes of awkward silence. you approached him and pulled out with trembling hands what you’d been debating whether or not to give it back to him. staring into his eyes, you reached for his hand and raised it, leaving a key in it that yeonjun recognized instantly. he began to shake his head slightly, so you started to nod feeling your heart begin to break as you watched his eyes fill with tears, “you’re forgiven, yeonjun,” you said, bringing your face close to his and leaving one last slow kiss on his cheek, probably the most emotionally charged kiss of your entire relationship.

flashing him a sideways smile you walked past him and began to walk away from him, feeling the first snowflakes begin to fall. you left giving him back not only the key to his apartment, but the key that locked the door of your withered love forever. and you realized that you had known for a long time you weren’t meant to be together. your heart hurt, but that relationship had hurt more.

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✦ A SPECIAL PRIZE

old draft ❐ 0.484k / fluff, crack / jake x gn!reader ❐ user jaynamic is listening to girls by the 1975!

“are we allowed to be here outside school hours?” that was the first thing you asked when your boyfriend uncovered your eyes and looked at where you were.

“probably not,” jake replied with a small giggle as he saw your forehead begin to furrow, “i was expecting a different reaction to my surprise, to be completely honest,” he admitted, bouncing the basketball a couple of times on the floor before tossing it up and scoring a basket.

you raised one eyebrow in disbelief, “you thought i’d start jumping and squealing with excitement for bringing me to the basketball court?”

“oh, come on,” he protested, turning back to you after he went to pick up the ball, “i know you love to watch me play.”

“well yeah, but only when there’s a prize to win,” you replied, crossing your arms.

“hmm,” he placed the ball on his hip while holding it with his forearm and thought for a few seconds before giving you a half-smile, “maybe there could be a prize,” you remained silent waiting for him to continue. he then started to approach you, “how about for every basket i score, you give me a kiss?”

a chuckle escaped your lips as soon as you heard his proposal. did he think you were in a movie?

“what if you miss?” you asked, suddenly interested in the game.

“trust me,” he began, bringing his lips to your ear, “i won’t miss,” he murmured, sending shivers through every part of your body. then he straightened up again, winking at you with a cocky smile.

you let out a grunt as you poked him in the shoulder, making him laugh, “well then, come on, i want to see it,” you challenged, pointing to the basket.

he winked at you and turned around to run and jump to put the ball in the basket. he caught it and threw it back in, scoring another basket. and so it went again, and again, and again.

your face must have looked like a poem because jake started laughing, coming towards you again as he continued to bounce the ball on the floor. standing right in front of you, he put the ball back between his hip and arm and looked at you with both eyebrows raised.

“if i’m not mistaken, i think you owe me something,” his smirk made you go from wanting to crush his head to wanting to kiss him and never let go. so that’s what you did, listening to the ball bounce on the floor as he dropped it and held your waist with his hands, while yours were placed on his cheeks, “you have four more to go,” he whispered against your lips.

“i’ve never seen you play with so much effort,” you commented, remembering all his past games.

“that’s because i like today’s prize much better,” he laughed, leaning down to continue kissing you.

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MARK —NCT DREAM ’Dreaming’ Track Video

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211203 TAEYONG IG Update

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it’s in a dim-lit room with sunlight falling on the floor.

it’s not that bad, your heart can feel warm and content there. sometimes it is happy and other times it is sad. i think that it needs some rest to be able to see things more clearly and encounter more brightness in the near future. i hope that you can gather more and more of that sunlight-like feeling with the passing of time and feel (even) better. stay safe <3

take this quiz-interview and find out where your heart is at the moment! ☁️💭

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tssss okay🙄 this is the only thing that is somewhat relevant and kind of funny

hola babygorl

hola mi querida

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thank god you’re watching him respectfully cause i’m not.

THE8 ✦ 211201 weibo update [recoloured]

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✦ OVERCOMING THE BEAST

reposted from my old blog ❐ 1,7k / fluff, angst / gyu x gn!reader / tw. insecurities, mentions of food ❐ user jaynamic is listening to juliet by cavetown!

beomgyu was thinking about you again. you seemed a gracious angel. an angel with sparkling eyes and beautiful puffy lips.

he walked over to the window and reflected on his quiet surroundings. he had always loved this cosy café with its lovely barbecue coloured tables. it was a place that discouraged his tendency to feel worried about everything.

then he saw something in the distance, or rather someone. it was your alluring figure. he felt a smile widening on his lips, but also the shakiness in his hands getting worse with every step you took. 

you looked beautiful, and he didn’t like that. he didn’t like the way you looked at him, and he didn’t like the way you smiled at him, because that was a sign that his heart was beating faster than usual. he also had mixed feelings about your touch, he didn’t know how to feel about it. he liked it, there was no doubt about that, but when you walked away, it felt like a scar that wouldn’t heal until you were back with your hands on him.

beomgyu gulped. he glanced at his own reflection. he was an insecure, slim, cinnamon shortbread latte drinker with tiresome eyes and pale skin. everyone saw him as a noble, lovable boy, but he couldn’t see past how his appearance looked compared to yours. to say he didn’t feel jealous of you, of your self-assurance and how you seemed to always make a difference wherever you went, would be a blatant lie. 

the snowflakes fluttered like birds in love, making beomgyu’s heart delighted. he grabbed one of the chocolate bonbons that had been strewn nearby; he fiddled with it with his fingers for a few seconds. as the boy stepped outside and you came closer, he could see the vivacious glint in your eye.

you smiled at him when you saw the puppy dog eyes your boyfriend was giving you. you knew he was once again feeling insecure about his appearance, watching as he hid his face in his scarf and moved so close to the wall of the store that he seemed to be wishing he could just disappear. you said, in hushed tones, “you look absolutely gorgeous, and i want a kiss.”

beomgyu was taken aback by the sudden compliment, a blush contrasting with his cold, sallow skin managed to work its way up his cheeks until it made his ears warm. he averted his eyes from your anatomy, directing his gaze to his left side, still fingering the bonbon, “y/n, let’s move in together," he replied. 

you looked at him with surprised feelings, feeling confused and unsure, thinking about the unexpected turn this first anniversary had just taken. you both stayed in silence for a few seconds, along with the cool breeze of the air moving your hair and the sweet melody of the café that was coming from the piano and had an elderly couple dancing to the beat.

you regarded beomgyu’s soft eyes and fluffy lips, as a comprehensive smile took the shape of your lips. you knew what your boyfriend was trying to do, and you weren’t going to let him do it. “no,” you blurted out the answer beomgyu had been dreading, but which you knew he would soon be thankful for. it didn’t take more than two minutes before you noticed his breathing becoming ragged. “shall we go in?” you asked, raising your hand with your palm open for him to take as you offered him a warm smile. he watched you with an indecipherable look on his face, one that made your skin crawl more than the bad weather that day. that was rare, you could always tell what was wrong with him just by looking at the expression on his face, but not this time. there wasn’t a furrowed brow, nor pursed lips, just expressionless eyes.

“what the fuck is wrong with you?” beomgyu’s voice rose a few tones as he asked that question. getting some of the customers closer to the entrance to fix their attention on you. you squirmed uncomfortably in your seat, shifting your body weight from one leg to the other, “how can you give me that answer to such a serious question?” you could tell he was getting angry by the color his face was taking on, and how his eyes began to crystallize with every word he said, as well as the crack in his voice when he finished speaking.

“precisely because of this,” you replied, taking a step forward, which caused him to take two more steps back. you sighed, looking at him with a pout and trying once again to get closer to him, but to no avail as he backed away again, “gyu, you don’t want to live with me,” you immediately saw how he opened his mouth to protest, but you raised your hand as a signal to stop and silenced him, “let me talk,” you asked, finally ending the distance that separated the two of you, “you’re feeling insecure again, and that’s okay, these things happen. i’m not mad or any of the things that little head of yours is thinking right now. but don’t ask me to take a step that neither you nor i are ready to take,” giving him one of your most sincere and gentle smiles, you found a way to cradle his face in your hands, forcing his sad and exhausted eyes to meet your concerned ones, “you don’t want to live with me gyu, but you’re terrified of being alone with those thoughts that are slowly destroying you. and me accepting your proposal won’t change anything, because you’ll get used to me being there to try to protect you from them and if at some point you and i part ways...”

“that’s never going to happen,” he interrupted you, quickly shaking his head and placing his hands on yours that were still on his cheeks, offering them soft caresses and looking at you in a way that no one had ever looked at you before.

“we don’t know that, love,” you replied, your mood waning and your heart sinking a little at the thought of a future life without him, “if at some point you and i break up, you’ll fall back into a bottomless pit. and i can’t let that happen to you, because i’d never forgive myself. do you understand?”

he said nothing. instead, he nodded his head in response before dropping his body onto yours. your arms wrapped around his neck, laying his head on your chest, inevitably curving his back. as his arms hugged your waist tightly, gripping the fabric of your jacket with his hands, pulling you as close to him as possible, afraid that at any moment you’d fade away.

you could hear how every now and then he’d sniffle, giving you to understand he’d indeed cried. and your heart broke a little more. he’d learned to cry silently, so that no one would hear him. so that no one would know he was drowning. so that no one could turn him away if he was forced to ask for help.

“gyu, honey,” you called out to him, somehow managing to lift his face until you finally saw those pretty eyes that were now red-shadowed from crying, “let’s go inside, shall we?” you asked, tilting your head to one side and stroking his flushed cheeks. he nodded slowly before using the advantage of having his arms around your waist to pull your body closer to his and give you a longing, nostalgic kiss. his fingers dug into your clothes, harder than before, as his lips moved ahead of his thoughts and tugged on yours to intensify the kiss. your hands had moved down to his chest, pulling his scarf towards you with the same intention he had: show him all the love you had in store for him.

that afternoon had been perfect, and beomgyu came home with a smile, a real one. one that remembered all your encouraging words. one that remembered how your eyes sparkled when you looked at him. one that remembered those old men who gave him their thumbs up as they pointed at you. one that remembered all the times he’d made you laugh. one that remembered the sweet, rich taste of your lips as you kissed, and one that dreamed of meeting yours again.

starting to undress he found a note folded in the pocket of his back pants. a note that had the phrase “open it only when you are in front of the mirror” written on it in a handwriting that could only be yours. beomgyu found himself at a crossroads, recognizing your handwriting had brought a new smile to his face, but the strange message had turned his stomach. you knew what the mirrors meant to him. you knew that the big mirror in his room was his main enemy, the one that had managed to ruin his day more than once. why would you want to put him through that?

despite all the unknowns swirling around his head, beomgyu slowly approached the mirror, closing his eyes as he didn’t dare to look. he inhaled and exhaled a couple of times, trying to overcome the beast that was eating him up inside. until he remembered your words when you had met a few hours ago “you look beautiful and i want a kiss,” and he plucked up enough courage to let his pupil collide with his reflection. he stood for a few seconds motionless, having a staring contest with himself, looking for any imperfection that would force him to run away. but before that happened, he raised his hand with your note between his fingers and opened it.

“do you see the boy in front of you? he’s the boy i fell in love with, and the one i’ll never stop loving.”

and it was then that the biggest smile he could ever remember seeing himself with broke through his lips. looking in the mirror again, he felt all insecurities vanish one after the other.

he was the one you had chosen, and that would never change.

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and i can’t believe i can bully you again ahhhhh

can't believe i can bully @jaynamic again <333

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hi, it’s hia or val, she / her, hispanic, legal. welcome to my blog ! i write mostly about nct, txt and enha but i’m multi !

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status as of 01.12.21 — semi-active; i’m finally back ! just trying to get back into writing after the long hiatus from my old blog. i’ll be mostly reposting the fics from my old blog and start uploading the few drafts that weren’t removed.