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Ok here we go lmao

I am going to fast. Yup. The last time I ate was about 7 last night. It’s 7 in the morning, so if I wait until next morning, it’ll be a day and a half. I’ve got this

June 13 2019

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How to actually Lose Weight

These last few months I’ve been having between 900 on a low day, and 1400 on a big day, and y’know what ? I am still losing over 1 kg (2.2 lbs) every week. Im losing about 6 kgs (13.2 lbs) every month.

I haven’t exercised, or used any tricks other than 18 hour intermittent fasting between 6pm and 12pm. You will lose so much more weight and feel so much better if you’re eating a maintainable amount of calories. I can eat multiple meals and snacks in a day and still feel entirely fulfilled and not want to binge- the secret is to just eat under your maintenance but enough to not leave you starving, in the long term its so much better.

This isn’t a Pro Ana post, I don’t encourage eating below the minimum daily intake and nothing in this post suggests that you should either- by eating a sustainable amount my physical health and mental health have felt so much better. Yes I still have bad days, sometimes I struggle to reach 1200 and some days I want to cry because it feels so big. Im at my lowest weight and I still hate my body. Its not easy. But trust me- doing it this way is so much safer and healthier than non stop restriction/binge/purge cycles.

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You already know the feeling of being full, but not yet the feeling of being at your UGW.

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Yayy!

I just joined a GC for people with EDs, I can finally get back on track

March 27 2019

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Hello old friend

Just broke into a shaving razor, it’s been awhile, but here we are

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Ana Hack #2

Drink Vitamin Water Zero and Sparkiling Ice! They both have 0 calories and taste sweet, so it will make you seem full!

(Remember, I don’t condone ED’s, I’m simply sharing my own experience. Please stay safe!)

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Ok!!

I’ve officially made the decision to not eat after 7 pm...

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Here’s an update since it’s been so long!

Measuments:

Height: 5’ 5’’

Current weight: 118 lbs

BMI: 19.6 (classified as “normal BMI”)

GW: 100 by March 1st

UGW: 80 lbs

Vegitarian

Gender and Sexuality

Trans Guy

He/Him or They/Them(But mostly he/Him)

Pansexual

I’m dating the most lovely human in the world!!

Therapy and Mental Health

I personally don’t want help, and I don’t want to go to therapy so that’s that

Disorders- ADHD, Anxiety, Anger disorder, ED(mostly Ana, at this point), SH

ANA goals

Every morning ima do—>

-10 sit ups

-20 squats

-30 side leg lifts (15 each side)

-40 seconds of running in place

-50 JJ’s

Every Night—>

Stretch~

-20•20 sitting toe touch

-20•20 side toe touch(each side)

-60 second v sit for each leg

-20 sec standing toe touch(starting with legs out, going 3 times untill my legs are straight)

Excercise~

-Same as Morning

I also want to eat less then 500 cal on weekdays, and less then 1000 on weekends(so my best friend doesn’t suspect anything)

If ima loose a bit less then 20 lbs in a month, that’s about 4 lbs a week, so that’s a lot of work

Im going to try to drink 50 oz of water a day, or more, obvs

Finally, I want to run about a mile a week, so if I have to span it out, that’ll be fine, maybe about 755 feet a day is all. (This would all be outside of gym class of course)

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Woah it’s been a long time

It’s been about 4 months since I was on here last. I go a new phone, and I took all my will not to re download this app. I’ve gained 3 pounds over this time and I need to get back on track. I know this isn’t a smart thing to do, but it’s what I need to do. So hello tumblr, weird seeing you again, please wreck my life once again...

Jan 27th 2019

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You know, I definitely don’t have my shit together, I mean, I hurt myself, starve myself, go to sleep crying, have anxiety, anger disorders, ADD, ect, but at least I know who I am. At least I found myself. I know what type of music makes me feel like nothing else in the world matters. I know what style makes me feel so the most comfortable and I found what you tubers let me feel at home. So to all of you still searching for yourself, I sincerely hope you find it.

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Ana life hack #1

*disclaimer, I am not pro Ana, and do not condone it in anyway, please do not visit my page if you do not have an eating disorder yet, you’ve been warned*

So I discovered this like 2 minutes ago because I was about to eat an apple. Then... i fRiCken dropped it!!! I was so excited to eat that apple omg.

But then I realized, ‘you know what, maybe it’s not a bad thing’

So ana hack #1,

If your about to eat something, especially something super high calorie or unhealthy, just take all your will, and drop it on the floor. Obviously not something super messy or staining. And don’t drop the container, glass plates, cups, ect, because they will break obviously. You’ll one, probably change your mind about eating it, and you’ll burn some calories while picking it up. It might even motivate you to get some water, which we all know water is something we all need to be taking in more.

So yeah, that was my hack. Remember to at least eat something in a day, or you could die. Please be safe everyone😇👍🏻

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Oops

So last night, something’s really bad happened. It triggered me to SH(I do not in any way condone SH) and binge. So today as sort of a punishment/ way to get back on track. I’ll eat nothing but an apple. And maybe I’ll go for a run sometime today as well, it’s kinda chilly for the middle of summer

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Flaws

I love flaws on other people. Curves, love handles, stretch marks, acne, ect. Imperfections are what make others perfect to me. But when there on me, I hate myself. I think that I am ugly and unworthy of anything good. Why is my mind so toxic?

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So I know I already ‘bragged’ about my fast, but I’m honestly soooo proud of myself. Like a had a week long binge ending two days ago, and now I just completed a fast?? Like I’m really proud.

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Small victory

So I’ve technically just fasted for 24 hours now. I hadn’t eaten anything yesterday for dinner and then nothing all day (except for one super small sip of coffee) and it’s now almost 8 pm. So I’ve successfully had a 24 hour fast. I’m very proud of myself :))) I’m gonna wait until dinner to eat even though I’m really craving a small snack or something but I really don’t want to ruin what I’ve got going. So I’ll have a bit of dinner and maybe try a 12 hour fast tomorrow

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Picture day||poem

“Tomorrow is registration picture day. Which means I have to pretend to be happy. Tonight I will spend hours and hours trying to perfect that fake smile. One day I hope it will be real smile, but I’ve pretty much given up on that”

-my horrifying mind

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Straight edge

I feel like there’s some controversy whether or not underage people who have never done drugs, ect. can be straight edge. When people think of straight edge they think of young adults with questionable pasts full of drugs and alcohol. But no. That’s not the only way someone can be straight edge. I’m 14 years old and I’m straight edge, simply because I have an alternative/punk style but I don’t want to poison my body.